j'adore

ever since i was a young hydrogen particle 14 billion years ago i knew i wanted to be wasting all the hot water in the shower

forgive yourself. forgive yourself for all the versions you couldn't become. forgive yourself for the wrong things you said. forgive yourself for not knowing any better at certain point of your life. for fucking things up so much that the grief still haunts you. forgive yourself for the darker and shadowed parts of you. you have to learn to integrate all parts of you, even the ones you desperately want to disown. it'll be alright.

idk if any young person needs to hear this but when you work at a job you absolutely can google anything you don’t know or ask someone for help. school has you conditioned to think you have to have everything memorized all the time but let me tell you. I am dumb as shit and I am great at my job because it’s not a test, it’s just work. the more resources you utilize the better.

I’m serious about this, I got out of school and thought life would be like a test where I had to have everything memorized and be smart all the time and then I got into the work force and was like. Oh everyone is stupid and google exists ok cool

oh you have a degree and a career? well I'm going grocery shopping with my mom

thinking about taylor going on stage for the speak now tour every night wearing sparkly dresses and singing about true love and fairytales and sparks flying and enchanted meetings…and how jake’s words about how she was immature and too young for her would have been ringing in her head…and how she changed her style so drastically as soon as the era came to a close…presenting herself in a way that was So Adult while still feeling obligated to be this Good Girl who never drank or went to parties…and how much she wanted to stress that the red tour was mature and more based in reality…and while a lot of this is undoubtedly just the natural result of her growing up i have to wonder….was part of it her trying to prove to jake that she was mature and sophisticated like all his friends? like the girl he wanted her to be?

yeah physically i’m weak but emotionally i’m weaker