Alex's thoughts

This song is so powerful. I went trough a really tough time a little over 6 months ago. I didn’t see the meaning of life. I didn’t see the meaning of living. Of being alive. I was all alone and I didn’t tell people how much I was actually hurting. How meaningless everything seemed. I seriously considered suicide. About ending my life. Giving up. But then I listened to Cimorellis music. I cleared my head. I sorted things out. I got out of the depressed state I was in. I survived and now I have true friends who would do almost anything for me. I got rid of the toxic people in my life. I got closure. I’m so much happier now. There’s rarley a day when I feel bad anymore. 

So to everyone who’s reading this: You can survive. You can make it trough whatever you’re going trough. You ARE strong, you are beautiful, you are loved, your life has meaning and you are worth EVERY good thing in life.

So as this video show many valid reasons for living. Such as best friends, babies  snacks, pets, falling in love, Gods love, you are alowed to make mistakes - you’re only human, you ARE great, you ARE enough, things WILL get better. It can take only days, maybe months maybe even years but please stick trough all those though moments. Without the bad days what is your life? What would life be without though times? You wouldn’t know real pain and that’s the sort of pain that makes us human and showes us how strong we are.

WARNING: SPOILER ALERT (OBVIOUSLY)

So I finnished reading everything everything about 1 1/2 weeks agoand then me and my friend decided that we were gonna watch it on her birthday celebration party thingy. So we watched the movie. And I got so disapointed. It was so bad if you compare it to the book. Like WHAT?

A few things that bottered me

Maddys bathingsuit was pink in the book - movie = yellow

In the movie where Olly put up pictures of the ocean THAT NEVER HAPPENED!

In the movie Olly didn’t do ANYTHING with parkour

Olly never went to his roof in the movie

In the movie we never got to hear Ollys backround story with his father

In the book Maddy had long hair - in the movie = kinda short

In the book their room is super small - in the movie = it’s like an apartment

That’s just a few of the things that bothered me. And one thing that REALLY annoyed me is that in the movie Olly and Maddy didn’t seem to have any chemistry. It just really bothered me.

And so many of the things that happened at night happened when it was light outside or the other way around. 

So this is a really short storytime that happened today.

Hi again!

I am so excited right now and I need to share this information. So yesterday I was out with my friend group at a local coffe shop and we all ordered and talked and stuff. After about an hour another ‘friend’ joined and about 30 minutes later, I don’t know how, the subject changed to sexualities. So apperently my friend ‘’Maya’’ (from the previous post) is bisexual and I was very surprised but happy. So I got currious and I asked about everyones sexualities. We were 7 people there and here are the sexualities.

Me: Pansexual and asexual

‘‘Maya’‘: Bisexual (maybe pan)

‘‘Anna’‘: Bisexual (maybe pan)

Girl 4: Bisexual

Boy 1: Gay

Boy 2: Straight

Person: Nonbinary

Right now I’m so happy because there’s so many sexualities in our friend group and yeah I was so happy. In my former friend group, as well as I knew, I was the only one who wasn’t straight and this is just really new to me.

I just started what’s in America called high school and here it is called “Gymnasiet”. And I want to share my experiences from the first week. I’m gonna write high school since it’s easier to understand.

So I started school last Thursday and I had NO friends tere. So te first day I was completley alone. There was this girl in front of me (let’s call her Anna) that I wanted to become friends with. But I didn’t have the curouge. So even though the first day was just abot 3 1/2 hours long I felt so alone.

So on Friday I wasn’t as excited to go to school but I was still excited. So after about an hour we had to interview each other 2 and 2. So this guy came up to me (let’s call him Eric) and asked if I wanted to partner up with him and of course I said yes because I didn’t have anyone else to interview. So when we were finished he asked me if I had gone to (insert school here) and I had. So it turned out he was one of my best friends from grade 1-3. So from then on I had a friend. We hung out.

Later that day we went to the librery to get our textbooks and there Anna started to talk to us and walk with us so after about 10-15 minutes we had became friends. I was so happy because the first day she sat next to this other girl and I thought they were best friends. And even later that day Erics friend (let’s call her Maya) Maya ate lunch with us and I had another friend. She was in another class then but we still became friends.

So then the week ended and on Monday we went back to school and all 3 of us hung out, not just in school but after school as well. So after school we went out to a cafe with 2 of Erics and Mayas friends. We had so much fun and it had been such a long time since I had hung out with friends after school. It had been over 8 months.

Then on tuesday they redid the classes so me, Eric, Anna and Maya was all in the same class and we now have so much fun together in class. I ask them for help sometimes and they ask me. I could never do that at my old school because I was the smartest one of my frineds and they didn’t want to ask for help unless they wanted me to solve the stuff for them, like mathproblems.

Now I have fun in school again, I have 3 new friends and they’re amazing. My last friends betrayed me and just stopped talking to me out of nowhere. But I’m gonna write more about that in anoter post. So now I have fun in school, I have people to talk to and hang out with for the first time in 6-7 months. So if you’re alone and don’t have any friends just keep up hope. I was depressed for over 6 months about loosing my friends but now I have new ones. I have a hard time trusting ths is going to last forever but even if it dosen’t I’m gonna enjoy it for now.