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two years ago, at the last renewal, we thought we still had forever, who knew time could go by so fast âšď¸đâ¤ď¸
"tĂrame magonlias..."
alexia putellas x magnolias
reblogs are very appreciated :)))
i miss alexia

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And when the referee blows the final whistle for tonightâs match, officially concluding Alexiaâs reign over Barcelona, then what?
How do you properly mourn someone who never really left, only chose another badge to protect their heart?
Also like if she leaves I can't get another name on my jerseys it's always been her I can't change that no matter how much I like them
Okay but like⌠hypothetically speaking, if Alexia leaves Barça, which I donât think she will, but if she does, which again I donât think she will⌠what the actual FUCK am I supposed to do with my life then?
Happy birthday to my gay awakening bye

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60.000 people chanting Alexia's name in Camp Nou actually got me tearing up đĽš
Alexia 500!
iâd sacrifice every single one of you (and myself) if it meant that alexia scores a goal in the new camp nou
is now a good time to tell yall that Iâm still not over this?

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congrats to alexia who was named uwcl player of the week đ (now get that extension signed!)
candles and heartbreak â alexia putellas
universe â sienna universe
word count â 7.1k
summary â you are working to plan sienna and alexiaâs birthday. meanwhile alexia is pictured seemingly flirting with an ex
notes â i gave up on waiting for tumblrâs appeal đŤŠđ
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âYou what?â You stare at the midfielder in disbelief. Your laptop and iPad are both open on the kitchen island, surrounded by color-coded sticky notes, open planners, and enough tabs to make your MacBook sound like itâs about to take flight.
Alexia winces, visibly bracing herself. âI want a joint birthday party. I think it will be fun, you know, sharing a birthday party with my daughter.â
You blink at her again, like you canât believe what just flew out of her mouth, then your jaw drops. âYou want to what?â
Alexia offers a sheepish smile that could only be described as âguilty but cute.â âUn cumpleaĂąos conjunto, amor. A joint birthday. It makes sense, doesnât it?â
You could swear your eye twitched. The masterpiece you had been crafting for monthsâtwo separate, beautifully coordinated, color-coded eventsâwas being dismantled before your very eyes.
âAlexia,â you begin slowly, in the kind of tone one might use when trying to negotiate with a wild animal, âI have been planning your party since last year. Since last freaking year, Putellas. And Siennaâs since the moment she was basically showed up on our doormat. There are spreadsheets, Ale. Connected spreadsheets. Conditional formatting. Formulas. Budgets. Flowcharts. You name it, I have it.â
Alexia tries not to laugh. âI know, amor, I knowââ
âNo, no, no. You donât know. I have timelines. Coordinated music playlists. Seating arrangements. A color palette for each event. Perfectly crafted balloon arches.â
Alexia winces again, looking like a kid caught sneaking out past curfew. âAmor, listen to me.â
Youâre too shocked to move, so she simply picks you up, laptop cord yanking free, and takes your seat herself, pulling you right onto her lap.
âAlexia!â you protest, smacking her shoulder lightly.
She tightens her arms around you. âRelax, cariĂąo. Deep breaths, in and out. Thatâs it.â Her hand slides under your shirt, rubbing calming circles on your back. âItâll be fine. You love organizing. Youâll just⌠reorganize a little.â
You narrow your eyes. âReorganize a little? Ale, this isnât just reorganizing. This is a complete overhaul. I might as well start from scratch!â
âSee? You already know what to do,â she says brightly. âAnd think about itâitâll be adorable! Me and Sienna, both blowing out candles. Matching outfits maybe. You know youâll love that.â
You open your mouth to respond, but something about her tone makes you suspicious. ââŚWhy do I feel like thereâs more to this?â
Alexia gives a guilty little laugh, eyes darting anywhere but at you. âWellâŚâ
âWell?â
âI might have⌠already canceled the venue for my party.â
You freeze. ââŚYou what?â
âAnd the caterer.â
Your voice jumps an octave. âYou what?!â
âAnd got a refund for the decorations. But I swear, I was thinking of us, amor! It just made sense! Why pay for two when we can have one big one?â
You stare at her, mouth open. âYou canceled everything?â
âSĂâŚâ she murmurs, shrinking slightly under your glare. âI think I just, um, acted on impulse?â
You throw your head back with a groan. âYou think?â
âI mean, it wouldâve been too late in the day for Sienna anyway,â Alexia says quickly, trying to reason her way out. âYou know how she gets. Sheâd be snoring before the cake comes out.â
You stare at her for a long moment, and then sigh, rubbing your temples. âIt would be cute, I suppose. And it would⌠cut costs.â
Alexiaâs grin spreads slowly, triumphant and dazzling. âSooooâŚâ
You narrow your eyes at her but canât help the small smile tugging at your lips. âIâm willing to merge the parties.â
âÂĄGracias, amor!â Alexia cheers, immediately grabbing your face and kissing you soundly, twice for good measure.
