sighing theatrically

that whenever i see your name or hear your voice

the joy and sadness that overwhelms me

i wish i had the words to make all of the pain go away

i just want to be sure

i am sure that i want to be with you

but i am also sure that i do not want either of us to hurt

and i don’t know if we can fix it

but if you still believe in us like i believe in us

it does not matter how many times we fail as long as we keep trying

if you are willing

please come find me

the only place i can see

and when it’s gone

reminds me of 2 summers ago when we would stay up all night playing and doing nothing and being so tired the next day

i think

i knew the chances of us growing old together was slim

maybe even none

did you treasure our time together?

do you still value our time together?

it doesn’t seem to get better for me

i don’t miss you any less and i don’t want you any less and there is no one in this world who i can say these things to

there are no words in this world that can express how much i still want to be with you

but that can never be accomplished and i could never ask for you to be mine

so i hope you are doing fine

i think i will be happy with that