OC rant time because heās infecting my brain combined with these fuck ass clowns
Plus, I want to go ahead and write their dynamics
So the OC at attention is my CoD OC that is more of a character that I just drag everywhere and tell him to have fun in whatever Iām interested in, heās kinda his own thing by now
His name is Bones, itās actually Shawn but he prefers Bones, it was his codename that stuck though his callsign was Snap Crackle. Not in reference to his temper though but to the sounds his skin was making when he was pulled out of a burning building that left him disfigured. Continuing to serve until his various scars, mental and physical, began to catch up to him so he was honorably discharged
He joined the military after running away from his familyās farm, escaping his abusive father once he was sure his little sister was also out of the way, leaving everything behind and cutting all contact with everyone
Backstory out the way, onto dynamics based on my own thoughts upon the characters, especially Pierrot:
My take on Pierrot is that heās not exactly the green flag the fandom makes him out to be, biggest revelation of the century I know, but that heās a desperate lover. Heās so willing to change himself upon the MCās view of him, whatever makes them love him but heās also not above forcing this love.
āDonāt make me devour you tooā makes me think as much as heās willing to listen to the MCās boundaries based upon the Day 2 ending, heās also willing to cross those drawn lines, maybe even willing to consume them out of love or if push comes to shove.
In my mind, heās almost like that lioness that kept adopting wildebeest calves, going above base instincts to feed but instead to nurture what is considered an easy meal to other monsters because something in his past left a void in him that heās so desperately trying to fill. MCās kindness setting them out from the rest of humanity sparks a flaming desire to keep this vulnerable creature close to him, to love and protect in his corner of the shadows
Now, to what I imagine his dynamic with Bones to be if he was the MC:
I must add that Iām bit out of my element, I donāt often write down my thoughts or at least in a way that makes sense, I also donāt want to mischaracterize anyone
Bones is a very paranoid human being, heās socially awkward, emotionally constipated and just broody in general. Heās snarky but willing to shed rare kindness if itās within his comfort zone, such as defending a stranger from a ranting madman on his way to work, not thinking much would come from the interaction
Until he keeps seeing this same clown, feeling more eyes on him than the usual amount. This isnāt his usual feeling of being watched, he was used to feeling phantom eyes watching his back, but these felt real. These felt oddly familiar.
Bones is also a private man. He wishes to keep his skeletons in the closet tucked very far back until theyāre with the Christmas tree he never puts up because he keeps forgetting itās there.
And we know how Pierrot feels about privacy
Why is this human so angry even though he was so kind to him? Arenāt they destined to be together, so why fight the inevitable? One of the only things Pierrot would probably find on his past being that Bones kinda appeared in town one day that also depends on how much Pierrot knows and how he finds this info
That is something I would love to find out, how heās able to obtain all this information on MC in only a couple hours, and also just how much he knows
The kind of relationship Pierrot wants would take years on Bonesā end to develop, having so many walls put up around him from a upbringing of abuse and manual labor to being a traumatized soldier of war. Heās closed off but chipping slowly over the course of months to years and heās a big softie with the personality of a oversized lap dog whoāll bake you sweet treats and watch over you in his own way while ācomplainingā
A very push and pull kind of relationship, Pierrot pulling and Bones pushing
At first, Bones enjoys the company, seeing the red clown as harmless enough, almost like a kicked puppy considering the first two times he saw, Pierrot was injured in some manner. A splash of red in his monotonous life, until that red began staining everything else
One encounter turned into another, and another until he found himself wrapped in a web of secrets woven in the shadows of the circus
Bones is reluctant but accepts Pierrotās āhelpā once heās deeper into the circus, heās paranoid and untrusting but heās not stupid, Pierrot knows more than he does, heās one of them after all, knows how the others operate
Plus any less harassment from the green one was appreciated
Bones and Pierrot is like when you suddenly pull a feral street cat inside and immediately start loving on them, theyāll claw the crap out of you and not think twice because thatās all they know. Going from not knowing care or affection for years to suddenly being swamped with it from someone he doesnāt know is overwhelming to say the least
Bones begrudgingly starts accepting Pierrotās affection but with many boundaries
As funny as it is sometimes, I wish the fandom saw Harlequin past just being a sex pest, saying heās sexual harassment when Pierrot is not that far from it either. They both harass MC, the pink tent scene was kinda our own doing considering we have the option to follow him or not not excusing it entirely but still
Harlequin isnāt as secretive as Pierrot either but heās also not an open book, he takes off his mask but only in the dark where you canāt see whatās underneath, he shares enough to get you hooked then pulls away
