All In Jesst

New motivation, new measurements!  I kind of like the sound of Weigh in Wednesday!  Now it’s time to get to work!

The past few months weeks have been a disaster!  I’m not sleeping well, i’m struggling to put one foot in front of the other, my bingeing is at an all time high and my motivation is non existent.  The hardest part is admitting to myself that the reason i keep taking half a step forward and 85 back is because i just don’t push myself and keep going into everything with a pre determined sense of failure.  

I was telling my doctor yesterday how i keep contemplating getting back on meds but then remember that they actually make me feel worse in the long run.  She suggested changing up my “routine” as well as cutting out caffine, at which time i promptly reminded her that last time i did that i turned into a psychotic monster.  So that’s what we’re working on, hopefully by changing my “routine” I can turn it back into a routine and get back on track.

I need to hold myself accountable to myself and in case i start to waver i’ve recruited the person i trust the most to be my life coach, lucky him!  

The fact that it’s a Tuesday and the month is half done would usually make me go oh no i’ll wait until the next <insert day/week/month> and then get started, but there’s no time for that, my wellness is more important than a preset start date so today it is!

Goals for this week

Finish the first 3 weeks of uni work so i am back on track and up to date

6 clean food days

Make decent food and drink choices tomorrow night at the football

Loose 1 kg

Exercise every day

Use stand up desk for at least 2 hours each day

BREATHE

Wow, where has the time gone already?  Slow start to the week this morning after a late night.  Not all that happy with the weight increase, but i think too much plastic beer and bread may be helping me to retain a bit more water than i'd like!

Had an amazing 7km hill run bright and early yesterday to kick back into half training so happy to enjoy the rest day today and focus on planning for the week ahead.