I don't like myself. I don't like the way I look. I don't like my personality and I don't like my life. I want to be more social, to belong in a big group. I want to be funny and cute.I want to look my age. I want to be flirted with. I want to have wild moments, I want an insta. I want people to like my pictures, to be afraid to hurt me when I share my opinion. I want to be heard. I want to be smart. I want to be beautiful without make up. I dont have a personality to be loved for. I'm not funny or extraverted. I'm basic, boring, irrelevant, a ghost. Why would anyone love me? I try too hard to be someone else because I don't like myself. But the person I'm trying to be isn't likeable either. I give too many fucks about what people think about me. I'm too shy, too insecure to voice my opinions. It takes me so much energy to do things. I'm not smart enough. I want to do things that makes me feel gulty. I want to feel special. I want a different ethnicity. I want to work. I don't want anxiety. I want my life to be worth something. I don't want to be average.I don't want to live but I'm afraid to die.










