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Day 2? Post 2.. ?Today

So today I got a reply… I thought I would be jumping for joy… I freaked the fuck out. *very brave* lol Only now at 10:15pm have I looked at the email again.. It’s not even that the organisation have anything to tell me it’s just like, first contact, it’s real. It made it really real. I know it is real, but you know what I mean. I received a reply, and I felt like I couldn’t breathe, I assumed that I would feel like I was standing on the top of the Eiffel Tower with my arms stretched out like a titanic moment! Apparently not.. I will write again soon, thank you so much by the way! I seriously didn’t even expect a single person to read any of this but you have and I’m forever grateful, it’s so wonderful to feel this support at a strange/scary/real time ❤️

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Source: brazilbabyaffair.org

HISTORY The phenomenon of Intercountry Adoption was established in the 1970s, and gave way to an increase in the practice of newborn children from third-world countries being made available to couples in first-world countries. Brazil became an important country of origin for Intercountry Adoption. Predominantly childless couples from prosperous “receiving” countries such as Belgium, France, Germany, Great Britain, Italy, the Netherlands, Spain, Sweden, Switzerland and the USA were interested in adopting a baby from Brazil. In the late 1970s and the early 1980s, large numbers of foreign couples came from their home countries to Brazil in search of babies to adopt (illegally). Peaking in the mid 1980s, many Israeli couples also acquired Brazilian babies. Until 1985 Brazil was ruled by military dictatorships. These regimes did not adequately address the problems of pregnant women who did not have the support of the father of their child. In some cases, this meant that Brazilian mothers were forced to abandon their child after birth. Unfortunately, this did not always happen with the mother’s consent. Until the mid 1980s, the number of official Intercountry Adoptions from Brazil was very limited; the official procedures were bound to strict rules and regulations, which made it virtually impossible for most foreign couples to officially adopt a baby or a child from Brazil. Nonetheless, in these days, Intercountry Adoption was regarded as a solution both for the Brazilian mothers and their children, as well as for the foreign couples, whose desire was to raise a Brazilian newborn. The parties involved in the Intercountry Adoption processes at this time used public opinion to justify their activities. Whereas, Intercountry Adoption should indeed have been complying with the applicable international human rights declarations. The future consequences and difficulties the Brazilian adoptees might face in their adult life as a result of their adoption were not being taken into consideration by most parties involved in the decision-making processes leading to Intercountry Adoption from Brazil. Overall, currently available evidence suggests the prevailing belief in those days to have the right to a child, together with the limited international human rights instruments in place to protect the rights of both the mother and their child, led in many cases to the practice of illegal adoption from Brazil. Note that, in many cases, the Brazilian mothers were insufficiently or even falsely informed about the fate of their child. Moreover, they were essentially left without any option; due to circumstances giving up their child for Intercountry Adoption was their last resort. There are cases in which the mother was told her baby died during childbirth, while in reality her baby was sold for illegal adoption. These circumstances led to numerous Brazilian newborns being trafficked for illegal adoption. These cases, known as the Brazil Baby Affair, are characterized by the fact that the newborns were intentionally deprived of their right to identity, in the same way, from the same country, during the same period of time. The deprivation of the right to identity occurred through false registration of a Brazilian baby as the biological child of a foreign couple. By registering a Brazilian baby as their own, they erased any reference to the baby’s original identity. The foreign couples were also, to a certain extent, left in the dark about the true origins of their adoptive child. In some cases were the foreign couples not upfront and, or, fully aware about how their future adoptive child would eventually become legally theirs. In all of these cases the foreign couples eventually turned a blind eye to the details of these practices.

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Day 1

Dear Weird Diary,

So today I made a decision that I want to find my biologically family and find out the truth, I need “Closure” I need to know why, how and more why’s.

My name is Sara Silveira, I am 27 years old and I live in England. I was illegally adopted at birth, in Fortaleza, Ceara, Brazil.

Put into the fostering system aged 9 as my adopted mother abandoned me and Social Services were already concerned for my well being.

I was very lucky, 2 foster homes is all I ever went to.

