Lady Midnight is coming out in one week (and a few hours) so in honor of that Iām putting up the playlist. Usually songs remind me of specific characters in general rather than scenes or themes, so Iāve made notes.
Play Crack The Sky: Brand New
This storyās old but it goes on and on until we disappear.
Calm me and let me taste the salt you breathed while you were underneath.
I am the one who haunts your dreams of mountains sunk below the sea.
I spoke the words but never gave a thought to what they all could mean.
Youāve Haunted Me All Of My Life: Death Cab for Cutie
(Lady Midnightās own story)
Youāve haunted me all my life
Youāre always out of reach when Iām in pursuit
Long winded then suddenly mute
And thereās a flaw in my heartās design
For I keep trying to make you mine
And so I wait but I never seem to learn
How to capture your diminishing returns
I still see you through the eyes of a child
Not even thinking we could tame the wild.
āAlways Goldā by Radical Face
(Mark and Julian. Ty and Julian, Ty and Mark - brotherhood in general!)
We were tight knit boys
Brothers in more than name
You would kill for me
And knew that Iād do the same
And it cut me sharp
Hearing youād gone away.
(A song from my own growing-up period! This one really spoke to me about the power of the ocean, forgetting yourself in the water, and all the people ā Cristina, Diana, Emma ā who make new starts in Malibu.)
And I knew
Love would tear you apart
Oh, and I knew
The darkest secret of your heart
Iām gonna follow you
Oh baby, fly away to Malibu
Oceans of angels
Oceans of stars
Down by the sea is where you
Drown your scars.
I love this one for Emma and Cristinaā¦it was so much fun writing their friendship.
Oh we go where nobody knows
With guns hidden under our petticoats
No weāre never gonna quit it
No weāre never gonna quit it, no
Yeah weāre dressed in black from head to toe
Weāve got guns hidden under our petticoats
No weāre never gonna quit it. no weāre never gonna quit it no
If The Night Is Dark: Seeker Lover Keeper
Well Iām trying to decideĀ
Should I run, should I hide
Show them tricks and be tamed.
Yeah, itās true that Iāve changed
But Iām also the sameIām just playing the game
.If you lay down beside meĀ
Youāll feel that Iām cold
And Iām empty, itās true.See the more I revealĀ
What was one is now broken, broken in two.Ā
California, Airborne Toxic Event
(Emma and the way she wants to be remembered.)
And oh, I hope itās clear: thereās no room for us anymore in the atmosphere,
But darling I always liked the desperation in your eyes,
The way youād dance in the glow of the Hollywood Freeway lights.
Someday theyāre gonna forget about us and weāll wonder if we were ever good enough.
It hit me last night, in this song I heard, I remember the feeling but forget all the words.
Soul Meets Body, Death Cab for Cutie
(Julian, thinking about Emma)
I do believe itās true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
But if the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too
So brown eyes Iāll hold you near
āCause youāre the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere
Fire and the Flood Vance Joy
(The lines First the fire, then the flood, from an old riddle are really important in the book, so it was fun to find this song. Plus it could really cover several couples I canāt talk about yet!)
Youāre the fire and the flood
And Iāll always feel you in my blood
Everything is fine
When your headās resting next to mine
Next to mine
Youāre the fire and the flood
The Trapeze Swinger, Iron and Wine
(It was fun to write about people whoād known each other their whole lives rather than just having met and this strikes me as being about memory and love past and present)
And please remember me as in the dream
We had as rug burned babies
Among the fallen trees and fast asleep
Beside the lions and the ladies
That called you what you like and even might
Give a gift for your behavior
A fleeting chance to see a trapeze
Swinger high as any savior
But please remember me, my misery
And how it lost me all I wanted
Those dogs that love the rain and chasing trains
The colored birds above there running
In circles round the well and where it spells
On the wall behind St. Peter
So bright on cinder gray in spray paint
'Who the hell can see forever?ā
(Mark, Kieran and others in the Wild Hunt)
I love the feeling when we lift off
Watching the world so small below
I love the dreaming when I think of
The safety in the clouds out my window
I wonder what keeps us so high up
Could there be a love beneath these wings
If we suddenly fall should I scream out
Or keep very quiet and cling to my mouth as Iām crying
So frightened of dying
Relax, yes, Iām trying
But fearās got a hold on me
(This always read to me as about love, but not necessarily romantic love ā some of the most important love in the book is family love, Tyās and Julianās, Livvy and Ty, etc)
Iāll stay right here
Itās where Iāll always belong
Days like this, I wish the sun wouldnāt set
I donāt want to forget
What made us feel this way
You see through all my fears
And thatās what got us here
(The Blackthorns and their secrets)
āYou have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve, and I have always buried them deep beneath the ground. Dig them up; letās finish what we started.āĀ
I climbed up a mountain and looked off the edge
At all of the lives that I never have led
Thereās one where I stayed with you across the sea
I wonder, do you still think of me?
I carry your image always in my head
Folded and yellowed and torn at the edge
And Iāve looked upon it for so many years
Slowly I am losing your face
(Julian, and the games heās forced to play)
Iāve never told a lie
And that makes me a liar
Iāve never made a bet
But we gamble with desire
Iāve never lit a match
With intent to start a fire
But recently the flames are getting out of control
I took off my clothes and I ran to the ocean
Looking for somewhere to start anew
And when I was drowning in that holy water
All I could think of was you