Youâre about to protest again when you hear a delighted squeal from across the room.
Sienna, gnawing on her teething ring from inside her playpen, giggles. âMami. Mama.â
Alexiaâs heart melts instantly. âThatâs right, leoncita!â she says as she crosses the room to scoop her up. âWeâre doing our birthday together!â
Sienna squeals again, tiny fists flailing as Alexia spins her around in a circle.
You lean back in your chair, watching the two of them laugh, your annoyance already dissolving. âGot to combine a one-year-oldâs party with a twenty-eight-year-oldâsâŚâ you mutter under your breath. âWhat the hell did I agree to?â
Alexia twirls back to you, holding Sienna like sheâs Simba in The Lion King. âThe best decision of your life, obviously.â
You point a warning finger. âIf thereâs a single Minnie Mouse balloon next to your rosĂŠ bar setup, Iâm going to lose it.â
Alexia smirks. âYou mean our rosĂŠ bar setup.â
You squint. âYou have no idea how lucky you are that youâre pretty.â
âVery lucky,â Alexia agrees immediately, leaning in to kiss your cheek. âAnd also very smart, because I just saved us a ton of money and made the cutest birthday ever happen.â
You sigh dramatically, opening a new tab on your laptop. âFine. But if I have to color-code a new spreadsheet for this disaster, youâre staying up all night with me to help.â
âDeal,â Alexia says, grinning. âBut only if we can put matching hats on me and Sienna.â
You pause mid-typing. ââŚI hate how much I actually like that idea.â
From her arms, Sienna babbles, drooling on Alexiaâs shoulder.
âSee?â Alexia coos, kissing the babyâs curls. âEven she agrees. Joint party, joint chaos, joint fun.â
You groan, scrolling through venue options again. âJoint migraine, more like it.â
Alexia laughs and leans down to whisper against your ear, âYou love us.â
âUnfortunately,â you sigh, smiling despite yourself. âWay too much.â
âSo if I do colorful muted tones, that says adult and kiddie, right? And Winnie the Pooh has to be incorporated somehow, so if Iââ you mumble to yourself, flipping through the twenty color palettes youâd printed and spread across your desk like they were classified government documents. âThen the cakes. But I have to plan the colors before the cakes. But the cakes give inspiration for the colors. But theâŚoh, god, this is a paradox.â
You scribble something, cross it out, sigh dramatically, then pick up your iPad again to open a new Pinterest board. âOkay, okay, so if I go with honey yellows, dusty pinks, and muted blues, that says âaesthetic toddler,â but if I add cream tones, thatâs too boho. But maybe Alexia could be boho? She has boho energy. Sienna has chaos energy. Oh no, what color is chaos?â
âDios mĂo.â
You jump, nearly spilling your tea all over your precious spreadsheets. Alba is standing in the doorway, arms crossed, a smirk playing at her lips. âWhat is wrong with you?â
You look up with bleary, sleep-deprived eyes. âI donât even know anymore.â
It looks like youâve been camped out there for days. Blanket around your shoulders, three half-empty mugs beside your laptop, and a sticky note on the monitor that literally reads âdonât forget to breatheâ but you canât remember the last time you took a breath.
âMeshing the parties is harder than I thought,â you whisper weakly, eyes still glued to your color samples. âI. Am. Struggling.â
Alba walks further in, scanning the chaos. âYou look like struggle, babes,â she says, running a comforting hand through your curls. âYou look like the physical embodiment of a mental breakdown.â
You point a trembling hand toward the papers. âThere are too many tones, Alba. Muted, vibrant, primary, pastel. I donât know who I am anymore.â
Alba chuckles. âYouâre someone whoâs about two minutes away from crying over a color swatch.â
You open your mouth to respond, but your phone rings, interrupting you. You groan dramatically before answering. âHello?â
Alba watches your face fall, your expression morphing from annoyed to horrified in real time.
âOkay. Alright. Thank you,â you say flatly before hanging up.
Alba tilts her head. âThat didnât sound like good news.â
You look up at her with wide, unblinking eyes. Before you can even speak, your phone rings again. You answer robotically. âHello? Yes, this is she. Oh! Thank you.â
Alba raises an eyebrow. âYou sound like a hostage.â
You hang up slowly, staring at the phone in silence for a long moment before whispering, âThe caterer and the venue canceled. No place for the party. No food for the party. No partyâŚâ You trail off, looking like someone just told you Christmas was canceled.
Alba immediately places a hand on your shoulder. âMi amor, everything is going to be alright.â
âNo itâs not,â you croak, sounding borderline tragic. âI failed as a mother. And a⌠whatever I am to Alexia. I failed as a human being. I failed as an event planner. I failed.â
âOkay, melodrama,â Alba says gently, dragging an ottoman over so she can sit beside you. âTake a deep breath. We can save this. And yes, we. I am officially your co-planner now.â
You blink. âYouâd⌠do that?â
âDo I have a choice?â she deadpans, gesturing around at the explosion of stationery. âI fear for your sanity.â
You let out a weak laugh, leaning your head on her shoulder. âIâm sorry. Iâm just⌠I wanted it to be perfect, you know? For Alexia and for Siennaâs first birthday.â
Alba nods, her tone softening. âAnd it still can be. You just need to let go of the control a little.â
You side-eye her. âYou realize who youâre talking to?â
âYes,â Alba grins, âand thatâs why I brought your favorite snacks.â She pulls a small bag of chips from her purse and offers it like a peace treaty.
