You were Mars. Full of secrets and beauty yet to be discovered. 
And I was the sun. Unable to get too close for fear of disrupting the balance of the universe.

When fat people lose a significant amount of weight, we assume they have made healthy lifestyle adjustments. When skinny people lose a significant amount of weight, we assume they are sick and in need of medical attention.  When I got sick, nobody ever seemed worried. Nothing led me to believe it would be a good idea to attempt recovery. While I was starving myself, I received constant positive reinforcement in every aspect of my life.  I wrote “When the Fat Girl Gets Skinny” because I was frustrated.  I was frustrated because I was starving myself and all anybody could say to me was how amazing I looked now. How inspiring my rapid weight loss was to them. How badly they wanted to know the magic pill or diet behind my secret to success.  I wanted to write about how people react to eating disorders.  I wanted people to know how harmful their well-intentioned encouragement was.  People’s positive reactions are what made me cling to my disorder. Those reactions made me feel like it was way more important to be thin than it was to recover.  I want our culture to examine how our actions and words perpetuate and encourage eating disorders.

But the most beautiful things in life are just not things. They’re people and places, memories and pictures. They’re feeling and moments and smiles and laughter.

What is human existence? It turns out it’s pretty simple: We are dead stars, looking back up at the sky.

The hours between 12am and 6am have a funny habit of making you feel like you’re either on top of the world, or under it.

if the ocean can calm itself, so can you. we are both salt water mixed with air.

It’s not really letting go of the past that is the problem. It is coming to terms with letting go of a possible future that will never be. That is the struggle. The mind wants to keep its fantasies. Even when they are wrong, unhealthy, dangerous, or even cruel. To let go of the past you must let go of the future and live in the present.