âYou are a special human beingâ
This is an AU I thought about where Seven didnât steal Saeran from the hospital and... well... youâll see... This is the first part.
The Konyang University Hospital is, how the name itself says, both an university and a hospital. Here people with mental illnesses are brought and treated, and students in their last year of studies can come and learn about different illnesses and the ones that graduated can have an actual job here if they want to.
That is the case of Shin Yin, a young woman who just graduated from University. She decided to get a job at the Konyang Hospital because thatâs the place where her older twin sister was hospitalized. Even though she knew her sister was safe and her teachers and colleagues would take good take of her, Yin wanted to be there for her, to be there with her, to make her feel normal and safe, to show her that she didnât do anything wrong.
âBut then⊠Why am I here, Yin-shi?â the short girl asked her sister with a confused look. âIf I didnât do anything wrong, why did they bring me here?...â
âYun, listenâŠâ the blue-eyed woman took her sisterâs hands into hers and looked at her. âYou are here because someone harmed you, you know that. And we just want to make the pain disappear, do you understand?â then she smiled. âYou will be able to go outside without thinking about bad things. Donât you want that?â
âI can go outside?... And no one will ever drug me⊠Or hit me again?...â Yun looked at her sister with hope in her now shiny eyes.
âYes. You can go and be happy with that boy you love⊠What was his name?â
âSaeyoung⊠Saeyoung ChoiâŠâ she smiled and looked at the teddy bear next to her and at the flowers that her boyfriend brought.
âOh, yeah! Silly me⊠But as I said, you will be able to do that. I promise.â
The girls spent time together and felt as if they were young again, as if they were the younger teenagers they were before college and⊠before the incident⊠But they were interrupted by a young man with red hair, golden eyes, glasses and⊠a robo-cat.
âYou must be Saeyoung, right?â asked Yin smiling.
âYes. And I think that you are Yin, Yunâs sister.â he said being happy that he can see his girlfriend smile again.
They got to know each other and spent time with the robo-cat that Saeyoung made⊠until Yin had to leave. I mean, she isnât just a visitor, she is actually working in this place and has her own other patients too.
While walking on the corridor she met one of her colleagues who had a wound on her forehead.
âWhat happened?! Are you alright?â Yin asked, being worried.
âA-Ah, itâs fine donât worry⊠It was my fault⊠I got too close... B-But itâs alright!â her colleague tried to calm her down, but her voice was actually trembling⊠she was hit in her head with something that could almost hurt her eye.
âIt all happened because of that psychopath. That boy that was brought by the CEO of C&R. He is beyond repair, why doesnât anyone see that?â said a nurse, the one that was helping the injured doctor.
âNo patient is beyond repair⊠Maybe something really horrible happened to him and he just canât accept other people⊠Where is he?...â asked Yin, with a calm but worried tone, she, in fact, didnât like what the nurse said. People in this hospital are here because of something, right? Maybe the poor boy lived a life that was so awful and now he doesnât want to experience something like that again.
âMiss ShinâŠâ started the doctor âHe is in the 838 room, but donât go there yet. He was sedated. I am so sorry, we didnât have a choice, but he is too violentâŠâ
âI understand⊠I want to be notified as soon as he wakes up. I want to see that boy. I want to know what happened to him and I really wish to help him.â said Yin, now wanting to know and help that boy, because she knows that he deserves to be helped. âNow please excuse me, I must go.â and then she left.
 Some days have passed but the young woman didnât hear about the boy. She was both angry and disappointed because she asked nicely to be told when the boy woke up, but people just⊠they just didnât do that, so she took this in her own hands and went to the director of the hospital.
âGreetings, miss Shin. May I help you with something?â he asked with a calm tone, he is a nice guy and he really wants everyone to be able to do what they want.
âGood afternoon, mister Park. Iâm sorry for bothering you, but I wanted to ask you something.â said Yin while she was taking a seat.
âOf course, miss Shin. Iâm listening.â
âI heard that thereâs a boy in room 838. And I heard that he was violent and harmed one of the doctors. May I ask how he is now?â
The room remained silent for a few seconds, and then mister Park sighted.
âThe boy from room 838⊠His name is Choi Saeran, a 22 years old young man. He was brought here by mister Han, Jumin Han, some weeks ago. As far as we know from his brother and mister Han, Saeran has childhood trauma, he had some weird substances in his body and now he has trust issues and paranoia. We are trying to find more things about him, but he just wonât let anyone come any closer to him. That boy⊠He harmed 3 doctors until now and 7 doctors gave up on him, even though they tried to help him. I am concerned and I was thinking about discharging him or moving him to an other hospital, but mister Han told not to do so. I guess they want our help, since we are the best in the country and maybe we have nice staff but⊠We canât help Saeran if he doesnât let us do so. When he is alone, he seems to be peaceful, but when anyone tries to approach himâŠâ
âHe gets violent and you have to sedate him⊠Iâve heardâŠâ Yin finished his sentence and sighted. âBut I want to help him. I want to be his doctor and attempt to help him. Can I do that? Please?â
The director looked at her and sighted and then he remained silent.