You take one with a sigh. âSo what do we do?â
âOkay,â she starts, tapping her chin thoughtfully. âMy Mami and your MamĂŁe can cook. Theyâre old and retired, and honestly, they live for this kind of chaos. Takes them back to our kiddie party days. Theyâll love it.â
You perk up a little. âThat⌠could actually work.â
âRight? And our old classmate, sheâs a baker nowâshe gives me cakes half off. Youâve tried her stuff before, remember? That chocolate tarta at my cousinâs wedding? The one you said made you believe in love again?â
You nod slowly. âThat was⌠divine.â
Alba grins. âThen itâs settled. Weâll order from her. And as for the venueââ she gestures dramatically toward the window, ââyou have the perfect one.â
You frown. âThe backyard?â
âSĂ, the backyard. Itâs huge, gorgeous, and free. Plus, itâs supposed to be warmer than usual on the day of the party. Itâs like the universe is saying, âchill out, Eloa.ââ
You stare at her in disbelief for a moment before launching forward to hug her. âAlbita, I will love you forever.â
Alba fake sniffles, patting your back. âI know, I know. Iâm amazing. Stop crying, youâll ruin your spreadsheets.â
You pull back, laughing. âI canât believe I didnât think of this.â
âThatâs because you were too busy color-matching honey tones to Alexiaâs skin tone, babe.â
You gasp. âDonât mock the creative process!â
âOh, I will absolutely mock the creative process,â she teases. âNow come on, letâs finalize a menu. If your mamĂŁe is cooking, Iâm pushing for feijoada.â
âOnly if we add your mamiâs croquetas,â you counter, already reaching for your laptop.
âDone deal.â
You grin. âHelp me pick out the menu and color scheme?â
Alba pretends to tear up. âI thought youâd never ask.â
âDonât start crying, we donât have time,â you tease, typing furiously as she starts flipping through your color swatches.
âOh my god,â Alba gasps suddenly, holding up one. âThis one! Muted honey yellow with pastel sage accents. Itâs giving both âsoft birthdayâ and âbabyâs first picnic.ââ
You squint, then nod decisively. âYouâre a genius.â
âI know,â she says smugly. âNow, letâs get this party saved before you start making spreadsheets for spreadsheets again.â
You groan. âToo late. Already did.â
Alba snorts. âYouâre lucky I love you.â
You grin, already back to your planning mode but lighter now, your stress melting away. âI really really am.â
From the hallway, Alexiaâs voice echoes as the front door opens. âAmor! Weâre home!â
Alba sighs, standing. âAnd thatâs my cue. You deal with your wife, Iâll start a group chat with the moms.â
âSheâs not my wife,â you murmur automatically. âSheâs technically not even my girlfriend.â
Alba smirks, already walking out. âSure she isnât, spreadsheet girl.â
Alexia has been a parent for quite some time now, but she will forever struggle with that stupid stroller you bought.
âCochecito tonto. ÂżPor quĂŠ no abres?â she mutters darkly, shaking the handle like it personally offended her. Sienna sits in her car seat, one hand clutching her teething toy and the other resting on her thigh like an unimpressed monarch. âStop looking at me like that, leoncita,â Alexia grumbles, giving the stroller another yank. [Dumb stroller. Why wonât you open?]
Finally, after a frustrated kick and a muttered curse, the contraption pops open. âÂĄPor fin!â she huffs triumphantly, wiping her hands on her jeans like sheâd just fought a wild animal. âYou see, Sienna? Mami always wins.â
Sienna blows a raspberry in response. Alexia unbuckles her, pressing a quick kiss to her forehead before lifting her out of the car. âVale, letâs get you in your silly little carriage so we can be late with style.â
Just as sheâs about to set Sienna in, a voice calls out behind her.
âAlexia? Alexia Putellas? Is that you?â
Alexia freezes, shoulders tensing before she turns around, still holding Sienna in the air. The voice is familiar in that annoying way that makes her brain rattle.
âItâs me, Mila!â Oh. That Mila.
The woman struts toward her, looking exactly like she did years ago. Perfect hair, perfume too strong, and a smile just a little too confident⌠and evil. âWow, I canât believe itâs really you!â
Alexiaâs jaw tightens. She sets Sienna in the stroller quickly, buckling her in and pulling the hood down over her face. âRight, Mila,â she says, trying to sound polite but firm.
Before she can step back, Mila throws her arms around her. Alexia stiffens, holding her hands awkwardly in the air. âOh! Weâre doing this,â she mutters under her breath, giving Sienna a helpless look.
