YOU&I

You don't have to move on to let go.

Do you remember when we used to have political debates? You’re definitely a communist lol. Then we would talk about the Presidents and what we would do if we were in their place. I missed those talks. Just someone to share your intelligence with.

Do you remember when I mispronounced Shania Twain to shay-knee-ah Twain instead of Shan-eye-ah Twain? I remember you said it was cute. I guess you don't remember all the little things you love about me anymore.

Why should I lose sleep over something that couldn't be changed no matter how much sleep I lose?

One day you'll realize you gave up on the one thing that loved you most.

Do you remember when you bought me these super ugly texting gloves when you first chased me? I guess that's the first "gift" you've ever gotten me.

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles are out with a sequel now. Do you remember the first movie we watched together? I purposely picked TMNT because I knew you were afraid of mice and I wanted to see how badly. It was so funny watching you squirm at the sight of the giant rat guy. Honestly, I don’t even remember the movie because I spent the whole time giggling at you. Remember when we come home late at night and you would always run through the path to your place because of the rats? Then you would be mean if I made fun of you and try to scare me about ghosts too. Then I’d hold you closer because I’ll feel safer close to you.

I see your messages, but I’m too scared to respond. I don’t want to know how much you don’t love me anymore. Just let me pretend for a second that everything is okay, that this is just a phase. I wish I can erase all of our memories like how you just forgot about me. I’ve never shut down like this before, for anyone. It’s supposed to give me peace and quiet. I get the quiet, but where’s the peace?