âOkay, I have an idea. You can visit him and befriend him, because now he has already a doctor and we canât change that now⊠Plus⊠I want to try something new with that boy. Maybe he needs a friend, not a doctor.â
 Some hours passed and now Yin was in front of the door of room 838. She took a deep breath and entered the room.
 [Yin pov] I slowly enter the room and I can see a boy, a thin pale boy, with bleached hair and mint eyes. He looks like he didnât eat in a while⊠Now he is sitting in his bed and he is starring at the clouds. Should I say anything? Well⊠I think yes.
âHello. Youâre Saeran, right?â said Yin with a calm voice.
The boy turned around suddenly and starred at her for a few seconds.
âTch. Are you the new doctor? Donât these idiots get tired of that?! I WANT TO BE ALONE!â he yelled at her and threw a glass of water at her injuring her arm. âGet out!â
âA-AuchâŠâ Yin put her hand on the wound but didnât leave yet. âI understand that you donât want doctors, but thatâs not why Iâm here⊠Iâm here only to talk with you⊠I am not a doctorâŠâ she said with a calm voice and calm look in her blue eyes.
âTo talk?... With me?...â Saeran looked at her being confused, but she seemed to tell the truth. The young woman wasnât wearing a doctor outfit, she just had a blue sweater and jeans, plus, her hair was loose and she didnât have a card on her blouse that contains the word âdoctorâ.
âBut then⊠Who are you?... Why are you here?... How do you know me?...â he was more scared than before, he was thinking that she is here because of his father, because of the monster that hunted him and his brother since childhood. He didnât want to die in the hands of his father, he just wanted a life where he could be alone because everyone disappointed him, a life where he could simply watch the clouds and eat ice cream⊠A life where he could be free and happyâŠ
âDonât be scared⊠It happens that my friend was your doctor and she⊠told me about you⊠But I know that you are misunderstood, Saeran⊠And I want to know why are you acting this way and⊠I want to help you⊠I want to help you get better⊠Because I think that I can understand youâŠâ she said with a little smile on her face trying to ignore the pain in her arm.
âYou⊠want to⊠help⊠me?... You⊠think that⊠you can understand?...â he didnât hear that from the other doctors before so he was more confused than ever. Why does this woman think that she can help him? What makes her think that she can understand him? Nothing, right? Sheâs just a stranger⊠Thatâs allâŠ
âYouâre bleeding.â he suddenly said. âGo and seek help or something. You⊠canât help others if you donât help yourself first.â now the scared and angry face were gone, there was just a blank but calm face.
Yin gave him a small but honest smile. âAlright, Iâll go. But Iâll come back. I promise.â and then she left the room.
While walking to the infirmary she met her old friend, Jumin.
âJumin? Hey! Long time no see!â she smiled.
âHello, Yin. Youâre right, we havenât met in such a long time.â he said calmly, as his voice usually is, but her bloody arm caught his attention. âAre you alright? You should see a doctor right now.â
âMr. Han is right⊠âsaid Jaehee. "Let's go to the infirmaryâŠ"
Yin smiled at them. "I was going to the infirmary right now. Don't worry about me, I'll be fine. It's just a little thing that will get better soon."
"I understand, but is it something that a patient did to you?..." asked Jaehee, being worried.
"Oh, wellâŠ" started Yin, but she was interrupted by Jumin.
"Was it Saeran? I mean, was it Choi Saeran?"
"Jumin⊠I know that you are the one who brought Saeran here, but it's not his faultâŠ" Yin was worried that something might happen to the poor boy because of her, but he couldn't leave yet⊠he needs help⊠and he wants it, but he's too scaredâŠ
"Don't worry, Yin. I'll talk to his doctor and to the director. Please excuse me." and he left.
"Don't worry, Yin⊠Nothing bad will happen to mister Saeran. Mr. Han and I promised to Saeyoung that his brother will be safe." said Jaehee and left as well.
[Yin pov] Did she say⊠Saeyoung? Wait wait wait⊠Saeran Choi⊠Saeyoung Choi⊠They look alike⊠DAMN! THEY'RE TWINS!!
 After going to the infirmary, Yin rushed to her sister's salon.
"Yin-shi! Welcome!" Yun smiled at her, being happy to see her again.
"Yun, helloâŠ" Yin hugged her sister and then let her go. "How are you feeling?"
"Great! How about you?" but the smile on her face faded when she noticed the bandaged arm. "What happened to you?! Who did this to you?!"
"Yun, stay calm⊠I'm fineâŠ"
"No, you're not fine! Tell me what happened!"