The baby just stares at them, blanket in hand, before tugging it up over her face like sheâs shielding herself from secondhand embarrassment.
Mila finally pulls away, her hands lingering a bit too long on Alexiaâs forearms. âYou look amazing,â she beams, giving her a once-over. âLike, wow. Have you been working out?â
Alexia forces a smile, her polite athlete mode kicking in. âIt is, in fact, my job, so yes.â
Mila laughs, tilting her head. âRight, right. Still the same sense of humor. I always loved that about you.â
Alexia glances down at Sienna, whoâs starting to wiggle impatiently. âGive me a second,â she murmurs to the baby before muttering under her breath, âLearn some patience. God, you are like your Mama.â
âOh!â Mila leans in a little too close to peek into the stroller. âAnd who is this little cutie?â
Alexia instinctively moves the stroller back a step. âThis is my daughter.â
Milaâs hand pauses midair. âYour daughter?â she asks, surprise flickering across her face.
âYes,â Alexia says curtly, resting one hand protectively on the stroller handle.
âWell, you always were good with kids,â Mila says, stepping closer again. âI remember how you used to talk about wanting one somedayâŚâ Her voice softens, almost wistful, before she gently touches Alexiaâs wrist. âIt suits you. Motherhood. You lookâŚhappy.â
Alexia exhales slowly, her tone steady. âI am happy. Very.â
âHmm,â Mila hums, her smile too sweet, too knowing. âYou deserve that. Really. Whoever the lucky one is⌠sheâs lucky.â
Before Alexia can respond, Mila gives her arm a little squeeze and smiles wider.
Alexia steps back, forcing a polite laugh. âWeâre actually late for her baby yoga class. Good seeing you.â
Mila opens her mouth to say something else, but Alexia is already turning the stroller around. âTake care,â Alexia calls over her shoulder, briskly walking away before the conversation can stretch into dangerous territory.
Unbeknownst to her, across the street, a camera clicks quietly behind a row of parked cars. A few shots of Milaâs hand on her wrist. A few more of the hug.
âWhere were you?â Vicky groans the moment Alexia reaches the park, hands on her hips like a tiny exasperated coach. âI was doing baby yoga with no baby! Do you know how ridiculous I looked?â
Alexia deadpans. âYou couldâve just waited for us.â
âAnd miss warm ups? No, maâam,â Vicky says, crossing her arms dramatically. âI am an athlete, for goodness sakes.â
Alexia rolls her eyes, handing Sienna over. âHere. Make yourself useful.â
Vicky sits Sienna down on the mat beside her, adjusting her tiny headband. The baby looks around curiously before getting into her version of downward dog: hands planted, butt in the air, hair puffing as she giggles at herself.
âLook at her go!â Vicky says proudly. âSheâs better at this than half the adults here.â
Alexia kneels beside them, watching her daughter with a soft smile. âThatâs my girl.â
âSo,â Vicky says slyly, âwhat made you late anyway?â
Alexia exhales. âRan into an old ex of mine from when I was younger.â
Vicky blinks. âWow. That mustâve been, like⌠a thousand years ago.â
âWatch it,â Alexia warns.
âIâm just saying! Youâre ancient in football years,â Vicky teases, helping Sienna transition into another pose. âWas she cute?â
Alexia gives her a side-eye. âExcuse me?â
âCome on, curiosity!â Vicky insists, grinning. âWas she flirting with you?â
Alexia looks up in thought. âI suppose she was. I didnât even notice. It felt uncomfortable.â
âUh-huh,â Vicky drawls, clearly unconvinced.
âWhat?â Alexia frowns.
Vicky points a finger at her like sheâs making a grand accusation. âYou better not be cheating on my mother, Alexia Putellas. Or else itâs me and you in a boxing ring. You have gloves, I have a knife.â
Alexia blinks. âYou realize how concerning that sentence is, right?â
âAs much as that statement was cute and horrifying,â Alexia continues dryly, âI am a bit upset that you even think Iâd cheat on Eloa.â
âTrue,â Vicky shrugs. âYou spent years, years, chasing after her. Honestly, it mustâve been exhausting. Youâre lucky she finally looked your way.â
Alexia narrows her eyes. âYou are walking home.â
Vicky grins, unbothered. âJokeâs on you. Salmaâs picking me up. Weâre going shopping and sheâs dropping me off.â
âI will change the locks.â
âEloa will let me in. She loves me more anyway.â
Alexia groans. âHelp the baby with her yoga.â
âIâve been doing that,â Vicky says innocently.
âShut it.â
âWow, Mamiâs cranky,â Vicky teases under her breath, tickling Siennaâs foot as the baby giggles.
Alexia pretends not to hear her, though the corners of her lips twitch. She glances at Sienna, whoâs babbling happily to herself, blissfully unaware of the photos already spreading online. Alexia Putellas, caught smiling with an ex, stroller in frame, baby unseen but heavily implied.
