An Erotic Writer's Desk.

Heeeey, much has happened this month, surprisingly. My total number of stories on Literotica doubled! And I'm making headway on other stories!

Anyway, onward with updates!

The Great Lake!

The first chapters of The Great Lake are finally published! You can check them out here on Literotica:

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

You can find the entirety of the story on StoriesOnline here.

This is the first arc of the story, which covers Mavis' first day at the lake. Subsequent arcs will likely follow that same pattern of being days at the lake. I have the Day 2 Arc sketched out to some degree, but I'm not ready to tackle it yet.

A Fun Little Swim!

After nearly FOUR years, I finally published Part 2 of A Fun Little Swim! Sylvia explores the depths of the inland ocean Colwyn Llyn, and meets a couple strange creatures along the way 😉

You can find Part 2 here on Literotica.

You can find the entirety of the story on Hentai-Foundry here.

(StoriesOnline links next week, I think?)

Scene From An Abandoned Bathroom!

After seeing how The Great Lake did, I feel like it's safe to repeat the same process for Scene From An Abandoned Bathroom, which has been on standby for quite some time. I'll work on this and probably publish it some time next month. No exact ETA though. Stay tuned...

Cantata For The Wolf Moon!

Finally, after nearly two years, I have an editor for this story! So this will be edited and published in the near future. When? Uncertain. Recent chats indicate they won't be able to get to it until late next month at the earliest. So while I'll certainly make a more reasonable effort to get this published, it won't be for a while.

A Long Trip To Nowhere Important!

So, in the process of getting this all squared away, I felt motivated enough to work on Part 3 of A Long Trip to Nowhere Important. This part introduces Juli, who in this universe is a hitchhiking rich girl with nothing to do and a stash of various recreational pharmaceuticals to spice up her sex life. The story will also introduce an alien with a more than passing interest in Sasha. It will be quite a bit shorter than Part 2 turned out to be, and I'm already about 60-70% done with it. My hope is that I'll have it written out by the end of the year, if not sooner.

But, andi, you haven't finished Part 2 yet...

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Thinking Ahead...

So, now that those stories have been published and my backlog's begun to lighten, I'm thinking about some things I've kept shelved for some time and want to revisit.

The one that sticks out to me is building an actual site. I've put that on the backburner for various reasons, including the lockdown. But as it stands...nobody's on Tumblr anymore. Part of the reason for my base had much to do with A3D, who, while I still have some involvement with, I'm not as active as I used to. Most people were here for the pictures. I barely get any responses to these posts anymore.

But more importantly, I want a place for my stories, something that looks coherent, and one where I don't have to worry about rules as much. Moreover, I have a little more legitimacy in certain spaces having this site up. I'll still publish on Literotica, Hentai-Foundry, and StoriesOnline, but I want there to be a place for everything. I have a basic idea for the structure, which'll probably be based on WordPress. I just need to get a designer to build a theme that's appropriate for it. And I know just the person...

Plus I need to find the right host, one that won't complain about what stuff I post. That one is super tricky. Kupaa could be an option, but I'm faintly aware of there being some tumult happening with that service, and I'd rather not involve myself in it. Plus it's really expensive unless I shard it with, say, Intrigue3D...

These are things I will start to dwell on once I at least get Scene From An Abandoned Bathroom, maybe A Long Trip Part 3, out of the way.

From there...we'll see what happens. But I don't think it'll necessarily take long. Ideally, it's something that'll happen in Q4, but it may spill into the new year. We'll see.

The Immediate Future

Here's what's on the docket at this point:

October: Scene from an Abandoned Bathroom

October-November: A Long Trip Part 3 (Draft)

Q4 2021(?): Cantata for the Wolf Moon

Q4 2021/Q1 2022: New Website?

TBD: A Long Trip Part 2 (Draft)

It's been a long time, hasn't it?

Not that it's been a big thing. My follower count here has been steady, but I feel like 90% of my followers no longer visit Tumblr. Probably higher?

No matter. It's been about 6 months since I last posted something, so I might as well update and explain what's going on.

Bad Cuts

When I last posted, I was recovering from a knife injury. That sapped all the motivation I had in completing the standing projects I had at that time. After I mostly recovered from that, I entered a depressive funk for unrelated reasons for about a month. Eventually, I recovered, especially when I realized I needed to move from my old place. 5 years in a glorified basement was long enough. So I made an effort, and two months ago I moved to a nice new place. A week after I moved in, the landlords decided to sell the building. You see how this is all going.

Regardless, I made slow strides in finishing up what projects I could. And now I can say I made enough significant progress to talk about them! So let's do that, and be on with it.

A Long Trip, Part 2

So, I'm at a point where I can say I'm finished with Part 2 of A Long Trip to Nowhere Important. As it stands, though, it's about 4 times as long as Part 1, and possibly longer than [REDACTED RETCONNED NOVELLA]. Who knew that introducing a new character would be so difficult?

Furthermore, I'm at a standstill. I'm undecided whether to add yet another sex scene. It sounds like the weirdest point to be undecided, I know, especially when there's some character development that is possible through that sex scene. But I'm also just...you know, kind of done with this part? And I kind of want to move to edits so I can move to Part 3, where another character will be introduced. (Joy!)

