Anarose

“what’s your dream job” im so glad you asked. picture this. i am the lone employee of a strange and mysterious tchotchke/bookshop in the middle of nowhere, full of fun and interesting things that i am allowed to take for the low low price of free of charge. i get one, exceedingly interesting, customer per hour. i work no more than twenty hours a week and am salaried 3 million dollars

girls will be like hm this song reminds me of the most tragic thing that has happened to me I think I'll listen to it on loop

she's in a better place now (her bedroom)

shaking six year old me by the shoulders YOU WERE RIGHT. YOU WERE RIGHT ABOUT LOVE AND ABOUT FAIRNESS AND ABOUT SHARING IS CARING. YOU WERE RIGHT. THE ADULTS DON’T KNOW ANY MORE ABOUT TRUTH THAN YOU DO. KEEP BELIEVING IN THE FAIRIES AT THE BOTTOM OF THE GARDEN. NOTHING IS “JUST THE WAY IT IS”. I AM SORRY THEY EVER CONVINCED YOU TO FEEL SHAME. YOU ARE REAL AND A PART OF THIS WORLD. YOU WERE RIGHT.

saw this post the other day that talked about how so many of us are soooo scared of appearing even momentarily human towards each other these days. like you can't see me sweat or cry or without makeup or with food stuck in my teeth or laugh loud and ugly. everything must be composed and sanitised and photo ready at all times. it's like corporate office culture seeping out into our homes and our lives and for what. it's not cringe to be a real person around other real people

i love you comforter i love you pillow i love you sheets i love you mattress i love you plushie i love you dark room i love you bedtime

I AM HAUNTED BY A PAST I CANNOT GO BACK TO !!!!!! anyways

nothing like being reminded that people you love are trapped by the circumstances of their lives and you can't help them because you are trapped by the circumstances of yours and so is everyone else and there is so much pain that you will never be able to save others from and sometimes people never get what they need or deserve and you can't do anything but witness and be present with them. that sometimes there really is no way out for someone from truly miserable circumstances and there's actually nothing you can do but just. be there. and sometimes that isn't enough but it's all you have

we cant be meant to live like this why does everyone live like this!!!!!!! (opens tinder) (hates tinder) (opens tinder) (signs a lease) (sits alone) (exchanges instagrams) (never talks to them again) (feels weird about texting people inviting them to hang out) (feels weird about texting) (feels like if i deleted social media i would stop existing) (doesn’t use social media) (continues to exist) (continues to sit alone) (buys food at the grocery store for one) (food goes bad) (doesn’t talk to strangers) (doesn’t hold hands) (food goes bad) (food goes bad) (food goes bad) (food goes bad) (food goes bad) (food goes

the meaning of life is….dipping carbs into liquids ….bread into soup…biscuits into tea…that’s it