Bones does not enjoy this. Itās frustrating. Itās like heās only given half a puzzle and told to see the full thing even though so many pieces are missing or drawn over. He feels like a piece of steak between two dogs when the two clowns fight for his attention, it also feels like heās a prize to be won or a game to be played then left to gather dust
Harlequin revels in this frustration, feeding from the sarcastic remarks Bones throws his way or pressing questions that heāll loop around to point towards the scarred piece of bacon man
He finds it amusing to watch Bones try to save face out in public, especially when heās trapped at work and he has to be nice. Watching blood vessels threaten to pop from beneath his skin, thereās one in his neck that always pops out and if heās feeling particularly annoying, heāll poke at it or point it out then watch Bones writhe in his own skin
He views this easily irritable paranoid man as an interesting specimen to pick apart and study under a bright light, see what makes him tick, but heās unsure what to do when heās done. Does he devour him like the rest of his kind or keep him around to further torment Pierrot? Too risky to just leave him if he knows so much, loose ends and all, loose ends can unravel the whole thing after all
Bones sees Harlequin as, for lack of better terms, a pest. A venomous green snake in his path that wonāt let him walk away, at least not without a couple bites. But he also knows thereās something beneath the surface, something that made him this way, a small part pities it while the rest ignores it. Not Bonesā fault, he just happens to be one of the many targets Harlequin strikes at
But thereās also a small part of him that enjoys the game, having someone around that cannot only handle his snark but throw it back at him. He hasnāt had that since he was discharged, he had to basically walk on eggshells around the townsfolk, heās already seen as an outlier amongst the crowd, being seen as an asshole doesnāt help that fact. But heād never tell Harlequin, maybe he would if they became softer but not likely
In short; hate sex but someone cries, my moneyās on Bones
Ticket Takerā¤ļøā¬ą»ź±
Oh boy, where do I start?
So, at first, Bones has major beef with him when first seeing him at the cafe. He found him off putting, odd and just bad vibes all around, also made him question his eyesight and memory since he canāt remember the face and just looking at him made his eyes hurt in a fuzzy way
Then he meets him again and heās chill, somewhat
Like shit talking someone without knowing them then you meet them but you donāt know itās them so youāre chilling
Since Ticket Taker has been stated to like obedience in people, I think heād like Bones since he was raised with strict discipline though he does have an attitude
An attitude Ticket Taker both wants to tame and watch like a flame in a fire pit, contained but still hot enough to burn if you get too close
He watches Bones closely, had been but even closer now, heād already planned to have him as a Fool. Despite the disfigurement, he still found the man attractive in a rugged untamed way, the scars made him exotic, interesting
I headcanon (probably is canon) that they watch potential Fools before they approach to fit in the perfect time to present the pink ticket, for Bones, it was approaching him as a customer at the cafe. He was disappointed when he declined though he expected it, he noticed the paranoia, the suspicion towards a stranger offering something for free, in a way, he respected it. Cutting it as a loss as a small part of him knew heād see him again anyway
Then he saw this human with a red ticket this time, a ticket from Pierrot, whose never gave it out before and his instinct that something was different was right
But he also doesnāt let his guard down, neither does Bones
Bones has mixed feelings on Ticket Taker, he feels like he should recognize him but itās a small nagging feeling at the back of skull thatās impossible to dislodge.
He loathed the tent, useful as it was in giving him breadcrumbs of information, it wasnāt much but knowledge is knowledge, no matter how mind twisting it was. Plus it was bad on his eyes, dark place full of mirrors isnāt too good when only one eye is fully operable while the other is weaker
Something in this blue suit clad monster sets some alarm bell in him, maybe itās the way he always appears to be watching him with a critical eye or he has the same aura of a past general he knew, a stoic man who took no bullshit, he wasnāt loud or brash like most generals he came across.
He was calculating, he wouldnāt stop the problem before it started unless absolutely needed, instead, heād watch it unfold then punish whoever was involved, making them state what they did and why they did it
Makes Bones feel like heās watching for him to screw up somehow then swoop in or report his findings to someone, dunno how many times Iāll say it but heās a paranoid person. He does not like being watched so he avoids Ticket Taker with every cell of his being
Bones can only hope that Pierrot will uphold the promise to return her, she deserves that much than being hypnotized and swept away with a circus but he canāt help but keep a quiet lookout for her
A very elaborate dance of a man avoiding a monsterās eyes because the monster knows more about the man than heāll let on..
Good golly, if you thought Ticket Taker set off alarm bells in Bones, Jester sets off every bell plus his flight, fight and fawn, bite and scratch and/or scream.
Jester enjoys this feeling he invokes in him, even if Bones doesnāt express it, he can tell from the glint in his eyes.
