Amor's

Bright at night Bright in day Every light  Has come to say

Alone in dark Feel the cold Melancholic marked Sadness is bold 

Overthink until morning All the time is gloomy Even the birds are horning Blank  face became beauty

But there’s a light There’s the sun Shining  bright Though it’s none

Waking up at five in the morning, dressing up, preparing my school bag, and walking from my house to the “trolley” terminal just to be at school before 7:30 am. But still coming late because I didn’t wake up at five in the morning, it is just the alarm being noisy that time. This is the moment I have been missing since the pandemic started. It is almost two years since the country is a lockdown. Everything has changed schooling, ways of hanging out, working, and even ourselves have changed.

Even that I am late going to school and worrying about my ID to be confiscated and be in the guidance office for some sermon yet still fun because I know I am not the only one to do that, my friends and classmates and I will laugh about it after the sermon. This is the best part of my high school life. Including the time of us, eating lunch together, and of course, we share our food without thinking about the virus. In a study, we listen to our teacher, answering the question orally without saying "Can you hear me, Sir/ Maam?" just to speak. We become noisy too because everyone wants to answer, and also we are silent for not understanding the lecture but not muting ourselves but just staring at the board and not to look in the eye of the teacher. After exam week, there is an announcement of having no class for the whole next week because of the virus. All of us sigh happily for that moment because we have the time to rest. Not until we graduated virtually, became a college, and suffered in online classes. 

As a new journey begins, in a different set-up, my new life also changes. As I grow amid pandemic, I have found the boring part of my life of being alone. My friends and I connection is weak, we cannot have a face-to-face get-together, and our life story is now sad and full of anxieties. Since then, we have become worried about everything. The only thing I have learned about being isolated at home is how to be resilient. We became a friend of myself. With myself, we tried new things, new life skills, new knowledge, and discoveries. I even tried different hairstyles, rebonded hair, short hair like Dora, and a Barber's cut. These new learnings help me to be happy by not depending on others. It helps me to grow in a way to know myself. The connection within me become stronger. The maturity I had before grew more, maybe because this is the sign of adulting, which is to be independent. At first, I blamed the covid virus, pandemic, the person who ate the bats for my loneliness, but it was just a coincidence that my becoming of age is also in the mids of the pandemic. But of course, we have to be safe and healthy right now until the covid virus is all wiped out.