Vicky keeps joking, her voice a welcome distraction, but thereâs a flicker of unease in Alexiaâs chest that she canât quite shake. She pushes it down, convincing herself itâs nothing.
âAbril, you are an actual lifesaver,â you gush, showing her the printed inspiration boards for the cake. âSeriously, I donât know how to thank you enough.â
Abril laughs, waving her hand modestly. âItâs no problem at all. Youâre saving me, actually. Iâve been dying to do something fun and colorful instead of another minimalist wedding cake. Plus, itâs nice to see you again.â
You grin, a genuine warmth spreading through your chest. Abril had always been one of those people whose presence made any space feel lighter. âYou havenât changed a bit,â you say fondly. âStill too good for this world.â
âI try,â she teases. âJust text me when youâve finalized the color palette. Iâll mock up a few test tiers.â
âYouâll be hearing from me tonight,â you promise, shaking her hand before giving her a quick hug. âThank you again, really. Youâve saved my ass.â
As you and Alba step out of the bakery, your friend lets out a long, content sigh and immediately slides into your carâs passenger seat like she owns it.
âIâm calling it,â Alba declares, adjusting her sunglasses dramatically. âI am officially the designated passenger princess. Donât argue.â
You snort, pressing the button. âYou only want to be passenger princess so you can take selfies with my car.â
âObviously,â she says, already snapping pictures. âIf I donât post at least one story pretending this is mine, whatâs even the point?â
You roll your eyes but smile. The drive home feels peaceful with the soft hum of the radio, Alba humming along, and you feeling like maybe everything was finally under control.
Then Alba gasps, loudly.
Your heart jumps. âWhat? What is it? Whatâs wrong?â You pull into your childhood homeâs driveway so abruptly Alba lurches forward.
âNothing,â Alba blurts out too fast. âAbsolutely nothing.â
You narrow your eyes. âAlba.â
She looks away, fiddling with her phone. âEloa, trust me when I say this. Donât check your phone.â
You freeze at the chilling tone of her voice. You glance at your phone sitting in its holder on the dashboard, then back at her. You both move at the same time, her lunging across the console, you snatching the phone first.
âELOA!â Alba yelps, scrambling out of the car as you bolt for the front door. âDONâTââ
Your fingers fly over the screen as you type your name into Google. The first article pops up, timestamped just twenty minutes ago.
âAlexia Putellas Spotted with Mystery Woman! Trouble in Paradise?â
Your stomach drops and the photo loads slowly, like itâs taunting you. Alexia standing beside Siennaâs stroller, head tilted slightly, laughing at something the woman beside her said. The womanâs hand is on Alexiaâs arm, just barely brushing it, but itâs there.
And then another photo of Alexia smiling faintly, polite but soft. The sight alone made your heart clench.
You stare at the screen, frozen, your pulse thundering in your ears.
Alba catches up, panting. âOkay, first of all,â she starts, âwow, you are fast. No wonder defenders cry when they play against you. Iâm winded. Iâm suing.â
You donât laugh, you canât.
âElita?â Alba says carefully, peering at the screen. âIâm sure itâs a misunderstanding. Alexia wouldnât dare.â
You swallow hard, forcing your voice to stay even. âYeah. I know.â
You lock the screen, your reflection staring back at you, calm but too calm for a situation of this nature. âLetâs go ask about the food,â you murmur, brushing past her.
Alba blinks, watching you disappear inside. âOkay,â she mutters, trailing after you, âdefinitely compartmentalizing. Thatâs not good.â
You push open the door and call out a distracted greeting to your mother, slipping off your shoes and pretending like your world hadnât just tilted.
Behind you, Albaâs muttering under her breath, barely audible but every word dripping with protective rage.
âHow does that gilipollas manage to fuck this up?â she hisses, glaring at the floor as though Alexiaâs face were printed on the tiles. âShe bagged the woman of her dreams, the love of her life, and all she has to do is not be an idiot. But no, Alexia Putellas always finds a way to mess it up.â [Dumbass]
She exhales sharply. âPuta madre. I swear, if she hurts herâŚâ
You ignore the burning behind your eyes, forcing your voice into something bright and steady. âMamĂŁe!â you call out, stepping into the kitchen. âAlba and I were thinking, maybe you and Eli could cook for the party?â
Your mother beams, immediately distracted by the idea, and Alba sighs, nodding, slipping seamlessly into your lie of pretending everythingâs fine.
âAmor? We are home!â Alexia calls out as she shuts the door behind her, her voice still bright and sing-song from baby yoga. The soft shuffle of Siennaâs tiny socks follows as she pushes the stroller in, her curls bouncing under her little hat. âWe had a very fun time at baby yoga. Oh, and Vicky went out with Salma, sheâll be back later, in time for dinner.â
Sienna babbles happily, kicking her legs in excitement, her pacifier half falling out of her mouth as she squeals. Alexia leans down to fix it, smiling fondly.
