BABY

that comment about how you should not borrow grief from the future has saved me multiple times from spiraling into an inescapable state of anxiety. like every time i find myself thinking about how something in the future could go wrong i remember that comment and i think to myself: well i never know, it might get better. it might not even happen the way i think it will and if it does happen and it is sad and bad ill be sad about it then, when it happens. and it’s somehow soo freeing

maybe if i keep ignoring this feeling of impending doom it'll go away

It’s me and whatever song is holding me together against the world.

I am sooooo not locked in. I am tucked in. Going to sleep