Apr 25, 2015
Whining
I hate whiners. But only because i am a selfish person and only want to whine to somebody, not to be whined to. I craved attention and intimation. But i trained to think that I don't need any of that, that i am a loner and love being alone. And i act like i am cool about everything, and sometimes i succeed. Most of the time though, my ugliness seeps out. Fake it till you make it, am I right? I wanted somebody to want me to demand more from them, like that person actually can see through my often failed cavalier facade and actually indulge my utmost selfishness. I am selfish, and cynical, and an ugly ugly person. It makes total sense that i am not loved. I wouldn't even love me, why would anyone?