At this point, I'm going to hold off doing anything further until I deal with the other two projects first.

A Fun Little Swim, Part 2

This one is in editing stages still mainly because I haven't done anything to edit it since I heard back from the new editor (who thankfully is still around). I'll be reaching out to them to let them know that I am working on it again, and then we'll see if we can make another round of edits work.

The Great Lake

This one...well, this one is about to get interesting. First off, I finally went and finished Chapter 3 of this story this past week! Huzzah! Of course, now I've all but completely forgotten the entire arc I had in mind for this story, buuuut at the very least certain parts of it will remain. I know the ending at least, I know the parts I want in there.

But here's where things get interesting: I once again have no editor to look at this. The person I have editing A Fun Little Swim was reading this from the perspective of it being a monster piece. The Great Lake is more...futa-centric. And honestly, they're not into that stuff, which is fine.

As I finished up Chapter 3, though, I began to think that I couldn't just constantly hold out hope that an editor will show up and look these stories over for free, much as I would like them to. Not to mention I've lost touch with my original editor, who was...having a time in this pandemic. Moreover, these stories are unique in that I wrote them on my handy typey thing (aka Freewrite Traveler. Aside: Can I just say the Hemingwrite they just showed off recently was...kind of an overpriced joke?).

Eventually I came up with, or perhaps accepted, the idea that I should just publish these regardless of whether they've gotten polish from an editor or not. Admittedly, it's frustrating because I risk getting whacked with poor ratings. But at the same time, it does mean that I will actually publish more than one story this year! How about that!

So I've been doing my best the last couple days polishing up The Great Lake into something decent. Then I will submit the first chapter to Literotica. I will probably do that tomorrow. Yes, you heard right: We might have something new by the end of August!

If these first three chapters do well, I may move to do the same to some other stories that have been gathering cobwebs (though not all of them) for lack of an editor. Scene from an Abandoned Bathroom in particular stands out in this regard. If they don't do well...I'll just chalk them up as a loss, and go back to seeking out editors.

The Immediate Future

So, this is what the plan looks like for the next month, month and a half:

August-September(ish): The Great Lake, Chapters 1-3

September/October: A Fun Little Swim, Part 2

September (maybe): Scene From An Abandoned Bathroom

No guarantees though. We'll see how this all pans out.

Hey there everyone. I hope you're doing okay.

Going to summarize what follows below here: I have a new editor I'm working with on a trial run, I completed at least one story and am nearing completion on another, and my momentum got whacked by injuries.

Editors!

So I finally managed to get a new editor to work on stories. So far, we've worked on A Fun Little Swim, Part 2. A second draft is in the works, should be ready in a couple weeks.

I may also endeavor to use StoriesOnline's editors. Depending on the situation, I may have another story worked as well. But hey, at the very least, I'm making progress in dealing with my backlog. And just in time, too, because...

Stories!

I got more stories in the pipeline! The next part of A Long Trip to Nowhere Important has made a lot of progress. I may split it to multiple parts, though, given it's much larger than I anticipated (already at 12k total and it's probably going to be another 3-4k). It also inspired an alternate ending that I may do in the future. I really enjoy writing this story, it's so much fun 🙂

I also completed the second chapter and got well into the third chapter of The Great Lake. After the third is complete, I'll seek out edits for the set of three.

Underneath Her Skin I'm putting on ice. I like the idea, but I'm not sure how I feel about how things are set up with it. I might go back to the topic at some point.

I was actually hoping to get both A Long Trip Part 2 and The Great Lake 1-3 done this month, as a sort of personal goal. But then...

Injuries!

I sliced my finger making soup 🙁

I'm fine, though I had to go to the ER to get stitches. Consequently, though, the creative momentum I had going into February kind of collapsed. I haven't really written much since then. Unfortunate, really, but it happens.

My hope is that next month, with editing, I'll start regaining momentum and writing things again.

Hey there everyone. It’s been a while. Let’s talk, shall we?

Sylvia Confronts Her Nightmare

The first part of this story, based entirely on the mini-set, is done, draft-wise. It’s rather big at under 12k words, something I want to address in edits. I’ll be posting it in the usual haunts, but also sending it along to Dizzy to see what he thinks.

New Stories(?!)

Yes, you heard that right. The past year, I’ve been a little hesitant to write new stuff post A Long Trip To Nowhere Important. My backlog got huge. 

And then I got this:

Yes, a Freewrite Traveler. (I got it on pre-order, so no, I didn’t pay full price) I call it my typey thing! 

It’s actually been really useful in just letting myself write stuff on a whim rather than let ideas stew, then start writing only to get distracted, etc. etc.

The folder you see there contain stories I’ve been writing. One of those is already complete and the start of a new series, this one using original characters for once! To briefly summarize it:

Mavis, an intersex woman, has lived a pretty terrible life. Just recently, she got kicked out of a relationship (and town) when her secret was revealed. Traveling into the woods to find some solace, she stumbles upon a mysterious lake, with some very friendly folks to put her mind and body at ease. But what is the nature of the lake? And what does it have in store for Mavis? 