The purple monster is sadistic, he revels in causing discomfort in humans, watching them squirm, physically and mentally, such fragile things that has tormented his kind for centuries writhe from a little pressure on their psyche
This one carries evidence of how fragile they are on his skin, the injuries he carries wouldāve been healed by a monster with less scarring than him, the brunt of the scarring being on his face, his neck, maybe down to his chest too, he can see other scars that didnāt come from fire after all. As much as heād love to keep him around as a chew toy, not only would Pierrot be upset once his toy inevitably breaks, but he can tell heād be trouble to keep. Maybe too much to be worth it in the long run
Heād love to dissect what exactly makes Bones so..uncomfortable? Fearful? Nervous? Tense? Uneasy? Oh, what word could describe what he sees in this humanās eyes whenever they meet
Was it his paranoia? His fractured mind? A past experience? Something within him made this stray so tense like he expected Jester to do something to him despite the protection of the red ticket
But his family came above an interesting stray, he wouldnāt let himself become distracted from keeping the circus going, his troupe protected and fed, even if Pierrot deviated for this little crush that made Harlequin follow in his footsteps to sweep away this crush to piss off the red clown
He canāt place a finger on what made his heart try to pound of its bony cage but something about this jester with purple glowing eyes and an energy that demanded respect from the beings below him unnerved him
Was it the way he seemingly saw through every defense until he was peering at his very core? The way he had a burning anger thrumming through his veins that he kept veiled but Bones could see? It definitely wasnāt geared towards the other circus members, but pointed towards humanity
Bones canāt blame him though
Heās seen every side, from the kindest souls to the disgusting underbelly where maggots of human beings wriggled, feasting upon anything they can reach
Even if said Jester looks at him like how heād imagine an apex predator would stare at prey it knows it can take down easily but the game itself is funner than making something weak its dinner
Every word is chosen carefully and honeyed upon a silver tongue but the message is obvious
āYou are prey. You see yourself as a wolf in sheepās clothing when youāre a lamb in a wolfās skin to me. Donāt forget your place.ā
So Bones keeps his head low around him, even with the protection of Pierrot
A cruel game of cat and mouse but the mouse is protected by a guard dog so the cat bides its time until the dog tires, like a fucked up version of Tom and Jerry except itās a monster with misanthropy and a human with trauma from metaphorical monsters
I fucking love Jester so Bones gets the full package, they will kiss and theyāll like it
I adore Doctor but I honestly canāt pinpoint howād Bones feel about him
I donāt think Bones would be able to either but can I tell you howād Doctor feel about Bones
Oh boy, does Doctor want to take him apart but not mentally like Jester and Harlequin, nah nahh. He wants to cut him open and see his heart pump adrenaline through his veins in panic
This tasty patient whose covered in scars, from head to toe, not all of those are from the fire that burned him, some are from bullets, some are from knives but some he canāt tell, too aged, brash or covered by the burns/tattoos
He sat so still in his chair, even when he could hear his heartbeat spike once he touched him, it spiked once more when he brought the needle down to kiss his skin, he didnāt even make a peep when Doctor accidentally left a scratch on his neck
Doctor wants to lay him out on his table, see just how much this soldier could take before he broke his silence and screamed, oh, how beautiful of a sound it would be
But alas, he had to abandon these fantasies once he saw Bones pull out that red ticket, he had already hesitated at the pins on his collar but the ticket sealed the deal but a thought soothed the hurt like a healing balm
If extreme measures were taken, he could stake his claim then, only then would this guest be his next experiment
Bones has a healthy fear of the big bird man
Considering heās bigger than him, both height wise and width wise, good lord, robes did him no favors in hiding any of that. When Doctor hovered over the chair to grab his jaw, Bones was sure his hand could cover his face, promptly ignoring what feelings arose at that observation
To him, Doctor has traits from both Pierrot and Harlequin, heās more blunt with his intentions but not enough to raise too much alarm, yet heās quiet and kind of obsessive though his obsession isnāt about gaining his love, itās just getting his heart in a different albeit surgical way
Probably his favorite tent to visit, as much as he loves stories, he much prefers a more hands on immersion that doesnāt completely fuck up his psyche, cough Ticket Taker, cough cough
Doctor is very much hands on, Bones likes this though he wonāt admit it. Heās not interested in men (lie), he doesnāt enjoy being overpowered by a bigger man (half lie, talk to him first before you manhandle him) and being called sweetie while feeling like a lab rat strapped down did not stir up any feelings (his pants might catch fire, liar liar)
Doctor patient confidentiality because they might get up to shit that would get some evil scientists horned up at the thought, Zydrate Anatomy who?