âMi amorcita, you were the best baby yogi there, sĂ? Even the instructor said so.â
The faint sound of your steady, low, and focused voice carries from the kitchen. âWeâre in the kitchen, Alexia,â you call, tone neutral but clipped.
Alexiaâs smile widens, oblivious, as she walks in with Sienna on her hip. The warm smell of roasted vegetables fills the air. She sets Sienna in her high chair, pulling her bib over her head. âBona tarda,â she greets cheerfully. âGuess who got the award for best downward dog?â
Alba looks up from her glass of water, smile tight, eyes flickering between the two of you. âHey, Ale.â
âHi, germaneta,â Alexia leans in, kissing Alba on the cheek before turning toward you, her entire expression softening into something tender. âHey, mi amor.â [little sister]
She steps closer, tilting her head to brush her lips against yours but at the last second, you turn. Her lips land on your cheek.
Alexia freezes, her body going rigid. A chill crawls up her spine. âÂżPasa algo?â she whispers, her breath brushing your ear. âDid I⌠do something?â [What happened?]
You donât look up from the cutting board, knife working mechanically through a pile of herbs. âI should start on dinner,â you say flatly. âAlba, are you staying?â
Alba pauses with her glass of water in her hands. She sets the glass down with extra emphasis. âNo, no,â she says quickly, voice higher than usual. âI should go. I have work early tomorrow.â
Alexia blinks, confused. âThat has never stopped you beforeââ
Alba cuts her off immediately. âMy dear, germana, will you walk me out?â she says pointedly, her tone all but screaming get your ass up now. [sister]
Before Alexia can respond, Alba leans over to kiss Siennaâs cheek. âTĂa loves you, peque,â she coos, and then grabbing Alexia by the wrist, she drags her out of the kitchen, muttering a stream of rapid fire Catalan curses that would make even the hardest sailor blush.
âAlba, ÂżquĂŠ pasa? Why are youââ
âOh, shut up!â Alba hisses, spinning to face her as she jams her feet into her sneakers. âSeriously, your voice is irritating me right now.â
Alexia stares, bewildered. âWhat the hell is wrong with you? What happened?â
âYou need to fucking fix it, idiota,â Alba snaps, stabbing a finger toward the kitchen. âWhatever you didâor didnât doâyou better figure it out fast. Because my Elita is in there, trying not to fall apart, and itâs killing me to watch her pretend sheâs fine.â
Alexiaâs jaw drops. âWait, what? What did I even do? I havenât done anything!â
Alba glares like sheâs speaking to a toddler. âYou havenât seen it?â
âSeen what?â
âMan, where is your PR team? Fire them. Like, yesterday.â
Alexia rubs her forehead, stress flooding her body. âAlba, I swear to God, if you donât tell me whatâs going onââ
âOh, for fuckâs sake!â Alba throws her hands up. âJust open any social media app in existence, Captain Oblivious. Youâre a public figure. People are already throwing virtual tomatoes at you.â She yanks open the front door, halfway out before tossing one last line over her shoulder. âWhen you fix thisâand you will fix this, buy me new shoes. Preferably Prada.â Then sheâs gone, the door clicking shut behind her.
Alexia stands in stunned silence for a long moment, pulse thrumming in her ears. She quickly pulls out her phone with a deep frown and her pulse quickening. Numerous articles pulled up within seconds. âLa Reina has a new jester?â Alexia mumbles the article title. âWhat the fuck?â
Photos popped up of her and Mila at the parking lot. Snapshots of Milaâs hand on her arm, the hug, and the goddamn laugh she hadnât even realized looked that bad.
âOh, mierda,â Alexia breathes, voice breaking. âNo, no, noâŚâ
She feels her stomach drop, dread creeping up her throat.
Without thinking, she sprints back to the kitchen. âCariĂąo! Amor, wait!â
Youâre crouched beside Siennaâs high chair, placing a small plate of fruit and cheese in front of her. The baby claps her hands, signing âthank youâ with a proud grin. You smile gently at her, your expression soft only for Sienna.
âAmor,â Alexia says softly, her voice trembling. âPlease, look at me. Por favor.â
You glance up briefly. âIâm doing chicken and pasta for dinner,â you say simply. âThe chickenâs in the oven, pastaâs boiling. I hope thatâs alright.â
âForget dinner,â Alexia pleads, stepping closer. Her chest feels like itâs caving in. âI saw it. The pictures. Amor, itâs not what it looks like, I swear. I didnât reach out to her, I didnâtâshe just showed up. I would neverâI could never do that to you.â
You nod once, mechanically. âI know.â
Alexiaâs heart lurches. âYou⌠you know?â
âYeah,â you murmur, turning to drain the pasta. Steam rises, filling the tense silence between you. âI know you didnât mean for it to happen. I know you didnât seek her out. I know it wasnât what it looked like.â
âThen why are youââ
âBecause I also know how the world works,â you cut in, your tone low but sharp. âHow our world works. I know people will twist it. I know what it feels like to watch everyone speculate about your relationship. And right now, I donât have the emotional bandwidth to sit here and make sense of it for you, or for me.â
Alexia steps forward, voice breaking. âMi amor, please, talk to me. Donât shut me out. We can handle this like we always do, together.â
You turn then, finally meeting her eyes. Theyâre glossy but cold, as though youâre holding the door shut from the inside. âIâm fine, Ale.â
Her chest constricts painfully. The tiny, polite smile that doesnât reach your eyes and sheâs seen it before. When the press tore into you both the first time. When you smiled through panic because thatâs what strength looked like to you. But never, not once, had you smiled like that at her.