I’m halfway through the second part, but I can already envision the full arc being about 6-8 parts. Based on a suggestion by my editor, I may start writing these in shorter chunks to make it easier to read/edit. The second part is halfway done ish. 

The third story is another series idea I come up with, far more embryonic (though I have 2-3 parts planned out in my head). It revolves around the idea of “shedding your skin.” Let’s leave it at that for now.

Regardless, one thing remains unresolved: editing.

The Editor Issue

Editors are something I’ve had a lot of trouble getting to help. Obviously, it would never be easy since most of these stories I’m doing for free. But still. I had a trusted editor, but they have been going through a lot of issues in 2020, and they were always a bit trouble to reach in the past. A huge part of me feels guilty for letting them go for now. But at this point, I’m held up with such a backlog that I just need to clear these stories outright so I can move on with new stuff.

I’ll be looking at getting new editors in the coming weeks and months at this point. How remains uncertain. Some of the stories will not be available through LE, so I may avoid using their system. I’ll keep you posted.

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Sorry to take so long to post this blog, but FINALLY, a new story was published last week, called Those Who Came Before.

You can find it at these fine outlets:

Literotica

Hentai-Foundry

StoriesOnline

This also marks my debut at StoriesOnline! I hope those of you who came from there enjoyed this story 🙂

For those who need a description, here’s what I wrote in HF:

Gwen was the apex of genetic perfection, a "human" with alien genes from the mysterious Those Who Came Before. She was never meant to be cooped up in a lab. After her escape, she recalls the aftermath in a recording. She also tries to make sense of an encounter at a space diner with an alien stranger. There, she learns—to her unexpected pleasure—that she's something other than "human."

I have been getting a lot of positive feedback on this story, and I’m grateful. With that said, one of the things people kept asking about was a continuation of the story itself. Some bad news on that front: It is a self-contained story and will not be getting any sequels.

There are a few reasons for that:

I wrote this back in 2019 (yes, it’s been kicking around that long) as sort of a flavor text, a character development piece, to complement Dizzydills’ main universe. I never fully envisioned it to be part of its own storyline, since I kind of wanted some of the ideas to enter the main universe on its own.

Dizzydills is well...extraordinarily protective of his characters, to use his words. I floated the ideas of this story to him once, and he was ultimately dismissive of it, with the main aspect of this story (that is to say, transformation) not applying except in very specific circumstances, of which this would not be one of them.

Regardless of these, as noted in an earlier blog, Dizzydills retconned his entire universe recently, rendering the storyline that made this story possible moot.

I also wrote this as a way to experiment with perspective, namely through writing it as the character telling the story in a recording. First-person done in a realistic way. I’m not sure I could continue playing with that perspective, and I’d rather not shift perspectives in a follow-up.

Regardless, the idea of a genetically engineered woman with human and alien genes who is capable of leveraging both is something I could definitely see myself writing. Problem is, I need to do it in a way where I’m not just ripping off/plagiarizing Gwen’s origin, and with a character that isn’t Gwen. And...well, Dizzydills’ characters are a set of the few muses I have, much to my (mis)fortune. 

In any case, the good feedback means I feel comfortable adding more stories. I’ll be publishing some more stories in the near future on Storiesonline. One will be A New Suit, a story from 2017 I couldn’t get published on Literotica for various reasons. Expect that in the next...few days or so? Much sooner than previous releases. Then other stories will follow.

As for story updates:

Sylvia Faces Her Nightmare: As I mentioned in a previous blog, I started writing this recently on a lark, and enjoyed it. Now I have made small progress since then, maybe 50% complete? But I also felt suddenly inspired to write the follow-up in conjunction with it. While this would be more blatantly deviating from the original set, it does keep the focus intact while examining Sylvia’s backstory a bit. Basically, she’s going home to visit her mother, and finds a few surprises, including a reunion with her first lover. She also learns what caused her fear of horses in the first place, and confronts it once and for all. I’d say I’m a third done with it.

A Long Trip To Nowhere Important: Still at odds on Part 2, though I have a general idea on Part 3. We’ll be meeting Juli in that episode.

Scripts: I recently handed off some scripts to someone of importance. With those done, I can move on to other projects, including the one I’ve been on-and-off with with Chimera46. Might also start toying with erotic radio play ideas...but I need someone to work with on that.

So I was told today that it’s the 9th anniversary of this here Tumblr. I find it hard to believe that I’ve been active for this long...but hey, what better time to share some good news!

Those Who Came Before will be submitted for publication this weekend!

That story has been sitting out for a year, possibly more. I’m glad that it’s finally ready for prime time. I will be publishing in the usual outlets (LE and HF). I’ll also be trying out a new outlet, StoriesOnline, recommended to me by another writer.

Geez, it’s been a while. I don’t know what else to really say to that. Part of this is my fault, since I spent late August/early September on vacation (Which was really nice. I saw ducks! And a mooooose) and kind of just forgot about checking in.

Anyway, updates, per usual.

Collabs!

Sluggish on that front. Sent some proposals, but not all to Chimera46. My hope is I get the rest done in October.

Scripts!

