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(the silence after a scream, the breath before goodbye)
β Please donβt make me say goodbye. Not again. β
β You promised youβd stay. Why wasnβt that enough? β
β I keep waking up thinking youβre still here. β
β I tried to forget you. I really did. β
β If I asked you to stay, would you? β
β I didnβt mean to fall in love with you. I just wanted to feel something. β
β You left me to pick up the pieces, and now you want to come back? β
β Iβve buried a lot of things, but your name still feels fresh on my tongue. β
β Donβt you dare tell me this is for my own good. β
β You always leave when I need you most. β
β I shouldβve told you how I felt when I had the chance. β
β Do you ever think about what we couldβve been? β
β Every song, every scentβitβs still you. Always you. β
β You were supposed to be my forever. β
β I saw you today. You looked happy. I almost called out your name. β
β I keep replaying that last moment over and over, hoping Iβll change it somehow. β
β I wasnβt trying to hurt youβI was trying to protect you. β
β I thought I could live without you. I was wrong. β
β You haunt every place I go. β
β I still sleep on your side of the bed sometimes. Itβs pathetic, I know. β
β Donβt touch me. You lost that right the second you lied. β
β How long were you planning on keeping that from me? β
β You swore I could trust you. Was that a joke? β
β Iβd rather you hate me than pity me. β
β You looked me in the eye and still lied. Thatβs what hurts the most. β
β I forgive you, but Iβll never forget. β
β I wouldβve given you everything. And you knew that. β
β You made me feel safe. Thatβs the cruelest part. β
β You didnβt even flinch when you broke my heart. β
β Was any of it real, or was I just convenient? β
β I love you, but itβs killing me. β
β Iβd rather hurt with you than heal without you. β
β You canβt save me, and I canβt stop wanting you to try. β
β Youβre my favorite mistake. My worst decision. My only one. β
β It hurts to look at you, knowing what we lost. β
β We couldβve had everything. Why did we choose this instead? β
β Youβre the reason I stopped believing in happy endings. β
β I donβt hate youβI wish I did. β
β Tell me you donβt love me anymore. Justβ¦ make it sound convincing. β
β Loving you feels like bleeding and pretending itβs beautiful. β
β Itβs quiet now. Too quiet without you. β
β I donβt know how to stop missing you. β
β Sometimes I catch myself reaching for your hand. β
β You moved on. Iβm still here, waiting for a ghost. β
β Maybe we were never meant to last. But god, I wanted to. β
β I saw you with them. And for a moment, I was happy you were smiling again. β
β You said Iβd thank you one day. Iβm still waiting for that day. β
β Every time I start to heal, you show up again. β
β Maybe we loved each other wrong. Maybe thatβs all it was. β
β I hope you find the peace I couldnβt give you. β