fuck

HELL IS EMPTY, CAUSE ALL MY DEMONS ARE HERE.

&.     she  stumbles  back  ,  taking  as  many  steps  away  from  him  as  she  could  until  the  small  of  her  back  makes  contact  with  the  kitchen  counter  .  knows  he’d  never  hurt  her  ,  but  part  of  her  still  afraid  that  the  same  hand  that  had  so  softly  pushed  her  away  would  slap  her  across  the  face  / / /  a  fear  that  her  father  had  instilled  in  her  every  time  she’d  disappointed  him  .  blue  eyes  can’t  look  at  him  anymore  :  not  as  his  voice  raises  (  the  first  time  it’s  ever  been  directed  at  her  )  &  she  knows  she’s  fucked  up  .  but  annika  had  reminded  her  that  sobriety  was  the  most  important  thing  [  .  .  .  ]  even  if  sam  wasn’t  quite  convinced  .  

&.     blinking  back  tears  before  they  can  fall  from  her  cheeks  ,  she’s  almost  tempted  to  just  walk  away  without  another  word  .  but  he  deserved  better  than  that  ,  didn’t  he  ?  deserved better  than  HER  .  teeth  dig  into  the  inside  of  her  cheek  as  she  breathes  out  a  harsh  sigh  ,  eyes  closing  as  tight  as  they  can  .  ❛  𝐢'𝐦  𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲  ,  𝐫𝐲  ,  𝐢  𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭  ——  ❜  a  hand  runs  through  her  hair  ,  pulling  on  it  a  little  too  hard  before  she  shakes  her  head  .  ❛  𝐢  𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭  𝐛𝐞  𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝  [  .  .  .  ]  𝐚𝐥𝐥  𝐨𝐟  𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬  .  ❜  the  drugs  ,  the  alcohol  ,  the  partying  :  it  was  all  too  much  for  her  .  

                No,    he    would    never    lay    a    hand    on    her,    even    in    self    defense.    He'd    let    her    beat    him    until    he    was    pulp    in    the    ground.    It    makes    him    sad    that    she    felt    the    need    to    back    away    from    him,    but    in    the    same    breath    he    understood    it.    He    was    battered    around    as    a    kid    too.

HE’S GOING TO LAUGH A LITTLE , enjoying the FLATTERY. “ Thanks you , darling , I have mores of these , I doesn’t just bring ONE pair. I haves a clear pair of these , in cases that these ones break or somethings.  Hah , are yous right now ? I have more of these joints if you wants to share , I have a pipe & a bong in my dressings room too. Reallies strong shit. I never gets to get high with anyone , it is not a lot of fun by yourselves. “ SWESS WOULDN’T WANT TO HOLD HIM UP , ANYWAY ! but , the offer was there ! & with the kind of personality he had , he would offer , even without the direct assumption. “ But it is all well if you does not want to , too. I must be soo rude to not introduction myself , eh ? my name is Candi here , kind of a BIG DEAL , if you asks me. “ 

TAGGED BY :    @crowsung TAGGING :    @excentriquee, @crimsxnidol, @candiallure

INCLINATIONS  &  HABITS  :

is  submissive.   is  dominant.    prefers  to  top.    prefers  to  bottom.  likes  to  switch.  identifies  as  heterosexual.  identifies  as  homosexual.     identifies  as  bisexual.   identifies  as  pansexual.    identifies  as  demisexual.    identifies  as  asexual.     enjoys sex  with  men.   enjoys  sex  with  women.    enjoys  sex  with  multiple  people  at  one  time.   initiates.   waits  for  partner  to  initiate.   spits.     swallows.     prefers  sex  in  the  morning.     prefers  sex  at  night.   prefers  sex  any  time.    no  sex  drive.   low  sex  drive.   average  sex  drive. high  sex  drive.   hypersexual.

BODY   /   APPEARANCE  :

small  build.     medium  build.   athletic  build.   muscular  build.     curvy  build.     voluptuous build.     wears  boxer (briefs) .   wears  lingerie.     goes  ‘commando.’   shaves  /  waxes. doesn’t  shave  /  wax.   cup  size  a - c.   cup  size  d - f.     1 - 5"  in  length.    6 - 9"  in  length. 10"  or  over  in  length.

SOUNDS  :

is  silent  /  makes  little  to  no  sounds.     is  very  quiet.    is  very  loud.   grows  in  volume  over  time.   bites  hand  /  partner  /  pillow  to  muffle  themselves.    calls  out  partner’s  name.   curses.   fakes  /  exaggerates.     prefers  a  quiet  partner.     prefers  a  loud  partner.   is  turned  on  by  dirty  talk.   is  turned  off  by  dirty  talk.

KINKS  :

having  their  hands  pinned.    pinning  their  partner’s  hands.   having  their  hair  pulled.   pulling  on  their  partner’s  hair.    being  watched  ( by  their  partner ).   being  watched  ( by  a  third  party ).   watching  their  partner.   receiving  oral.   giving  oral.   calling  their  partner  ‘ daddy.’    being  called  ‘daddy.’    giving  praise.   receiving  praise.    biting  /  marking.   being  bitten  /  marked.   some light spanking.   being  spanked.   teasing.   being  teased.   having  toys  used  on  them.   using  toys  on  their  partner.   giving  anal.  receiving  anal.  choking.    being  choked.    dirty  talk.    being  tied  up.   tying  their  partner  up.   being  worshiped.   worshiping  their  partner.   humiliating.   being  humiliated.   degrading.     being  degraded.  knife  play.     blood  play.   being  pegged.  pegging.

PLACES  :

                If    he    could    smile    any    wider,    he    would,    but    his    skin    is    already    very    purple.    Sporting    a    black    eye    and    a    bruised    cheek.    For    a    moment,    everything    was    right.    He    apologized,    admit    to    his    fault    (    even    if    that's    debatable    ),    and    everything    seems    to    be    okay    !!    But    he    can't    help    it    that    his    smile    falters    and    loses    its    shine    when    she    says    those    words    he    would    have    hoped    to    never    hear.    His    heart    sank    through    the    floor,    it    felt    like.