lacey spacey

In three years time, you’re standing at the crossroads when you see her. She’s got a brown leather bag hanging off one shoulder, and a pearly white ribbon around her neck. Her head bobs along to a song you can’t hear and you find yourself wondering what she sings in the shower these days - what she listens to before falling asleep. She used to joke that singing wasn’t her forte, and that music wasn’t her strength; but you loved her Sunday morning humming; her smile in your mouth, your fingers in her dress. She opens her eyes a little wider and then smiles and gives you a wave. There isn’t much time for talking as you walk past each other and the green man begins to flash. You think her hair looks different, not the colour or the style, but the way it frames her face. She doesn’t look so girlish when she says ‘hey’ and offers you a grin. And when she walks past, you can’t help but turn and watch. You wonder who listens to her talk about the stars at night, or who carries her home when she’s drunk. Three years ago she told you that she loved you. Today you almost say it back.

me: ok im gonna sit down and read this book with no distractions

I lose sleep over you; not because you make me restless, because you make me want to be awake again.

the hardest thing I’ve had to do is learn my demons by name because I’ve realized you can’t say goodbye to something you claim you haven’t met.

Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and think “damn girl, yous a bad bitch” and other times I think “damn girl you ugly as shit”