I want to be your maker

I’m still getting into nonfiction, but I also adored ‘unmasking autism’ by dr devon price and ‘the body keeps the score’ too

I tend to look for authors I know (I’m particularly into horror authors!!) and aside from that, any horror literature written by women, anything that looks Weird in general lol and also translated fiction too especially japanese!

I don’t know if I’m the only one who has always felt uncomfortable by louis calling armand arun as a sexual dynamic and as part of that dynamic ‘making’ him do things he didn’t want to do but i feel like the finale scenes added even more depth because louis was clearly horrified that arun was twelve and held this in his mind but still proceeded to call him it. was it to allude himself he had the control with armand that he never felt he had with lestat? was it a way to comfort armand and fit them into a neat dynamic that could soothe both of their needs? was it a way for louis to convince himself that he had the power in the relationship when really it was the other way around? either way that dynamic is now made all the more uncomfortable by the fact that louis is appalled that arun was twelve. to me none of their ‘are you making me’ scenes appear positive or erotic and in fact disturb me greatly so I appreciated the nuance they’ve added to it. in the end armand needs someone who will cradle him, soothe him like a child. the way marius didn’t. the way louis didn’t either.