âAmorâŚâ her voice cracks. âPlease donât do that. Donât look at me like Iâm a stranger.â
You swallow hard, patting her arm gently, like youâre the one comforting her. âReally, Ale. Weâre all good.â
You turn away, scoop up Sienna, who giggles as if none of it matters, and rest her on your hip. âCome on, leoazinha. Letâs get you cleaned up before dinner, huh?â
You disappear up the stairs, your soft voice filling the hallway as you hum to your daughter.
Alexia stands frozen, hands trembling. The kitchen feels hollow, too quiet. The ticking clock on the wall feels deafening.
She finally sits down on a stool, elbows on her knees, staring blankly at the wall. Her jaw clenches as the first tear slips down her cheek, her breath uneven.
She knows this isnât just about the photos. Itâs something deeper. Something fragile inside you sheâd accidentally cracked open.
Usually, Alexia had the ability to crawl inside your mind and figure it out. But this time she seemed to be drawing a blank. And quite frankly, it was eating her alive.
âAlright,â Lucy says, swirling her mixed drink and eyeing Alexia over the rim of her glass. âWhatâs the matter? You look like this isnât your amazingly planned birthday party.â
It really was amazing. You had gone all out, blending muted tones of gold, honey, and pastel colors into a Winnie the Pooh theme that somehow managed to be classy and whimsical. There was one large cake for everyone, and a smaller one just for Alexia and Sienna to blow the candles out together, also for Sienna to gleefully smash afterward.
Your moms, Maite and Eli, had gone overboard with the food, renaming every dish with some kind of Winnie the Pooh reference. The coxinhas were âHunny Drops,â fideuĂ was â100 Acre Noodle Nest,â and brigadeiros had been renamed âTiggerâs Truffles.â Every table had wildflowers in tiny honey jars, and the backyard twinkled with fairy lights.
Sienna was dressed in the cutest pink and cream dress with tiny bear ears on her headband, and you matched her with a pink dress of your own. Alexia wore a cream button up with matching bear ears on her head. The picture perfect family scene.
Except Alexia couldnât focus on any of it. Her eyes kept wandering to you. You were standing near her aunt, laughing lightly but with that smile that didnât quite reach your eyes.
âEloaâs mad at me,â Alexia mumbles, her voice low as she stares at you. âStupid pictures.â
Lucy hums, stirring her drink. âI donât think sheâs mad about the pictures.â
Alexiaâs head snaps toward her. âYou donât? I didnât think so either. She didnât even yell. She just⌠shut down.â
Lucy takes a sip, eyes flicking toward you. âYeah, thatâs not anger, mate. Thatâs her building a wall so high youâre gonna need a whole construction crew to climb it.â
âI tried,â Alexia groans, dragging a hand through her hair. âI keep trying. But she keeps giving me that⌠PR voice.â
Lucy grimaces. âOh yeah. Sheâs got the best media training Iâve ever seen. Itâs terrifying, actually.â
âI know,â Alexia groans louder. âItâs like sheâs talking to the press, not me.â
Lucy pats her arm. âGo inside. Iâll get her in there for you.â
âHow?â Alexia asks skeptically.
Lucy smirks. âGonna lie my ass off, duh.â She sets her drink down and strides off toward you.
Youâre standing with your mother now, chatting softly.
âHey, Mum,â Lucy greets, pulling Maite into a hug.
âLĂşcia!â Maite beams, kissing her cheek. âComo vocĂŞ estĂĄ, meu amor?â [How are you doing, my love?]
Lucy fake winces dramatically, pressing a hand to her stomach. You immediately side-eye her because you know that look, itâs the one she makes when sheâs getting you into something. Sheâs used it before, more times than you can count.
âMĂŁe, acho que minha menstruação vai chegar. As cĂłlicas estĂŁo me matando,â Lucy says smoothly, giving Maite a quick, subtle wink that you miss. [Mom, I think Iâm getting my period. My cramps are killing me.]
Maite gasps softly and turns to you. âFilhinha, vĂĄ buscar analgĂŠsicos para a Lucy. Agora!â [Daughter, go get Lucy some painkillers. Now!]
You frown. âMas mĂŁe, ela ĂŠââ [But mom, sheâsâ]
âEu disse agora, Eloa Marianna!â Maite scolds, smacking your arm lightly and pointing toward the house. [I said now, Eloa Marianna!]
You groan but start walking toward the door anyway, glaring at Lucy, who just grins smugly and blows you a kiss as you pass.
