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> REWINDING VHS TAPE . . .

> SUCCESSFULLY REWINDED!

>> › SPIRALING INTO THE CHAOS OF THE ANGELS.. ‹

Forced to split by another alter, just to get us out of a system shutdown

But now I'm in front, wondering what my purpose is

My task? My everything?

I'm homesick, I miss my people and now I'm stuck in this body, because someone decided a forced split would lessen the burden, but now I'm here, suffering and pulling everyone down with me.

I wish I was split with a purpose in this system

Yeah, so basically this is how both, Anton (blue) and I (yellow) guide ourselves through stress - internally, lol

AND IT'S SO FUNNY LMAO😭

dissociative amnesia can go fuck itself, I THINK we experience mostly selective amnesia and we are so heavily disconnected from the emotions we have of our memories and sometimes with traumatic things, it's "okay"-

but holy shit we saw old pictures from our childhood where we look happy and we remember what happened there but when we replay that memory in our head, we are extremely disconnected from the emotions felt there

so many pictures where we were so happy and none of us are able to feel connected to the emotions of said memories

with that being said:

please be cautious about sharing roles online (in pk descriptions, prns.cc, whatever)

there are those "common" roles like, caretaker, host or gatekeepers, that don't really give you any danger when sharing those.

how could people ever use being a host against you, or whatever?

but emotion- and trauma related or protector related roles can put you in danger when shared, since emotions, trauma and protection is something that could be used against you when shared with the wrong people.

you don't know which people treat persecutors as an evil asshole, you don't know which people will stress those emotion- and trauma holders into who knows what, And So On.