That has more progress being done with them. A few are actually complete, and I just need to make a couple revisions before sending them off. Then I’ll move on to some new stuff there. I also worked out a potential animation script in my head (mostly writing up lore stuff) for another artist that I tried reaching out to recently, but I haven’t heard anything from. I don’t think anyone else has either lately shrug

Stories!

Surprisingly, I’ve done quite a bit of work on a couple different stories at this point. Let’s go over some of them, shall we?

Those Who Came Before: This awaits final edits, with the hope that it should be published soon.

A Long Trip To Nowhere Important: So, I decided to start writing Part 2! This will involve Sasha’s first run-in with Sylvia. Sylvia’s quite different from her main universe counterpart in many ways...but also the same in others. I’m about 50-60% done with this text, all of which I’ve done in the last week. I also scribbled out a lot of lore for the series. I think it’ll work great.

Sylvia Confronts Her Nightmare: At some point in August, I felt compelled to write up a story based on Sylvia’s meeting with her “nightmare” 😉 This is about 40% complete. I’m not sure if/when I’ll get back to it, but it’s still something to do.

Finally, one of my editors has finally re-surfaced. This might mean more stories get put out? Maybe? Let’s hope so 🙂

6 years already...?

So I got an email this morning saying this Tumblr is 6 years old. It’s hard to imagine that I’ve been involved in 3DX for that long. I’d been around erotica for a bit longer than that, but it’s only around then that I started taking on my work under the name andi guinness. So much has happened since then, etc. etc.

The circumstances have obviously changed a lot. 2020...well, what can be said that hasn’t been already? I can’t even say anything worth noting, because you’ve already heard it in one way or another. So much noise, like the cicadas I hear outside right now...only 1000-fold.

On the 3DX/erotica front...I’ve all but lost an editor, and I’ve gained one. Projects have been sporadic, but I’ve made efforts to work with artists, some of which I’ll describe below. My hopes of starting my own work in animation have been halting at best. Problem is, as always, motivation. It’s weird, too: It’s not even a specific motivation to do work in Blender that’s the issue at hand, it’s to do anything, really. I feel like YouTube and Twitch are partly to blame, with me just using it as my replacement to TV. But there are even nights where I just kind of stare into space for hours at a time, unmotivated to do anything. That’s a problem. I wouldn’t blame it on the current state of affairs outside, though, since this was always evident for me.

I have to make changes in some of the things I do. I have plans to do that. A trip I’m planning now may offer some needed direction. I won’t say where and how, but perhaps this is what I’ve needed to do for some time. I’m also going to try new things, such as exercise. I’ve always been wanting to do that, but again, motivation escapes me. What I have planned may give me that motivation.

Regardless, it’ll be hard to say where I’ll be come next month or the month after mentally. Still, I’m hopeful.

Anyway, project updates:

Those Who Came Before

This story has received significant edits and another review round. It needs one more round before I’m satisfied with publishing it. I think some of the changes I did are for the better, makes the story more erotic and less porn.

In regards to the other stories, nothing has changed. That said...

A Retcon?!

Earlier this month, Dizzydills finally resurfaced after being absent from the community for over 7 months. Among the things he did (including a new set) was announcing changes in his overall storyline. Those included retconning all the previous episodes that he’s published into an isolated timeline, ala Star Wars Legends. The new storyline integrates one of his previous series, Secrets of the Pharaoh, as a prequel to the rest of the series.

How does this affect my own DD stories? Not much. They’ve always been kind of apocryphal. On a personal level, though, A New Suit and Those Who Came Before are affected by the retcon, since both rely on the original storyline to provide context. The latter less so than the former. The Sasha origin story that’s been stuck is also affected to some degree. A Fun Little Swim is unaffected because it was always a side story that merely takes place in the same timeline, not the same narrative. A Long Trip To Nowhere Important is a completely different timeline of my own creation, so it’s unaffected as well.

New Collabs!

So I have been working with two artists of late, with some writing and planning to boot. The first I’ve mentioned before, the talented and overly self-deprecating Chimera46. I can provide a bit more detail on this: The narrative, set in Chimera’s fantasy world, involves slime girls to some degree, a concept I’ve always been fascinated by. I won’t go into further detail than that though. This currently in planning stages, and hopefully will get somewhere over the next few months.

I’ve also been working a little bit with an artist named Judge3DX. A very talented artist who is a regular in Dizzy’s forum, he does some amazing work involving more...interesting subjects. 😉 The image you see atop is not Tilen, but a character inspired by Tilen currently named Maia. I’ve helped develop two narratives with him, one involving Maia and the other involving another OC, Becky. I may reveal an outline of the latter project in Dizzy’s forum. Hopefully we’ll see more of them, as soon as Judge posts them somewhere 😆

Script Practice...?

Per working with Chimera46, one thing I’ve taken to do is scriptwriting practice. Namely, I’ve been writing drafts of scripts for ideas that have been percolating in my head for the last couple years. Small, short scripts. The point of these is to get a better grip on my dialogue for 3DX animation (something I’ve been critiqued on by trusted folks), and to develop a stronger sense of rhythm, along with just getting back into writing with this method.

