Melanin Goddess

I honestly cannot help it. I do not like being touched. I do not like anyone in my space. I do not like being cuddled or fondled. I do not like foreplay. I HATE kissing. I do not want your lips on mine and I DEFINITELY do not want your tongue anywhere near mine. I do not like the ‘wetness’. I do not like the mess of it all, the sweatiness, the skin to skin. I don’t want anyone’s tongue on my body. I do not want anyone else inside of my body... In no way shape form or fashion. I don’t even like to touch my own personal places, trust me, I tried it..

I always wanted another person to share my life with. But after all these years, I realize that will be hard to come by.

I’ve become someone that I hate. I used to dress nicely and spark my day with makeup. I used to dance and work out to keep my body in shape. I used to go out with friends and go on endless adventures.

Now, I find myself PURPOSELY making myself unattractive. Letting my weight go out of control, scarring my face my popping pimples, not maintaining my hair at all. I barely leave the house, I quit my job.