Alienn

i’ve never hated anyone in my life as much as you. i hope my hatred curses your life and causes great misfortune and suffering. you deserve nothing.

to feel your breath against my neck again

i cant escape you. i wake up thinking of you. i hold my pillow tight wishing it was you. i miss you so badly..

i have this ache in my mouth that surpasses any infection or decay. i can feel the placement and pressure of each individual tooth and just the feeling of this makes me want all my teeth removed and my gums cauterized

i just want to feel okay again. i cant stop cutting at the slightest inconvenience, i can’t eat without crying, i’m taking all these substances hoping to fill the hole you left and its pointless

and yet, i stay awake hoping for something that will never come

I CANT BELIEVE I FUCKING FELL FOR THIS BULLSHIT AGAIN