None of these practice drafts may see the light of day anytime soon, though they have the potential of going somewhere if the cards play right. And yet, doing this has opened up new ideas in my mind for scripts that could actually become something more.

Chimera46 has told me time and again that I should write for adult VO artists, since I definitely have some talent in it. The problem is I’ve always been a bit leery of adult VO recording, mainly because so much of it is POV-centric with fetishes I don’t really care for (straight incest, femdom and other BDSM aspects of that nature, etc.). That said, there are ideas in my head for stuff that could work in a VO-only setting that aren’t any of the aforementioned. As I practice more, I might look into writing these out and seeing who would be willing to record. We’ll see though.

Anyway, that’s enough for now. I’ll try to update a little more often, but keep in mind I’ve been struggling to come up with anything to say lately, and I’m bit wary of using Twitter as a dumping ground for my thoughts, because it just comes off as so...solipsistic.

So, quite a bit has happened in the last month or so. A bit to cover, I guess?

Edits, Part 1!

So, good news: I have an editor again. Edits are resuming on stories, though they are still on the slow side. The first story likely to be completed will be “Those Who Came Before.” We’ll see how this all plays out. Other stories will follow, though to what degree I don’t know.

New Project?

I’ve been chatting with the talented Chimera46 on a new project. Previously, we worked on a little script for No Nut November. This one is likely to be a bit bigger than that. We’re still sussing out details, but more information will come in the weeks and months ahead. Hopefully you’ll like it.

Edits, Part 2!

I had the honor of recently editing Miki3dx’s latest work, Bimbo Training Session 3. It was quite a bit of work, but rather fun ^_^ I hope you guys pick it up and enjoy it for yourself! 😊 There is potential for future work with Miki, stay tuned...

Small (But Cute) Thing

Recently I commissioned the wonderful Hizzacked to do a cute chibi pic of my OC Tilen! She looks so cute 🥰

A Single Comment

I would comment on the current pandemic crisis and how it’s affecting me. That said...another crisis has come up. I will only offer the following: I am fine, where I live is under a curfew though. Not much more I can really say.

Hey there everyone, hope you’re doing well. I should update you on things. Writing and personal related.

A Fun Little Swim Part 2

Draft is complete! A little over 9200 words. It was fun to write in that series again. Now it just needs some tweaking before it goes into editing. Nothing too serious. That said...

Future Writing Projects

I’m pausing on writing for now. The reason is rather simple: I now have a significant backlog of four stories that need editing: A Fun Little Swim Part 2, Scene from an abandoned bathroom, Those Who Came Before, and Cantata for the Wolf Moon. And I have no editors to speak of.

My primary editor has been AWOL for a few months now. They were having a time that predated the current crisis affecting everyone, and now are likely dealing with a combination of those two issues at once. It’s hard to blame them for being unresponsive of late.

That said, I don’t have any backup editors to speak of either. The one other editor I worked with in the past is inactive at this point. There may be one or two others that I could speak to on doing edits, but I’m highly uncertain about them. After that, not many options, and the writers I’ve spoken to have been less than optimistic about finding an editor.

In theory, I could just contact the Volunteer Editors at Literotica, and have someone do that. But there are two problems I contend with regarding that. One, I need to trust these folks, no easy task. Second, I would not be able to clear my backlog, at least not initially. Cantata cannot be published on LE at all, due to their rules. It could be published at Hentai-Foundry, maybe a couple other places, but definitely not there. In theory, if I find someone I could work with, maybe I could have them work on this, but 1. The content matter might be too much for them, 2. LE gets snippy when you ask for VEs to do work that isn’t going to be published on their site.

I’ve been circling right now trying to figure out the best solution. It might take a while before these stories see the light of day outside of certain circles.

The Crisis At Hand

So, needless to say, since I last wrote here, the crisis was only beginning to develop. Now it’s a complete clusterfuck. I will only further comment on matters as it relates to me.

I started my new job in the middle of March. The first month went pretty swimmingly, all things considered. Work from home (mandated since before I began) was nothing to new to me, and I tend to be rather introverted and responsible anyway. 

That said, a couple days ago, I spoke to my company’s owner, and they had essentially put me on work reduction. I’m still employed, and I still have benefits, but now I’m working part-time from now until (the latest) end of July. Not great, but also not the worst. It’s worth noting that, the day I started my new job, my old company shut down with layoffs and furloughs. There was a greater than 95% chance I would’ve been laid off. So look at it that way!

But needless to say, I’m not great, but I’m better than most. Hope you guys are all doing okay.

What’s Next?

Well, with the writing on hold, there are other projects I want to work on. Some of which I will not discuss here. One thing I will discuss, though: Animation. I have more time on my hands now because of this (hopefully) temporary reduction. With my main writing concerns addressed, I think it’s high time I start learning to do animation with the extra time I now have. We will see how this plays out.

If the editing situation resolves itself, I may return to writing at some point. I do have an idea of how Part 3 of A Fun Little Swim should pan out, and the basic format of Part 4 (which is the final big part...an epilogue may follow as its own part) is been sketched out. We’ll see what happens.

Hey there. Hello. And hiiii

So, updates.

