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I got myself into all this mess, fucked up my life and now I have to deal with the consequences.

I made the worst life choices, I truly digged my own grave.

I want to tear my heart off my chest, this is so fucking painful, I can't keep doing this, it's been too long.

I'm actually fisicaly sick, this is disgusting, it's making me feel disgusted even at myself

I'm gonna throw up. This whole situation just makes me sick, I feel sick all day fron rage and sadness.

I'm so scared of the future, I don't want to keep trying, I'm so tired of trying, I just want to go to sleep, to finally find someone who's gonna love me, not just deal with me because they feel pity or because they like my body, actually love me, actually feel something for me, anything other than pity or lust.

I'm going insane, I can't keep doing this, I'm actually gonna lose my mind.

I miss my mom and my best friend already, the only people who I feel secure with, there's no one left with me and I can't keep doing this anymore.