anything

''what if you regret it'' then you will expirience regret - a normal and unavoidable part of the human expirience.

you literally have to unironically listen to some shit like party rock anthem so you don’t kill yourself

a small thing i learned from my sister dying is that i really would rather the people i love be a burden than be whatever the hell else they'd be if they weren't. yes even if it's messy and not always fair and hard completely inconvenient for everyone involved. even if it's weird. even if i'm rolling my eyes a bit inside sometimes. i just want you to bother me. please always bother me

like "it's rotten work" "not to me not if it's you" actually sometimes it's still rotten work. even if it's you. and i'd still do it a million times over

person who genuinely hates themselves so much they can barely look anyone in the eye: i must remain humble lest my hideous ego spiral out of control

It's time to kill the idea that we can only grow and heal when we're uncomfortable. You heal every time you have a good conversation with someone. You heal every time you laugh. You heal every time something makes you smile genuinely. You heal every time you have fun creating something - anything. You heal every time you get so absorbed in something fun that you forget your struggles for a while. There is, in fact, lots of healing and growth to be found INSIDE your comfort zone.

you can't kill yourself girl i already bought us tickets to do everything ever

All in all im extremely grateful and lucky, despite everything. Im glad I didnt kill myself when I had the capacity for it, because I like being alive now. I'm glad I let others help me pull me out of it so I can be here for everything. And, now I can stand on the banks of the proverbial river to help pull out others.