Birthday

Today is my birthday. Yay 🙂🙃🙂 🎉🎂🎉

Scene in an abandoned bathroom

The draft on this story is DONE. I’ll be looking to get some editors in the coming weeks, and one should be able to get this fixed up quickly. Hopefully, I’ll get this published in the next few weeks or so.

A Fun Little Swim Part II

This draft is about 70% done. The third sex scene has been written out, and I’ll be writing the ending shortly. The second sex scene has yet to be written, but I have a general idea of what I want to write there. It’s a simple matter of putting it down.

3D Work

Sadly, no progress there. However...my new job has basically mandated work from home for the rest of the month due to the current health crisis. Some time this week, I may spend a bit of time between onboarding just learning to futz with Blender a bit. No guarantees, though.

Hey, how’s it going? Good? Good.

So...let’s talk things, shall we?

A Long Trip to Nowhere Important Part 1: OUT!

Yes, A Long Trip to Nowhere Important Part 1: Pirate Raid is out on Literotica and Hentai-Foundry. Find em here:

LE: http://literotica.com/s/a-long-trip-to-nowhere-important-pt-01

HF: https://www.hentai-foundry.com/stories/user/andiguinness/40249/A-Long-Trip-to-Nowhere-Important

Crisis: OVER!!!

So, as I’ve discussed in the past, my job has been a severe issue in my life over the last several months. Enough that it’s left me in some dark places. Well, I finally some good news to report: I got an offer for a new job. Yay! 🙃🙂🙃

I just handed in my notice today, and will be officially done on Monday (assuming my old boss does not just fire me tomorrow...he was gone when I handed in the notice, and well, he’s a big reason why I’m done there). It’ll be a relief, to say the least, which means things will turn around. At least to some degree.

A Fun Little Swim: Getting Somewhere! 

I would say I’m now about 40% done with Part 2 of A Fun Little Swim. It has a lot of promise, a lot more intensity than part 1. That should make things interesting. In addition, I wrote a segment that came to mind for Part 3. I have the general scope of what I want to do with it: It’ll be 4 parts, plus an epilogue, and I might write two spin-off chapters. So there’s a general sense of where I’m going with that.

What Next?

So, of course, the job situation has brought me to a new direction. I will have a buffer of a couple weeks between this job and the next. Which means I’ll be doing stuff. What I have in mind:

I want to finish Part 2 of A Fun Little Swim, as well as Scene in an abandoned bathroom. Both of those are farthest along.

Remember how I was talking about 3D animation and such back in December? Well, now’s as good a time as any to start learning...😉

I do want to consider publishing some more stories, though they require editors. I’m considering my options there.

I will slowly resurface in certain spaces.

Finish Katamari Damacy REROLL. I’ve been playing that off and on for nearly a year now. DANG COW AND BEAR STAGES

So, it’s been over a month since I’ve written here. How are you?

New Story Coming Soon!

That’s right. I just submitted my first Literotica story in nearly three years tonight. It’s the first part of A Long Trip to Nowhere Important, “Pirate Raid,” and it’s a fun little number. Sasha starts her space road trip just right: Facing a bevy of space pirates who want to jack her ship! But there are other ways to get jacked...

This should publish. When it does, I’ll post links from both LE and Hentai-Foundry.

A Fun Little Swim Part 2 In Development!

In addition, I felt suddenly inspired in the last couple days to continue with A Fun Little Swim. I haven’t touched that story since the first part’s publication, over two years ago. But I always had some idea how it would progress. So it’s nice to get back into it. Already 500 words in at my first go tonight at that.

Potential Story from Commission Work?

So, in 2018-2019, I did a series of commissions with @hotpinkevilbunny involving Velma and a certain...monster. I had the idea in my head that I could weave a story out of it. The commissions fell off in early 2019 due to a good chunk of my life falling into a void. (Also because of a sour experience (of my own doing) with a commission from an artist...who I’m working with again, but details) But now I’m in talks again. And I think in the coming weeks I’ll look into writing up that story, since the series is almost complete. It’ll be fun! 🙃

Publication Slowdown

However, despite our success in publishing the first part of A Long Trip, I will be holding off on further publishing in the meantime. Basically, my editor, the wonderful Bianca Rose, is having a bit of a RL crisis right now. I feel that it’s best that I let her handle her situation rather than add more stories to her plate. Because she did A Fun Little Swim Part 1, I feel it best she’ll handle Part 2 when it is complete. On the other hand, I may call in a backup editor for perhaps the Velma story, should it be necessary to do so.

On Silhouettes and OCs

So I posted a bit of story in a forum recently. (”Scene in an abandoned bathroom,” in case you’re wondering) Since it’s still a draft, I asked for some input. The one response I got said something that struck me: That I lack character descriptions. Well, not completely lack character descriptions, but I describe my characters so little, it’s hard to know what they look like. To be fair, they were right, but I couldn’t really imagine myself describing them in the first place.

It got me thinking a lot about what I write in general.

I’ve been involved in the 3DX scene in one capacity or another for nearly 7 years now, after being an off/on fan for a few years before that. The bulk of what I’ve written and published are stories using characters created by someone else. I’ve very rarely created characters myself.