That took me so long to write, onto some quick fun facts about Bones, funny scenarios and ramblings:
Ā°Ėā“ Bones knows how to cook, bake, crochet, sew and a bit of knitting though heās rusty, his mother taught him so heād be able to take care of himself despite it being āwomanly dutiesā, his fatherās words
Ā°Ėā“ His little sister is only a year younger than him, she moved out with her boyfriend, now husband, before Bones bolted. He was 22 when he left, he wanted to make sure she was out of their fatherās reach so he wouldnāt take his rage out purely on her. Their mother died when they were teenagers, about 17 and 16, she had developed cancer
Ā°Ėā“He hasnāt spoken to his sister nor any extended family since he left. Fearing that somehow it would trace back to his father, that he would be found. He did leave his sister a brief but heartfelt note detailing that he still loved her and asked for her forgiveness that he had to leave her. It hurt him a lot to leave her behind with no way of connecting him but he feels itās still for the best she forgets him
Ā°Ėā“ Since heās been in survival mode for years, heās never had much time to think about his identity and explore himself but heās aroace, male oriented if he does date or mess around with someone, heās not a virgin which is how he found heās asexual after a couple sexual partners but never felt that āconnectionā. He doesnāt know these labels either, he was raised to view anything queer as unholy but he doesnāt see it that way anymore after some therapy
Ā°Ėā“ He did go to therapy for a bit, it was kinda required. He stopped going because he felt like a burden and he wanted to work on himself by himself in his own way
Ā°Ėā“He loves horror, his favorite genre besides action, his favorite being āAlienā or āTexas Chainsaw Massacreā, though he also enjoys campy horror movies because unfortunately, sometimes blood triggers him so seeing obviously fake blood and mannequins can help though sometimes heāll still have a panic attack so itāll just turn to some random baking show
Ā°Ėā“His favorite colors are dark reds and deep blues, basically any gem colors and black, he wishes he could paint the walls but itās against his lease so black furniture and varying shades of red
Ā°Ėā“He doesnāt want pain but he enjoys it, itās similar to how he likes being manhandled but only in an environment he can control
Ā°Ėā“He is very schedule oriented, he needs the stability of a schedule or back up plan if the first one doesnāt work. He does not like going anywhere without some set of plans or instructions in place or he will go nuts.
Ā°Ėā“Heās meticulous in his self care routine, he already was before being burned but it got upped afterwards. Shower with a good soap, separate shampoo and conditioner for his hair texture, face wash and scrub, then lotion and brushing his teeth carefully. He tries not to irritate the scars too much
Ā°Ėā“If I had to really stop and think, I have three options on endings for Bones.
*One, he ends up with the Pierrot, though like I said before, with many boundaries that he isnāt afraid to remind/enforce. Heās a highly traumatized man that doesnāt need anyone to fix him or his problems. Heād also desire Pierrot to be himself instead of who he thinks Bones wants, if they were actually meant to be then no one should have to change themselves so much, he also makes them take it slow instead of rushing it
*Two, he ends up with the Doctor, is it a romantic relationship or scientific relationship? Depends on who you ask. Freaky as hell but he wouldnāt want to be anywhere else. I personally think Doctor would be a sweet lover, heās not nosy but heād keep an eye out to see if you ate anything that day, drank any water and got adequate rest before pressing you if you havenāt done any of the three. Bones doesnāt want coddling but he still yearns for affection so he and Doctor would go well together plus bird man can manhandle him and heās got good assets so donāt save him if heās strapped down
*Three, he doesnāt end up with anyone. He doesnāt run from the circus but he doesnāt run into it either. He contradicts himself by wanting affection, attention, someone to care but bolting once someone actually offers it. Pierrot offering it so willingly terrified him. Plus finding out that he watches him, watches him sleep would be a huge dealbreaker with the entire thing
Basically, Pierrot route or Doctor route then Protagonistās ending
Ā°Ėā“He had a horse when he was younger, it was a cross between a shire and dutch draft, a sweet, calm horse that was used to plow plots for crop or clearing new fields by logging. Would even go with them during their hunting trips since she could handle the weather during the cold winters in the mountains
Ā°Ėā“While finishing Jesterās section and going onto Doctorās, I kept imagining someone mistaking Bones as being part of the attractions because heās a burnt bacon boy and complimenting his makeup. And heās just confused as hell, āMaāam, I hate to break it to you but this is just how I look.ā
Ā°Ėā“Despite being a soldier in his past and showing no hesitance towards the idea of pummeling the guy harassing Pierrot, he actually hates solving most problems with violence. It makes him feel like his father, so he controls his temper to avoid lashing out
Ā°Ėā“Neurodivergent. Donāt ask which flavor because he couldnāt tell you but heās on the spectrum, definitely OCD-like tendencies
Will probably update if thereās more or I change things around as the story or my understanding of the characters is widened, for now, that should be it
