tess i guess

I am losing my youth

not yet being pursued

by hair fall

but being chased down by losing hope

not yet being betrayed by fading memories

but being stabbed by consoling dope

bright sides

hurt my eyes

cant look at them anymore

books movies games

used to be fun

but for some reason

now they all feels like a chore

is it the sheer weight of

responsibility

or

inevitable part of

growing up

either I'm losing my mind

or it's just that

I am losing my youth.

Not enough love

Like someone once swallowed

It up till there was no more left

Now struggling to swallow down hurt

And resentment of all the years

Sent to bed with empty

Hearts cold to the touch

Or lack thereof; no hands to hold

Embraces meant to chase the shadows

Withheld for reasons we tried our best

To understand but failing in misery

Feeling like the fault was all ours

Finding one's own worth is worth

Its weight in gold though mining for it

Is damn difficult to be self-taught

But holding ourselves tenderly and

Allowing our hearts to just beat and be--

Not coming down hard on it for leading

Down a path of more aches and pains--

Well that's quite the promising start

Because the ones who can't love us

Don't know best, shouldn't set our value

We may be slow at finding the way

But believe this, we have love inside

Ready to make its debut

And endlessly multiply

Haiku

whoever she was,

and whoever I was then,

our love burned bright