My first piece on Literotica, The Alleyway, is an original story with original characters. However...I don’t remember much about the lead character’s appearance. I remember her dress. That’s about it. I could remember the way the story played out pretty well despite not having looked at it in years - the actions, the behaviors, the dialogue - but I don’t remember much about what the girl looked like.

Whenever I’ve run into artists that I’ve liked, my impulse is less to just follow them. I want to write stories about their characters. The big thing about 3DX and erotic art in general is that most it is just straight-up porn: Focus on the poontang, as it were. While that’s good and all, I feel it’s, well, rather shallow to me. I’m more interested in what got them to that moment, and what happens afterward. The erotic isn’t just about the sex. It’s about what comes before it, what triggers it, and what occurs afterward. An image of a woman in an empty bathroom covered in cum with nobody else around can be just as powerful, if not more so than depicting what got her in this state. The reason for this, of course, is because we want to imagine what got her there. (Ironically, said image is what inspired “Scene in an abandoned bathroom.”) 

So it’s never that I want to write an erotic story these days, it’s that I want to write about a certain character that somebody else already has made. More often than not, these characters don’t have anything to them other than their visual appearance. I want to spend time developing them into actual people with personalities, thoughts, feelings, behaviors, ambitions/goals, and the like. In other words, the internal aspects of what makes a person a person. That stuff really interests me.

By the same token, though, I’ve done very little with creating my own characters on an external level. I don’t know why I can’t be bothered, though, to be honest. It could be a number of reasons: The fact that I’m more concerned about the internal aspects, some elements of perfectionism in terms of defining who these characters are, not being sure or just apathetic as to what my characters should look like, general apathy towards such aspects as visual appearance, worries that spending time defining these characters’ physical appearances is time that could be spent writing stories, recalling certain fans in 3DX being overly obsessed with their OCs' appearances (down to their belly buttons), and so on. 

As a result, I’ve only created two OCs throughout all this. One is Tilen, who you see as my avatar. However, Tilen hasn’t been involved in much of anything. She’s been in two 2D commissions (one completed by SpewlingMews, one incomplete by Alice X), a smattering of single 3D images (by The Dude, DBSpencer, gazukull, JimJim, morfium, Cryavision, Dest, and her original visual creator Vaesark), and a mini-set by Vaesark. I once had visions of her going on some big sexual adventure, and recruited morfium to make it. But that fell to the wayside. Since then, she’s really just an avatar and a guest to someone else’s story, nothing more. The other is Leila Mehri, a character set in Madscientist’s 80s story Infested Alley. However, since Madscientist has kind of dropped off of creating art, I’ve lost interest in developing her further.

With this in mind, I find it fascinating how people in hentai and 3DX are so capable of creating OCs at the drop of a hat, whereas I struggle with creating them. At the same time, most of these OCs are made for the purpose of specific scenes or ideas, with little thought of them as people. Compare that to me turning characters - Tara, Sayako, Cerene, Sophia, Suzi, a lesser extent Sasha and Sylvia, Kayla, Yelena, Breana - into memorable women by virtue of their personalities and behaviors. 

I guess the way one could look at it is that while most people just make their characters are paper cutouts or wax statues, I build silhouettes: Fully functional but featureless.

A good writer, I suspect, needs to do both: Create a character that is externally and internally memorable. But that is something I have trouble with. I don’t feel compelled nor interested in describing my characters on a visual level. They could be anyone visually.  Maybe that’s why I latch on to other people’s characters so quickly, because they’ve done that work for me, whereas I could work out the inner details. A quid pro quo, as it were.

It’s an unfortunate thing, really, but I don’t know what I could do to fix all that. If I’m not interested in something, I just don’t do it. And to make me do it just fills me with rage and contempt.

So...it’s been a while, etc. etc. etc. At least I won’t quote Staind. Good lord, that would be awful.

An apology of sorts

I suppose there is something I should talk about. The past year hasn’t been good at my job. Since probably April, my boss - a man in his late 50s/early 60s who fucked up one too many business decisions, and is now the bitch of a private equity firm - has given up on trusting me to do my work, and has his lackey (an art designer who has been working there 15 years (including when it went bankrupt), long enough that he probably doesn’t recognize that his nose is brown and smelly) serve as a boss, even though I don’t report to him. It’s been so bad that the 2-week vacation I had in May/June wasn’t fun because I was anxious about shit that happened at work the day I left. In addition, tensions boiled over where I was placed on probation for 60 days (i.e., I would have to “improve” or get fired). That 60-day probation was lifted a little over a month because I “improved considerably.” That this happened the day after another person was fired whose work I would have to do...well, we know the real score.

It’s been a struggle throughout, and extremely stressful. I have few places to relieve that stress. (Furthermore, as part of the provisions of my probation, I’ve been denied the chance to go to counseling). As a result, it’s taken a shape of anger, where I’ve lashed out repeatedly at people. Sometimes it’s at friends, sometimes random strangers on the street. Sometimes it’s on Discord and forums. Consequently, I’ve alienated a lot of people, especially in the 3DX community. My absence from the #3DX Discord is a reflection of this. For this...I’m sorry.

