i dont think my dad realizes, even though ive fucking told him multiple times, that what hes doing makes me want to die. i literally do not want to be alive after he yells at me. it affects me so much and i hate it but its always been like this and it doesnt even matter what heās yelling at me about, but i always get so upset afterwards because it makes me think about how we have such a bad relationship and it breaks my heart