At the age of 11, Social Services thought it was the correct age to let me know I was “Adopted”. I point blank refused to believe them (Yet both my adopted parents are white, I still believed I was their biological child,lol. You have to love kids and their innocence right?? :’D )

So… I was told a few things. Which over the years I firstly obsessed about, then for many years blanked out, then in recent years have actually truthfully felt like much of it was probably not true.

So my ‘Mother’ was very poor - believable.

She held me for 5 minutes and then handed me over in exchange for nothing but as a present my adopted parents gave her, a ‘very nice’ dressing gown.

Apparently we look a lot alike.

I have 4 older siblings somewhere in the world. 2 older brothers that stayed in Brazil, and 2 older sisters that were ‘adopted’ also, as boys could grow up working the land, but girls? Well I’ll let you answer that one, it was the 80′s.

All 5 children were from the same Father.

That’s it I think, that is all I ‘know’ in regards to my roots, where I am from, I mean who doesn’t like an exciting birth story right?

So the illegal adoption happened like this apparently..

My adopted mother had trouble having their only biological child, and they wanted the 2:4 family a boy, a girl, and them.

I was told my adopted mother worked for a Doctor as his Secretary, he had a cleaner who also worked in cotton fields that was about ready to give birth but could not afford to keep the baby as it was a girl, she also had nobody to give the child to. As it was so close to the due date they didn’t go for adoption papers and forms etc, when I was born the doctor put my adopted parents names on the Birth Certificate as my Biological Parents and proceeded to Sign it.

So well thats the easy part, telling the story I’ve told for years. People saying they’re sorry for me, and me saying its fine its my life I don’t know any different.

But then things really niggled at me.

The main one is I could not for the life of me understand holding a baby, and giving it away.

For YEARS I’d been so angry about it… until in 2009 I took a trip to Brazil. I saw the poverty, I saw how people were living and I thought I understood. I thought I had closure.

I remember before I went being so scared, literally terrified, that I would walk down the road and see a woman that looked just like me and what would I do? What would she do? I replayed the scenario in my head countless times, what I didn’t realise was that when we went into the City one day and I got a bit scared again we got off the bus (me and my brother) and I started laughing… I hadn’t been somewhere before where most of the people look like me!! I mean I grew up in the Oxfordshire countryside, I was always the brown Brazilian girl!

I thought I understood. I thought, wow, she must have loved me SO much! Brazil is SO family orientated, but the poverty rife and she must have thought I had a chance of a much better life away from it!

I asked my adopted dad for help in finding her and my brother tried to help also. My adopted dad said he spoke to the Doctors daughter, she refused to even ask her father about anything as he was a lot older now and mentally sick and the last thing they wanted was his name to be tarnished.

My brother had a female journalist contact him! We thought we were going to get somewhere! Then she didn’t contact him again… maybe it was too much of an ask… maybe it was a sign, maybe I wasn’t meant to find them.

My baby passports.. so many stamps between, Brazil, Aruba and Venezuela all before we moved back to Holland. But, why?

I felt stuck, I felt like what I was trying to do was maybe not supposed to happen and then I suddenly felt really unappreciative of what I had been given out of life! So I stopped, I blanked it all out once again (Blanking, One of my god given talents,lol)

But now we’re here… 2015. Everyone is getting married, having children, having their lives together, I’m still trying to be a successful singer/songwriter whilst working as a Receptionist in a car dealership. I can’t even think about having children until I’m far older, If I’m ever to have them at all.

I always tell people, when I’m 35 because I need to live my life, but in the main I’m not in a relationship (unless I want to get the turkey baster out) and I am terrified that Maybe I won’t be a good parent, maybe I will not ever know how to love like a parent should love. Maybe I overthink things far too much, just maybe.

Today I typed into Google - “I was illegally adopted in Brazil” and I was literally gobsmacked, I knew this kind of thing happened but I got onto a website

http://brazilbabyaffair.org

And I read, and I read and I read… I’m one of these! Suddenly things are starting to make so much more sense! And what if we can all help each other, help others like us somehow?

I sat speaking to a friend of mine and they said I should write about it, I was like, Its funny you say that I was thinking earlier that maybe I should write a blog, people have told me before about writing about my life so….well…

Here ya go. First post done!

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