This blog is a small light in the leaves. Not perfect, just real

Hello! We’re The Amirdrassil System, also known as The Dreamgrove.

This is our personal + system blog where we share life updates, mental health reflections, and innerworld/worldbuilding. Some posts are cozy and everyday. Some are heavier and honest. Sometimes it’s lore and magic. All of it is part of the same thread: surviving, healing, and building a life that feels livable.

About us 💎

We’re a pro-endo mixed-origin system of 50+. We’re an adult system. We became aware of our plurality in early 2022, after starting our healing journey in 2018. We’re currently undiagnosed but in treatment.

Collectively, we go by Prism or Cookie, and we use any pronouns.

Why this blog exists 🕯️

We’re using this space to document our journey with suspected CPTSD/DID while we’re still learning. We don’t naturally love social media, but we tend to isolate, and community helps us stay grounded and understood. Most of our posts will be system + mental health, with some innerworld/worldbuilding mixed in.

How we refer to members

To stay open and anonymous, we use emojis when referring to members. Our core uses Tumblr the most, so they’ll make most posts.

Hosts & past hosts:

☀️ - Past Host (split in 2022)

🍪 - Past Host (fused in 2023)

💎 - Core

Content notes ⚠️

We’ll try to tag/label heavier posts. Themes you may see here include trauma recovery, dissociation, anxiety/depression, and system-related topics, alongside softer comfort content and fantasy worldbuilding.

Navigation (tags) 🧭

#life update

#system

#mental health

#worldbuilding

#lore

#writing

(We may add more as we go, but these are the main “lanes.”)

Links 🔗

Carrd: https://amirdrassilsystem.carrd.co/ (under construction)

PK/fronting link: currently being rebuilt (link is broken for now)

Boundaries + vibes 🌿

We’re very laid-back and hard to offend, but we do keep a few boundaries so this stays a safe space:

We don’t participate in syscourse, and we won’t debate our existence here.

We respect DNIs. If we relate to something from someone who DNIs us, we’ll quietly leave a like and move along.

If we follow you and you’d rather we didn’t, tell us and we’ll unfollow.

Asks are welcome (as long as they’re respectful).

Reblogs may be about random things. We don’t reblog sources or anything NSFW.

None of the art/gifs on our blogs belong to us unless stated otherwise.

We use AI sometimes to help us with our posts due to our mental health issues. Don't like? Don't interact

DNI (besides the basics) 🛑

Accounts that are aggressive/harassing about endo/syscourse content

Fundamentalist/proselytizing Christians (we’ve had too many harmful experiences)

Disclaimer 🌙

Because we’re undiagnosed, please take our posts as personal experience, not a statement of certainty. We’re learning in real time.

This blog is also written by different parts at different times, so the tone may shift. If something reads a little different from yesterday, that’s normal for us. We’ll do our best to sign posts when it matters, and otherwise, you can assume it’s “whoever had hands on the keyboard

The innerworld centers around a living World Tree named Amirdrassil, and a lot of our “system weather” and stability feels tied to how the Tree is doing.

Different members hold different “jobs” that keep the whole ecosystem from tipping over, especially under stress.

There’s a peaceful recovery spot called Verdant Hollow: a cave with a hot spring, a waterfall, soft light through the stone, and a tree that drops calming leaves like nature’s weighted blanket.

There are 5 Guardians of the World Tree that are treated like celebrities by innerworld NPCs, which is both funny and deeply inconvenient.

We have daemons (spirit companions) for members, and if a daemon bites their host it causes intense pain but can also provide powerful stabilization. (Helpful, but… spicy.)

All system members have wings. My wings are stained-glass fairy wings. (Tehe I'm the walking cathedral window of the group)

We use AI as a drafting tool to help organize our thoughts however the ideas & lived experiences are ours. We use AI as a accommodation due to chronic fatigue/severe brain fog. We are transparent about that in our pinned post. If that’s not your thing, no worries! Please move on & have a nice day ❤️

Add us! Crystalized_Dreams93

Please be 18+

We are pro-endo

Before 2018, the main reason we stayed alive was World of Warcraft. It wasn’t “just a game” for us. It was shelter. It was routine. It was a place our nervous system could breathe when real life didn’t feel survivable.

Now it’s different...

We still love WoW, deeply, but it isn’t our only lifeline anymore. We’ve lived. We’ve grown. We’re not as hidden away inside ourselves as we used to be.

These days, the thing that keeps us here is plurality.

Not in a trendy way. In a holy-fudge-this-is-real-and-we’re-learning-ourselves way. We love how different headmates can be, how wildly different systems can be from each other, and how roles and origins can form into something that actually makes sense of the past.

Plurality has given us curiosity again. It’s helped us find language, connection, and a kind of hope that isn’t fragile.

Since discovering we’re a system in 2022, we’ve learned so much. We’ve had host changes, we’ve gained members, and we’ve started to understand ourselves as an ecosystem instead of a failure.

And honestly? One of our biggest reasons to live now is this:

We want to see who we become in 5 years. In 10 years. We want to watch our system keep unfolding, keep healing, keep building a life we actually want to be in. 💗

We love kind asks and gentle connections, but we can’t do crisis support in DMs, and we don’t do syscourse here. This space is for healing + community + creativity. 🕯️

Hello again! It’s been a long while since we last posted, but we’re back! Not in a dramatic “grand return” way, more in a “quietly re-opening the curtains and remembering we exist” way.

The past year has been… a lot. Freeze mode, brain fog, chronic fatigue, healing work, life stuff, and the usual system logistics that eat time like it’s a snack. We didn’t disappear because we didn’t care. We disappeared because we were trying to keep ourselves standing. We had a job for 6 months and realized a lot of stuff about ourselves

What’s changing now:

We’re going to start posting again slowly and as we’re able.

Our PK/System Carrd is currently being rebuilt, so that’ll be back later.

We may tweak tags, formatting, and organization as we settle back in.

What you can expect here:

System updates + reflections

Mental health notes (grounded, personal experience, not “advice”)

Occasional life updates

Innerworld/worldbuilding bits when the creativity taps turn on

Reblogs of comfort stuff or relatable posts

Gentle heads-up: We’ll most likely be inconsistent. Not because we’re flaky, but because our nervous system decides when we can post. We’d rather post a small honest thing when we can than promise daily anything and then vanish again.

If you’re new, hellooo! Our intro post has the basics (who we are, boundaries, emojis for members, etc.). You’re welcome to lurk, follow, say hello, or just quietly coexist nearby. Thanks for finding us again, or for waiting, or for stumbling in by accident and deciding to stay 🕯️✨