Yin sighted. "You know Saeran, right? Saeran ChoiâŠ"
Yun turned pale and stared at her sister. "Saeran⊠did that?... Uh⊠Now it makes sense⊠That's why Jumin is here, huh?..."
"N-No, it's not because of that!!... And⊠seems like you know himâŠ"
"Well, yes⊠I guess I can tell you what happened⊠Saeran was at that place where I went. He was brainwashed like me too, but for a much longer period⊠And much more dosage⊠He was taught to believe that Saeyoung abandoned him, he grew paranoid and not trusting anyone outside MintEye⊠It was hard for him when we took him from there⊠It is even harder to accept that his brother is not how he thought⊠But I think that he feels abandoned because he brought him here⊠Even though Saeyoung visits himâŠ. I've heard that Saeran is violent to his doctors⊠I am afraid that they might move him to an other hospital because of thisâŠ"
"Yes, I know that they might do that⊠That's why I want to help him⊠He only needs time, Yun-heeâŠ"
 Meanwhile, Jumin was talking to the director of the hospital and Saeran's doctor.
"Mr. Han, we tried medications and sedatives, but Saeran seems to be immune to medications. We can try Electroconvulsive therapy. It is a procedure where we pass a carefully controlled electric current through the brain. It should relieve the depression and psychotic symptoms. Hopefully we can get rid of the violent behavior with it. But we need the consent to actually do that." said Saeran's current doctor.
Jumin hesitated a little and then looked at her. "Are there any risks?" he asked.
"Only a few, but they won't harm him physically and his mental health can't get worse."
"Alright. You can do it. But keep it a secret, please."
"Of course, Mr. Han. We will begin the preparations for the procedure. We promise you that nothing bad will happen."
"Thank you." then he said goodbye and left with his assistant.
 [Saeran pov] I was sitting in this damn salon when suddenly the nurses came and gave me a sedative. I think that it was a stronger one because I fell asleep after that. But⊠Where am I now?... What is this room?... What are the things that Iâm connected to?... What are these idiots doing to me?!
âMiss! Miss, we have a problem!â a nurse screamed. âThe patient woke up!â
âWhat?! Didnât I tell you to give him the strongest sedative?!â the doctor yelled.
âI did!... I donât know why he woke up!â
âIt doesnât matter. We should do the procedure now! The machine is already ready!â
âBut MissâŠâ
âDo it!â
The nurses tried to hold Saeran as the doctor approached them with the machine. Saeran was more and more scared, he didnât understand what was happening so he tried to escape and hit the nurses wherever he could.
âStop it, you psychopath! Weâre trying to help you! And this is the only way to do so!â said his doctor with an angry tone and put the machine on Saeranâs head.
A loud scream filled the room and the hall, the electric current that passed his brain hurt Saeran more than anything, especially because he was awake. Tears were running down his cheeks and then he fell unconscious.
 Some days passed, Yun was discharged and the only reason why both Yin and Saeyoung kept visiting the hospital every single day was Saeran. Yes, you may ask âBut isnât Yin working there? She should be there every day.â but no, she should come only in certain days because she has 2 patients that donât need 24/7 support, the hospitalâs management decided that she shouldnât have too much work since itâs her first year. But unfortunately for Yin and Saeyoung⊠they are not allowed to see Saeran. They kept asking why but no one would answer them.
Finally, Yin thought of something. She went to the hospital in her work day and then entered Saeranâs room using her ID card, that can open any room. She found him sitting in his bed, like he usually does but⊠he doesnât seem to notice that she is here.
âSaeran?... HeyâŠâ she talked with a quiet and calm voice; she didnât want to scare him.
Saeran didnât move, he was starring at the wall. Yin got closer and turned him around.
âSaeran-shi⊠Did something happen?...â
Saeran looked at her with a blank but innocent face.
âWho is Saeran?...â he was confused.
âYou are⊠Saeran⊠What happened to you?...â
âAm I?... I canât remember who I amâŠâ
Yin looked around the room and found some medicine that is given to people who went through ECT. She thought a little and realized what happened to him.
âUh⊠You⊠You are a special human being⊠A human who was too innocent for this awful worldâŠâ she gave him a weak sad smile. And he⊠he smiled back. âI have to go, alright? But Iâll be back soon.â
âAlright.â the boy replied with a calm face.
When Yin arrived at the door, she felt her hand being taken in someoneâs hands so she turned around her head and looked at Saeran who was holding her hand.
âHey, Miss⊠When you will be back⊠Can you bring some ice cream?... I really want ice creamâŠâ he said with an almost silent voice, he was afraid to ask since the nurses would yell at him and slap him, but he felt like she wonât ever yell at or hurt him.
âOf course, Saeran-shi⊠Which flavor do you like the most?...â
âI⊠I like the strawberry oneâŠâ
