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me for the last hours:

I am sorry to bug everyone again, but I need some help. To come right to it, I got my evaluation results back for this year, and almost the entire thing was a negative evaluation of my performance and demeanor this year. While I am sure some of this is true, there were other things in the eval that didn't add up. My coworkers and I all have come to the conclusion that our vice principal simply doesn't like me and gave me negative overkill in hopes that I will quit since she can't technically fire me over anything right now.

ANYWAY

All this to be said, I feel very discouraged and I need prayer. I am trying to find employment elsewhere, but I genuinely don't know what to do. I love the community I've joined at the school, everyone is so kind despite admin's coldness, and I love the kids I work with and I want to help them succeed.

Ask that God gives me discernment in this matter, that He shows me where I should go or if I should stay put. And maybe pray that my relationship with the administration improves??

I am at a loss

I don't want to work where I am not wanted, but my community has expressed that they value my presence here. I don't want to let someone else make my work life miserable though. Besides, though this matters little in the grand scheme of things, other school districts pay better.

Edward Hopper, Girl at Sewing Machine, 1921. Oil on canvas.

The painting portrays a young girl sitting at a sewing machine facing a window on a beautiful sunny day. The location appears to be New York as is evident from the yellow bricks in the window. The exterior vantage point although present only aids in putting the interior activity in perspective.

It is one of the first of many of Hopper's "window paintings." Hopper's repeated decision to pose a young woman against her sewing is said to be his commentary on solitude.

The painting is the inspiration for Mary Leader's poem of the same name.

And when I mention the hate that I have received, the death threats I have received, the messages about how I'm a heretic damning myself and others to hell, from people from all kinds of faith (or lack of faith) backgrounds over the years. I question why people that approach me saying 'Orthodoxy is hateful' suddenly turn a blind eye to these things and can be dismissive of these things when it comes to things said by people from their denomination. Is it because you recognise that people within your denomination/faith are complex? Some of them being more hateful, others more loving, and you recognise that neither one nor the other represents the faith as a whole? Then why is it that you can't apply this approach to people from other backgrounds?

I have experienced first hand some people calling themselves Orthodox Christian being hateful, either towards other people or to myself. I have also witnessed some Orthodox Christians go above and beyond in their love for other people and to myself. Both during my time as a Catholic and my time outside of Catholicism I have experienced some Catholics being hateful, either towards other people or to myself. I have also witnessed some Catholics go above and beyond in their love for other people and to myself. I have witnessed some Protestants being hateful, either towards other people or to myself. I have also witnessed some Protestants go above and beyond in their love for other people and to myself. There are many Catholic and Orthodox Saints that have experienced discrimination and hate from people within their own denomination as well as great love. I am sure many of my followers here have first hand experience of people in their faith being hateful towards them to some disagree. Faith is complex, the people that make up the faith are complex. The Church is a hospital for sinners, there are going to be people that you disagree with that call themselves Catholic or Orthodox or Protestant or whatever else.

Your denomination, whatever your denomination is, is not free from people within being hateful. And you do yourself and your faith a disservice when you would rather point fingers at other denominations and pretend the problem is a uniquely outside issue. The hateful people within your denomination are not a representative of your faith as a whole. Just like the hateful people within my denomination are not a representative of the faith as a whole. We should pray for everyone, and especially ourselves, to have love. To a certain degree, yes we should turn a blind eye to our brothers and sisters who fall short, considering ourselves to be the chief of sinners. But not when we turn a blind eye to the people within our faith, but have our eyes open to the sins of those from elsewhere. When you consider that other people have fallen short, pray for them and pray for yourself. I cannot answer for my Orthodox sisters and brothers that fall short, all I can ask is that you pray for them. Just as you cannot answer for your sisters and brothers that fall short, and all you can ask for is prayers for them. I do not have power over the Church or over people inside it, and nor do you over yours. Animosity serves the enemy, not God.