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Forget me not

MÄRTA MÅÅS-FJETTERSTRÖM. 1873-1941

Bonad, “Täppan”, wool, after 1942, Båstad, 34x54 cm.

by HERA LINDSAY BIRD

I pause for a moment at your door And consult my fate This life is more stupid than even I could have hoped for Every day a search party gets lost in the snow With no-one to dig them out again I have tried for too long to act in ways that seem reasonable Yet somehow, this makes me double-unreasonable Like flicking someone’s bra-strap at a coroners inquest The official theme of this poem is The official theme of all my poems which is You get in love and then you die O write it in rhinestones on the lid of my coffin Some people are too hard to be lived without

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Having already walked out on everyone I ever said I loved Things do not bode well for you But things do also not bode well for me Every year life gets less and less acceptable And I feel uncertain of how to proceed in an appropriate fashion To anticipate heartache is a grim satisfaction Like tripping down a staircase in a peach negligee Or an ancient forest with a new corsage of flames It pleases me to subject myself to such whimsical hurt feelings But under my main feelings, I have other, worse feelings Like an auxiliary moat in which black swans are circling If I ever die young I’m going to do it in style.....like a Great Gatsby themed suicide attempt!

Having already walked out on everyone I ever said I loved I have so little left to say to you I pause for a moment at your door My eyes pouring out across the darkness

O let us not be little bitches to one another Life is hard enough as it is Life is hard enough and fast enough And there is nothing in this world worth doing But shaking our heads in awe

A new wind shifts the branches A bird flies out of the radio and off into silence