cornelia st.

the overwhelming feeling of sadness sometimes when someone treats me with kindness

the problem is you never actually healed, you just kept distracting yourself 'till you forget about it then you wonder why you're back at the hole again

i have to be silly every day or my brain will start growing mold

thinking about “these desperate prayers of a cursed man” and “a greater woman wouldn’t beg, but i looked to the sky and said, ‘please, i’ve been on my knees, change the prophecy’”

“I might just die, it would make no difference” “I died on the altar waiting for proof” “I might just not get up” “oh, what a way to die” “two graves, one gun” “I would’ve died for your sins” “I leap from the gallows” “if you wanted me dead you should’ve just said” “never quite buried” “were you sent by someone who wanted me dead?” “I think I might die if I made it”