Sabotoged DNA Sequencing

That’s when they come looking for you

By any means necessary

You have to leave room for them to cohabitate

To maintain the semblance of peace and sanity

It’s a symbiotic relationship

They open doors for you into other versions of this experience

When you ignore them, push them out

You become a denser version of yourself planted , more real at first

Then the seams start to come loose

Little by little

And that’s when they come

They always come

By any means necessary

It’s always best to leave the door open

Cohabitate

Let it all breathe

Where we match

Where we coexist on the same frequency

And all is magic

It’s a tiny window we veer in and out of

When our individual energetic imprints guide us to this rest stop

We meet in dreams and in other versions of our existence

We will always meet in that window

Here, now, later, always

It’s not theory or illusion

It is who we truly are.

Everyone else walks around this outside world hypnotized to believe that this is reality

But you are one of the few who understand how enmeshed we are with every single particle and vibration

We just are

And you are

And that alone has changed my life forever

This life and any others

on how people that feel the most

Are the ones who suffer the most

And vice versa

A direct relationship

We are beings of pure energy trapped inside of these vessels

Roaming around with all the other robots

in our dreams we are boundless

Free to explore, explode, implode, feel it all

Be free

It’s a glimpse into our true nature

Our true reality

Dark and desperate at times

Sinister

Beautiful, magical, cohesive

There’s no need for words

Everything is connected

To you because it all arises from you

There’s no misunderstandings

It’s all pure explosive emotions

Energy

Connection

Senses have no clear delineation

It’s all awash

This feeling of safety, security, and raw smooth invasiveness

It’s a sense of what the universe carries along with it every single moment

I get to dip into that feeling of pure love

With you

There is nothing that can describe the feeling in the outside world

It’s unadulterated peace

You can see straight through them

Their energy is so light

It’s like a fog you can slowly sift

through and see the imagery of their lives laid out in plain sight

The only anchor is their eyes boring into yours

Two billows of smoke laiden with their memories and awareness linked together in mutual recognition

who you were when you first met them

They allow a few changes along the way

We all get older it’s a part of it

But when you’ve evolved and shifted and changed so much

It becomes this pervasive almost suffocating feeling to be around them

You are the same person

But inwardly you feel like a completely different version of yourself...like a stranger to this familiar environment

And their image of you feels like a fog

It’s a mental strain

Like their idea of you pushes up against the person you are today and you struggle to just be ...to breathe...there’s no room for expansion in this place

But they are family and that is hard to come by

It’s a battle when you are looking for a new family

The people you can wholly be yourself with

The people who allow you the room to continuously evolve and change with

To share ideas with and grow with

It’s the biggest blessing one can be afforded in this life and something that must be treasured

What’s more valuable...the people that are a witness to your history....your past...your life

Or the ones who hold space for you in the infinite potential of your being. The ones who will carry you for lifetimes

Created this crime

Ravaged

Spilled blood onto a pool of spilled blood

Bled dry

Where do i find this peace of mind

This bliss

Consistent

These demons beckon me on the daily

On the minute

I hide

Go blind

Numb myself down

When you ask me what’s new

I wanna say the entire landscape of my

Circuitry

But I say “nothing”

I comment on the weather, traffic patterns

Do not disturb the status quo

I’ve broken and rebuild myself an infinite amount of times since the last time we’ve met

Had my heart crack open, question my existence, this existence, frolicked in the outside world, stared out into the ocean and green amazed at this creation

Cry myself to sleep, leave it all behind for the imagination of time, in the void I escape into other planetary outposts

Where are you

When the alarm goes off and this reality

Resurfaces

How many lives have you lived

How many lives have you destroyed

We’re fragmented time and time again

Placed together

Forced together

Play nice

Stitch it up

Don’t cry

Breathe

Relax

Invade your mind

Relived a thousand times

Fragmented....is how I’ve been

This feeling of bliss

Its a chase

We run run and run

Pretend to stop and breathe

But breathing is over rated

There’s no oxygen when you’re in it

It’s ecstasy we’re living in

It’s fire in our veins

Magic in our brains

Extended out above and over this place

There’s nowhere to go

Because you’re everywhere

It’s everywhere

And nowhere

Now stop drop and breathe

The devils at your back

This race isn’t linear

There’s nothing here to see

Wake up now

You’re in it

Breathe

Sometimes smoothly

Sometimes chaotically

Subtle like slipping on a new pair of silk socks

Or shaken like a brutal night of rain and torment

I feel it inside of me

A turntable of versions of myself

All me

All serving a purpose

All slipping on my wardrobe

Sometimes shaking off the dust

Time passed

Needing a slight jolt to reestablish dominance

Some too large to fit now

Some overtaken by the enormity of the size of the life we have created

They are all me

They are not all favorite versions of myself

But all me

There is a neutral state that always remains

The watcher

The observer

Time freezes every now and then

Sometimes for minutes, hours

It’s been years now

Where time has been frozen...some still slipping in an out

But none that have the gravitas

To propel this forward motion of immense speed

The speed that gives me life

LIFE

LIFE

LIFE

an explosion of rawness of experience of infinite soaring raging perpetual uninhibited life

I don’t always know what to do

But I try to stay close to the light

To the people and places that remind me to live and strive for that version of myself that brings me to life

It’s not a search for a high

But a search for meaningful experience