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(slurred honesty, trembling hands, and the kind of truths that only spill when the world is blurry)
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âI didnât mean to call you⌠actually, no. I did. I just shouldnât have.â
âWhy does it hurt more when Iâm sober? At least like this I can pretend.â
âI keep trying to forget you. But tonight? Youâre all I remember.â
âI said Iâd moved on. But look at me â Iâm still falling apart.â
âTell me you miss me too⌠just lie to me for one night.â
âIf I start crying, donât you dare walk away.â
âI tried to drink you out of my system. It didnât work.â
âPlease⌠just stay until the room stops spinning.â
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âI shouldnât be saying this, but you ruined me. Completely.â
âYou were supposed to stay. Why didnât you stay?â
âI wish I hated you. It would make this easier.â
âDonât look at me like that â like Iâm something to save.â
âIâm tired of pretending Iâm fine. Iâm not.â
âYou donât get to walk back into my life like nothing broke.â
âYouâre the reason I drink, you know that?â
âI shouldnât want you here⌠but I do.â
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âI thought if I numbed it, the past would stop clawing at me.â
âI still hear your goodbye every time I close my eyes.â
âWhy didnât you fight for me?â
âI know I messed up. I just donât know how to fix it anymore.â
âI keep imagining what we couldâve been.â
âTell me⌠was any of it real?â
âI shouldnât have pushed you away. I know that now.â
âI didnât lose you. I threw you away. And I hate myself for it.â
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âDonât look at me like that. Iâll say things I canât take back.â
âIf I kiss you right now⌠will you stop me?â
âIâm drunk, not stupid â I know you still care.â
âYouâre the only person I want to see when Iâm like this.â
âSit with me. Please. I donât want to be alone tonight.â
âCan you just⌠hold me? Just this once.â
âI shouldnât tell you this, but gods, I miss you.â
âIf I pass out, promise you wonât disappear.â
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âIgnore everything I said earlier. Or donât. I donât care anymore.â
âYeah, Iâm drunk. But that doesnât make the truth less real.â
âI didnât call anyone else. Just you.â
âI need you. And I hate that.â
âCan you come get me? I donât trust myself alone.â
âIf I show up on your doorstep, promise you wonât slam the door?â
âI miss your voice. Say something. Anything.â
âI know youâre angry⌠but Iâm not hanging up until you talk to me.â
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âYou donât have to forgive me⌠just listen.â
âI canât forget what I did. I just wish youâd tell me it didnât ruin everything.â
âIf I hurt you, I need to hear it from you. Not from my guilt.â
âStay until morning. Let me face this with you.â
âI donât know what Iâm supposed to do without you anymore.â
âIâm sorry. Not the drunk kind⌠the real kind.â
âWhen I wake up tomorrow, Iâll still want you here.â
âIf this is goodbye, let me remember how your voice sounds.â