bye bye!!

I’m back because I have no other place to write that I wish I was dead without my bf seeing

do you think he wanted to break up with me last month when it was our year anniversary

my life is straight up falling apart rn

today my bf goes “I’ve found this flat let’s move in!!” dude. you tried to break up with me last week. do you really think this is the way to fix our relationship??

And the icing on the fucking cake is that I’m also only being rejected from jobs! I’ve been unemployed for over a year! No one wants to hire me! I’m actually going to lose it

only back for a sec because I need to vent or I will explode bc my bf has my Twitter so I can’t just say shit bc it’ll worry him lol. he tried to break up with me a few days ago and even tho he took it back my whole life is falling apart lol. Like I thought we were happy, I thought we were planning our future together, we were going to move in, we talked about kids and pets and where we would live. And then just literally out of nowhere I get a TEXT where he says he can’t do this anymore. We saw each other in person yesterday and I said everything I was feeling and how hurt I am and how its going to be so hard to get over, how insecure I’m going to be now. And his only explanation was that he wanted to be alone and so he ended it. He’s said both that it was just kinda impulsive after a bad day, and also that it has been building for weeks. And my head is a mess. I don’t know what to think. I don’t want us to break up, but I also don’t want to be with someone who has tried to end it with me. All day every day I sit and stare at my phone and then lay awake all night, crying every couple hours.

I’ve been suspended on Twitter for a week for telling Laurence fox to eat shit and die so I’m back

you guys are so lucky I didn’t have tumblr while I was with my ex because you would’ve seen me descend into madness every week and a half

the urge to return to tumblr is getting too strong I fear…

what if I just came back to tumblr after 4 years…….