Mikita

I wonder if she knows that she has the relationship she does because I allow it. By not letting him do what he really wants, he has no choice. You are his only choice because he can’t have me. You’re welcome. 😏

I knew it was coming. Like bracing for the impact but ugh. Still hurts. Knowing a punch coming and it just coming hurts the same. I don’t know. I don’t have feelings beyond that. Just sad. I want to fill that hole so bad.

Took my first steps out of purgatory last night. It’s really the most accurate way of putting what the last few months has been. Literally just waiting. Not terrible but not good either. Just purgatory. A couple of messages with MM helped remind me that I’m capable and like floating around the city alone. He taught me the “lone wolf” a long time ago. Went out, caught a vibe. Things are only as terrible as you allow them to be. Next.