When you reach the door, youâre greeted immediately by a voice that makes your breath hitch.
âAmor?â Alexia calls from inside, her tone soft and cautious. Your body does rigid. âNo, none of that. Please? We need to talk.â
You stop dead in your tracks. âAleââ
âBut itâs my birthday party!â Alexia half whines, stepping closer. Thereâs a hopeful grin tugging at her lips.
You canât help the small laugh that escapes you. âSeriously? Youâre pulling that line right now?â
âIf it works, it works,â Alexia shrugs. âI just⌠I know youâre not mad about the pictures. I know youâre not fine either. If I did something, please tell me, amor. I canât fix what I donât know.â
You sigh, crossing your arms. âYou didnât do anything. Itâs me being in my own head.â
Alexiaâs brow furrows, her voice softening. âThen talk to me. Please, mi amor.â She steps forward, taking your hands gently in hers, pressing them to her lips before holding them to her chest. âTell me whatâs going on here.â
Your throat tightens. âWhat are we, Alexia?â
Alexia blinks. âWhat?â
âWhat are we?â You repeat, your voice trembling. âThink about it. We never officially put a label on us again. Which is fine. I mean, we donât need labels. Iâve never really liked them. But for some reason⌠itâs bothering me this time. Because if we donât have one, whatâs stopping us from ending up back at square one? And I just canât go through that horrible abyss again, Ale, Iââ
âAmor, slow down,â Alexia whispers, squeezing your hands. âWhy didnât you tell me this?â
âDo you not hear how batshit crazy I sound?â You laugh shakily, tears welling in your eyes.
âNo,â Alexia says firmly. âYou donât sound crazy. You sound human. And I didnât realize how much this meant to you.â She swallows thickly. âIâve been calling you my girlfriend to everyone whoâd listen. Maybe I shouldâve said it to you, too.â
You groan softly and let your forehead fall against her shoulder. âIâm sorry. I just got in my head. I kept thinking maybe you didnât like me like that anymore. That you were just holding this together for Sienna. And then those pictures came out and⌠I donât know, it just all spiraled.â
Alexia freezes before cupping your face and gently forcing you to look at her. Her eyes are wide and intense. âWhat? Amor, no. No, no, no. Now you sound crazy.â
âSee!â you try to pull back but she holds firm.
âListen to me,â she says quietly, voice trembling. âI have been pining after you for years, Eloa. Years. I have loved you in silence, in pain, in joy and every version of you. Iâm not holding it together for Sienna. Iâm holding it together because I canât imagine a life without you.â
You blink up at her, completely undone.
âIâm never letting you go. Like ever. ÂżMe oyes?â [Do you hear me?]
Your lips tremble, but you nod, whispering, âI hear you.â
âGood,â she murmurs, pressing her forehead to yours.
Thereâs a moment of silence before you whisper, âAle?â
âYes, amor?â
You take a deep breath, your lips brushing hers. âBe my girlfriend?â
Alexia breaks into a grin so wide it makes your heart ache. âGod, finally you got the balls to ask.â
You roll your eyes, shoving her lightly. âYouâre horrible.â
She laughs, looping her arms around your waist to pull you back in. âYes, amor. Iâll be your girlfriend. And for the record, I already was.â She kisses you softly. âI love you.â
âI love you, too,â you whisper back against her lips. âNow come on. Weâve got candles to blow out.â
You both make your way back outside, and before you open the sliding door you narrow your eyes. âHold up. Did Lucy help you with this?â
Alexia sucks in a breath through her teeth.
âI knew it! That faker!â you exclaim, pushing the door open.
You hand Sienna over to Alexia, quickly lighting the candles on the smash cake. You turn to walk away and join everyone else on the other side. Alexia is quick to grab your wrist and pull you to her side.
Vicky holds up her phone. âEveryone ready? One, two, threeââ
Maybe she shouldâve clarified, because everyone starts singing âHappy Birthdayâ in different languages. Spanish, Portuguese, Catalan, and English all at once. The cacophony is hilarious, and Sienna claps happily, squealing with delight.
âBlow the candles, bebita!â Alexia coos, leaning forward with Sienna. The baby scrunches up her face, trying to blow but only managing a puff of spit. Alexia laughs and helps her, the two of them finally blowing the candles out together. Everyone cheers.
Eli and Maite immediately swoop in to cut the main cake for everyone.
âHappy birthday, linda,â you murmur, kissing Alexiaâs cheek.
âThank you, amor,â she smiles, radiant and relieved.
Sienna holds out her frosting covered hands toward you, eyes sparkling. âCake, mama?â
You chuckle, leaning down to playfully bite her tiny hand. âThank you, aniversariante.â [Birthday girl]
Sienna giggles wildly, smearing frosting on your nose as Alexia laughs, tucking her face into your shoulder.
The tension, the hurt, the worry, all of it fades into the warm glow of fairy lights, laughter, and the simple joy of your little family.

