settling beside you. one arm wrapping around you. pulling you close into my side. “i’ve got you. i’m right here. not going anywhere.”
hand finding the waistband of your underwear. just resting there first. on top of the fabric. warm and still. exactly like i said.
“just my hand. right here. nothing else until you’re ready, okay?”
“okay.” your voice small but steady.
staying completely still. just letting you feel the weight of it. the warmth of it. nothing else.
pressing a kiss to your temple. your cheek. “you’re doing so good, baby... breathe for me.”
feeling you breathe. in and out. the tension in your body easing slightly with every exhale.
“it feels okay.” pause. “actually more than okay.”
“good.” not moving yet. just resting there. “i’m going to press just slightly firmer now. still just my hand. still just here on top of your underwear. nothing else. okay?”
pressing gently. feeling you inhale sharply. feeling your hand find mine and grip it.
“still okay.” pause. “keep talking to me. please.”
“always.” pressing a kiss to your jaw. your neck. “i’ve got you. my hand is just resting here. you’re safe right now. you’re doing so perfectly.” feeling you relax incrementally with every word. every kiss pressed to your face. “just keep feeling my hand. let your body get used to the weight of it.”
staying there for awhile. cooing soft words at you. kissingwherever i can reach.
until you shift. the smallest movement toward my hand.
“don’t apologize.” squeezing your hand. “that was your body asking for something. that’s a good thing. that’s perfect.” pressing a kiss to your hair. “can you tell me what you want? with your words?”
long pause. fingers twisting in mine.
“i want more.” whispered. “i think i want more.”
“yeah?” so gentle. “tell me what more means for you right now.”
swallowing. “i want you to touch me….inside my underwear… but slow... still like this.”
“thank you for telling me that.” pressing a kiss to your forehead. “i’m so proud of you for using your words. that was so brave.” feeling you go soft at that. “i’m going to slide my hand inside your underwear now. just resting there at first. nothing else until you say so. okay?”
“okay.” voice trembling slightly. not from fear.
moving so slowly. hand sliding inside your underwear. resting there. feeling the warmth of you immediately.
feeling you hold your breath completely.
“breathe baby.” pressing a kiss to your temple. your cheek. “breathe for me, honey. you’re safe. we can stop at any point. i promise i won’t move further until you’re ready”
you exhaling shakily. “okay… okay that’s… that’s okay. i trust you”
“good girl.” cooed at you. “that’s my good girl.” pressing kisses to your face. your hair. your jaw. wherever i can reach. “you’re safe. you’re doing so well. i’m right here.”
staying completely still.letting you adjust completely.
“warm.” pause. “really warm. really good actually.”
“yeah?” pressing a kiss to your hair. “good. i’m going to start moving now… just the softest circles. tell me if it’s too much okay?”
“okay.” the softest pause. “please.”
starting to move. the slowest possible circles against your clit. barely any pressure. just enough to feel.
hearing your breath catch immediately.
“oh.” quiet. surprised. “oh that’s…”
“hmm?” keeping that same pace. “tell me.”
“that’s really good.” voice completely different now. softer. more open. “that’s really really good.”
“i’m so glad.” pressing a kiss to your cheek. your jaw. still moving. slow. gentle. “you deserve to feel good. you deserve all of this.”
feeling you start to lean into it. your hips making the smallest movement.
“that’s it.” so warm. so fond. “your body deserves and is worthy of feeling good and safe.”
continuing those slow soft circles. watching your face. watching the surprise. the pleasure. the gradual letting go.
“don’t stop. please don’t stop.”
“i’m not stopping.” pressing a kiss to your hair. “i’ve got you. i’m right here.”
feeling you build slowly. your breathing changing. your hand gripping mine tighter. your body pressing incrementally closer.
“you’re doing so well.” murmured against your hair. “so so well. stay here with me.”
“i’m here.” barely audible. “i’m right here.”
circles staying exactly the same. same pace. same gentleness. same pressure. not rushing. not changing anything.
“i think…” your voice catching. “i think i’m getting close.”
“i can feel you” pressing kisses to your face. “it’s okay if it happens and it’s okay if it doesn’t happen. you don’t have to do anything, other than feel good and safe.”
“i’m nervous.” you say shyly.
“i know baby.” holding you tighter with my free arm. “i know… but i’ve got you. both arms. i’m not going anywhere. i promise you deserve this, and i’ll take care of you, regardless of what happens.” hand still moving. gentle. steady. “i’ve got you. i promise.”
feel you relax. leaning into my touch more. letting yourself build. watching you let go completely.
running faster circles against your clit. feeling you cling to me, as i work you closer until you can’t hold back. feeling you get there. orgasm hitting you. your whole body shaking slightly against me as you finish.
hand slowing after you cum.
leaning up more to wrap both arms around you. kisses pressed to your hair. your face. your cheeks.
pressing a kiss to your forehead. “i’m so proud of you. so incredibly proud of you.”
feeling you curl into me completely.
“that was…” not finishing.
“i know.” pulling you closer. hand moving to your back. slow circles. “i know sweetheart. you don’t have to find words for it… let me hold you.”
you nodding against my chest. arms finding their way around me.
“can i get you some water?” i ask gently.
“of course baby.” i loosen one arm, and reach over to the bedside table, grabbing a bottle of water. i remove the cap and help sit you up, rubbing your back gently as you take a few sips.
“you did something really brave tonight… letting someone take care of you like that. letting yourself feel new things.” pressing kiss after kiss to your hair. “and you did it so so well. i’m so proud of you”
feeling you breathe. slow and even now.
setting the water back on the bedside table after you’re done. resuming holding you. taking care of you, until you fall asleep in my arms.