Anon Posting

Feel free to vent in the comments or my inbox... sympathy and understanding will always be recieved.

Diagnosed with MDD and GAD

Call me Ali or Alison.

She / Her , Cis.

Names will be changed for privacy reasons.

DNI : Racists , Homophobes / Transphobes , Judgemental Others (Negative) , Maps , Pedos...

Not welcome. This is a free, safe zone for others (and me, frankly,) to vent without judgement.

If you're any of these... I would advise to leave. Thank you.

Negative Vents

• Ender

• Ender

• Alison / Jolly

• Alison

• Alison

Positive Vents

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Between Positive and Negative Vents

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Other People's Vents

• Driving Anon

I wish my parents never split up

I'm.. visiting my dad and they're still great friends! It's just...

We could've been happy... I could've been happy.

And I love my dads girlfriend, she's great!! My moms current ex... not so much.

I just...

I want to be a family again.

I haven't been eating lately. I don't know why...

Like I feel hungry but I also just don't want to eat. Dinner's gonna be probably in like a few hours... like, 5-6 hours maybe??

It's not that bad, I can wait.

But I feel like I'm gonna throw up if I don't... but I also don't want to.

I don't know, man... my periods done so it isn't that..

I didn't have dinner last night and I haven't eaten all day today..

I'm not sure.

I fucking hate having MMD (Major Depressive Disorder)

All that happened was my stupid FUCKING milkshake being warm. It shouldn't fucking affect me this much and NOBODY UNDERSTANDS!!!!

My best friends don't understand and think I'm just upset because I am-- NO.

I just wanted a FUCKING milkshake to start this DUMB DAY. And now it's fucking warm.

I already had an episode last night... why can't things just go how I need them to?!

Why can't I just be okay?..

Depression hit so hard you jusy cry at anything and everything that overwhelmes you - even if it's small for no apparent resson and you've been feeling like this for a good 2-3 weeks now

Haha

I genuinely still like my ex..

No, not Ender - Jolly.

I just... they lied to me, but... we were FINE until then!

I want to cry so badly I want them back... but I.. just can't say that...

All because I thought I was fuckin' poly... and okay, yeah, I realized they did lie to me even though I asked them not to..

But shit, man... if I just didn't... think that, we would've been fine...

I hate this...

Ender reached out to me and... I guess we made up. He doesn't text me that much, but it's whatever...

I don't feel that well either. It sucks...

I just... I wanna sleep.

Things must've been so hard, anon... I am so sorry.

I'm glad your here today - glad none of it worked.

I really miss Ender..

I remember all the good times we had, y'know? We always laughed and had inside jokes - we shared so much in common too!!

He wasn't a... great friend, though. He had his... moments and flaws, but...

Christ, I miss him so much. I really do... everything feels so boring without the guy.

I mean... we talked everyday, y'know? I would share my day, he'd share his... we'd go on and on about the most random bullshit...

He was somebody I vented to... somebody I shared everything with!!

Now everything we had is just... gone. Because of stupid, stupid misunderstandings...

"Replacing" him doesn't feel right. He was apart of me for so long, dude... he really understood me.

I have other friends, yeah, but... Ender was the guy. My main guy...

Sure I have Candy, Jolly, Sully, and Berry... but it just isn't the same.

All this... school stress isn't helping me either...

How do you move on from something that was important to you more than anything?!

It's like a part of me I had so much mixed emotions with left and I feel incomplete without it...

So much has been on my mind... too much...

Anyway I just needed to vent and I can't vent to my irl best friend because he's really close to her so here I am I guess

This is really tough, anon. I'm so sorry...

I feel a lot is going on on both sides, y'know? She's going through a lot of stuff and it's possible she's lashing out on you because of it.

I personally don't know her or you, but, if anything, you could always try and reach out one more if you really wanna try and fix things. If it doesn't go well, it might just be time to move on. As hard as it sounds, this could be healthy for both of you so the friendship isn't toxic, y'know?

I send support and love to the both of you, anon. I hope things end up well.

TWS

I really want to just end it all... idk why.

I just got this sudden feeling of dying...

I was fine a second ago... I was with my friends, they made me feel so wanted...

I was with people I loved I was with the ones that care for me..

I was fine...

I don't understand...

I'm sorry, Anon.. stress really sucks, I get it.

People suck too, honestly.

Best bet, don't let it get to you too much, y'know? At the end of the day, you're home and not dealing with weirdos on the street.

Hang in there, Anon - we're here for you:)

TWs...

Everything's shitty.

My grades suck, I suck, my choices in life suck, I hate myself I hate everything around me I hate what I feel

I'd rather kill myself than deal with this FUCKING TORTURE!!!

AND NOBODY CAN HELP ME.

I lost somebody, I can't lose them...

I want normalcy. I just want everything to be normal...

I want to be okay again... I want everything to go away....

I want my problems to go away, I want to go away. I want to bash my head against my wall so I forget everybody and everything, so I can start a new damn life and know what's WRONG WITH ME.

I...

I hate this....

I've been happy and fine all day

Why am I suddenly so... tired and upset?.. Maybe it's about what Jolly posted, I dunno...

I want this to end...

Ender and I aren't friends anymore.

He accused me of things that HE DID.

I should've seen the signs beforehand.. Ender was never a good friend.

I've deleted everything I've had of him in my phone.. I want to move on from him.

I usually move on from things easily, but he's been in my life for a while.. a long while.

I think I'll just... have to accept this one is gonna take time. More time than I want.

But, I think it's also safe to say? Ender's not gonna be a problem anymore.

One of my friend's kinda suck.

We'll call him... Ender.

Ender honestly grinds my gears sometimes. He's online, sure, but he can be fucking irrational sometimes.

He talks to me like I'm some incompetent child.

He talks to everybody that way! Even if it's not directly towards me, that doesn't make it any less infuriating.

We've had a *small* disagreement lately, -- no, I wouldn't even call it a disagreement. It's just smth that happened and when I try and fix it, he doesn't even respond!!

He just... pisses me off. Genuinely.