Paranoia hyperconnected

Since the d3ath of my dearest cat, my insomnia got worse a lot.

Looking me outside seems I am pretty okay. Inside I am suffering a lot. She was like a sister to me. She spent her life always with me, in my room, on my chest or anyway near to me. She was "my little soul".

I suffer of insomnia since a while (not always) but since her d3ath, I always go to sleep very late and I sleep very bad. I am tired, depr3ssed and exhausted.

I am was "prepared" to lose her: she was old and sick. But when it happened, I feel something got broken inside me.

I kept her ashes: I will put a pic of her on the top.

I don't know what I am looking for... Only support. Kindness. Understanding.

I see you in the shadows, sometimes.

I hear you in the other cats meows.

I search for you… always: I need confort, I need a life friend. I need you. Sometimes I feel that have only you near to me, purring and meowing softly how only you was able to do, would heal such sufference.