all. the. day. long.

…uhm… the action of the sun in the morning, some call me! Once it dawns on you, you will probably know then… :)

one thing that makes me very sad is when people look forward to the weekend, not that it's terrible to anticipate fun times, but... something tells me life is meant to be more than just waiting for the weekend, or Friday night, or whatever it might be. 

This post sounds familiar; I've probably written something else similar, which shows you just how much this topic is on my mind. It is really REALLY sad to me... and, I think, when those same people reflect on it, I'm sure they are sad too. I'm sure they not infrequently come across negative thoughts about their work life, and they probably also quickly push these away, so as not to arouse or encourage any tendency towards loneliness or purposelessness.

I am a big proponent of resting upon the discomfort and the dissatisfaction and pausing for a moment, without reflexively shoving it back under the pile, to think on it-- to really, really consider those very questions you are afraid to ask yourself. I think there is something so valuable in maintaining honesty, and relentlessly digging beneath all of the lies we tell ourselves, the facades we hide beneath, to find that piece of heart that we left there a long time ago.

*drum roll*

Yay, I passed!!!! Interestingly enough, a different piece of documentation that signifies an achievement arrived in my mailbox on the same day. However, it is indisputable by which one I was visibly moved to excitement and moving and glee. Lalala~

I AM SERIOUSLY SO HAPPY I PASSED.

Tomorrow morning is the day. I really hope so at least. ^^

My lovely lovely co-worker Myriam sent me this image over email in anticipation and encouragement for the test... at least this means I don't need to get up around 6/7 tomorrow~ so that's a plus. If I actually pass, this will be the end of a very very long process... AHH that would be amazing. I think I should pass, though.. ^^

I wanna be a child again

I wanna trust with all I am

Jump into the arms of Jesus

And grow up to be like Him

I wanna let ambitions go

I just wanna live my Father's love to know

I'm tired from trying to be the stronger man

I wanna be a child again

:)

melmo, you might enjoy this. :P

"Don't let the suburbs kill my heart and soul"

what if someone told us,

"don't do what you love, because it doesn't matter what is it that you love."

That sounds offensive, doesn't it? Who was the one who first told us to "do what you "love""? When did the do-what-you-love generation begin? Apparently not so long ago, at least in the large-scale sense in which it exists today.

And I'm willing to bet a cookie that this domain name, Tumblr, has at least partially driven this mentality.

"who cares" "life is short" "do what you want"

I think... for the younger population it's easy to think like this, to seize the day for ourselves and our happiness. After all, isn't happiness the end goal?

We like to... say we want independence, but then we don't practice responsibility. We say we want a say, but in reality we just want to complain and grumble. What kind of people have we become? I'm sure others have pointed this out before, but... it's unbelievable how reactionary of a people we have become, myself very much included. We like to give and deliver and announce split-second decisions to promote or demote almost everything we see nowadays, on the World Wide Web. Yes, opinions matter, and yes, it is important for us to have a voice... but... before taking that voice, I think... we ought to think, just like the rest of the population (ha-ha... well, ideally, that is), and become aware. I don't like the idea of microbytes of information, but that seems to be all we can digest nowadays... so, at least, do a survey of several sources, and then...

see if you can get the "token" to talk:

is it true, is it kind, is it necessary?

(I personally would not mind if it is not necessary, but that is part of the "token" as taught by Dr. Burns-- heheh, I'm actually a big fan of tangential conversation and the like.)

And then, regarding "do what you love," I think there has been too much emphasis on 

"you're important" "speak your mind" "you are all you need" "you're the best"

Too much of this "positivism," "believe in yourself" stuff. ahhhh aiwejfaowiejasdf. not a fan. (-- don't get me wrong, positive phrasing/messages can be ways to lift up one another, and sometimes using these phrases might be a shortcut to imply something else, but... when that becomes our food, our daily bread to keep going... substituting what God says, that's when there is a critical issue.)

What happened to living sacrificially? To living for others? To holding others in higher esteem than yourself? Why should life be about doing what we "love"? Honestly, though... why? And beyond that, why do we make money? Is it to seal ourselves in a ziploc bag so nothing can touch us, so we are sealtight: nothing can get in, nothing can get out?

I thought the whole point is to deny ourselves, take up our crosses, and follow Jesus. Now, with that in mind, let's revisit: what do I want to do for the rest of my life? .... [space for you and me to think]

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