Aprill Unfiltered

I used to feel invincible after just one cup of coffee. Like, okay! I’m awake, let’s do this, I’m unstoppable. Now I can down a whole energy drink and a venti iced whatever from Starbucks, and still feel like I could fall asleep mid-conversation. No buzz. No motivation. Just...vibes and heart palpitations.

Apparently, your brain literally adapts when you have caffeine daily—it reduces the number of adenosine receptors (the ones that caffeine blocks to keep you awake). So eventually, your body’s just like, “lol nice try” and stops reacting the way it used to.

And yet... I keep drinking it. Every day. Not even for the energy at this point, just for the ritual. And okay—because I love the taste of energy drinks. Especially that Sour Gummy Worm one by Reign?? Absolute perfection. Like liquid nostalgia.

So here I am, three drinks deep on a random afternoon, tired as ever but too emotionally attached to quit. I don’t even know if I expect it to help anymore. I just enjoy the illusion that it might.

At this point, it feels less like taking responsibility and more like damage control for the brand. And the thing is—people aren’t asking for perfection. We’re asking for honesty.

If he just sat down, spoke genuinely, acknowledged what he did without deflecting, and actually made an effort to grow? People would respect that so much more. Accountability isn’t a cancellation—it’s part of being a real human being.