However, at the same time, I can’t just disappear from everything. While my absence will help mitigate any further damage, it won’t solve the real problem. So, I’m trying my best to figure out things without completely disappearing from view. It’s not easy.

I’m looking for jobs, but after a promising start (including an in-person interview at a big tech company), it’s been...not great. I haven’t been as focused on it, admittedly, but now at this point I need to redouble my efforts. Of course, the problem is that December is a bad month for hiring in general. So I may not see any results for a while. The only solace I have is that my boss is out of work for a month starting mid-December, which gives me at the very least some mental breathing room. I can go back to counseling, do a couple things I used to do such as work from home ocassionally (which’ll help with in-persons), and so on. But still...this isn’t fun.

Stories to Tell

With that said...I’ve been still writing. In fact, I’ve been writing more than I usually do lately. I just completed the first chapter in a sci-fi series called “A Long Trip to Nowhere Important.” While using Dizzydills’ characters and some of its lore, this’ll be its own story/universe. I was inspired by some discussion in Dizzy’s forum about a “road trip” story. Now, that’s actually kind of a novel idea: A road trip, but in space. That has a lot of different fun ideas you can play with. And it got my gears whirring. I wrote out a couple stems for different episodes in the story, and have completed one chapter so far. That is currently going through the first round of editing with my editor (who is back! Yaaaay), and will probably get another round before I publish it in key locations such as Literotica and Hentai-Foundry.

This story is the first time I’ve made full use of Scrivener, a writer’s tool that allows you to better write scripts and stories and such. I also used Scapple, a way to jot down notes and connect them in specific ways. It’s had its uses, but I’m not entirely sold on the idea.

There are other stories I’m working on. One is this original idea I’ve been toying with, currently titled “Scene in an abandoned bathroom.” It’ll probably be a one-shot. I’m uncertain when I’ll finish that, but it should be soon. That’ll likely go through a different editor. While futa-centric, it’s got elements which Supro would certainly call “Cronenbergian” 😆

The other completed stories, “Those Who Came Before” and “Cantata for the Wolf Moon,” will face edits soon, likely after “A Long Trip.”

I’ve also worked a bit on a script idea for an animation I was playing around with. Which leads me to my next point...

Computer Boxes

I’m building a computer. It’s a work in progress right now getting all the parts, but I should have everything by the end of this week. I had the budget to go a little wild, and Black Friday produced some good results 🙂

While it’s not super high-end (no Threadripper), it’s got the parts I need for what I want to do. Ryzen 3900X (or 3950X, I might attempt to snag it tomorrow if they restock for 30 seconds at Amazon or something), 2080 Ti, 32 Gigs of RAM, 1TB SSD + 12 TB HDD...It’s got good things.

While I do intend to use it for gaming (obviously), I have other agendas. One of which is to learn Blender, Unity, and UE4. I realize that I’m not much to the scene without at least learning some goods. Honestly, I’d rather not involve myself with Daz, so I thought the best route to learning something would be through animation, namely Blender and Unity, along with possibly UE4. I have the tools needed to learn them. It’s just a matter of learning them, really.

And then...

What Lies Ahead?

That remains uncertain. The specter of my job is damning. I don’t intend to stay here longer than I have to. Nor do I wish to let this stress destroy me.

I will say that, by the end of this year, I’ll be publishing a story. Maybe 2, maybe 3, but at least one for now. From there, I’m uncertain what the future holds, writing-wise. There is a distinct possibility I may explore doing scripts for voice actresses, but I’m not sure I want to do that. I feel a little less confident there.

Once I have the PC up and running, I’ll be gaming for a bit, but I will certainly dive into Blender, Unity, and UE4 at some point. Not sure when, though.

For the immediate future, I’m going to try to update a little more often than I have. If not here, then on Twitter. Just little updates here and there. Because my exposure to Twitter is minimal, this shouldn’t be a problem? But I’m not going to be active on there beyond ocassionally replying to something Gazukull or Supro or DB said.

Hey there. So...no serious updates to report regarding either “Cantata for the Wolf Moon” or “Those Who Came Before.” Both are available in draft form to select outlets. My editor has been busy, so there’s been slow developments on editing stages.

With that said...I’m holding off on doing anything else right now. The last week at my RL job has been rather...disastrous. Long story short, while I still have my job, I need to make serious efforts to find a new one. That’s going to take up most of my time over the next several weeks.

That means there will be no further writing for the immediate future, and any serious projects (such as website development) are placed on hold. If and when I get edits for the two pieces, I will make adjustments and hopefully publish them as soon as possible. But that’s the full extent of it.

Sorry about all this. I mean, I haven’t been the most proactive in blogging and tweeting anyway, but still. Hopefully, things get a little better in the end of all this.

Finally. Over 12000 words later, the first draft of Cantata for the Wolf Moon is done! I’ve sent it over to my editor, and it will be disseminated over some select channels for reading and commentary. We’ll see where that goes.

Next on the agenda is Those Who Came Before. I’m thinking of changing up a chunk of the writing to maintain a narrative consistency to it. That’s harder to do than most people think. But it’ll also likely make the story shorter, which is kind of what I’m trying to aim for here. We’ll see how that goes.