venting.

ALWAYS REMEMBER: THE NIGHT IS DARKEST JUST BEOFRE IT KEEPS GOING FOREVER

displays my agonies online for free

no one is coming to save yo- wrong!! everyone who has ever shown you love and/or care is saving you a little bit.

my friend going through the psych portion of her medical studies to get her degree: "waaait a second. this reminds me of my Tortured friend ^_^ he has these symptoms! my Tortured friend is like this! (⁠•⁠‿⁠•⁠)" and no matter what chapter she's on she can always reference knowing me for 3-ish years. yeah the schizospectrum guy acted like this before his diagnosis. yeah no his PTSD does this too. yeaaah that sounds like DID! ohhh wait this one is probably OCD!!! I know this because my Tortured friend,

People will outright ask why cant you be normal as if you havnt been fighting to conform to the world around you since you were 3

"all you ever do is complain" that's not true. I also resent.

[Getting so angry it makes my brain disease worse] people sre supposed to be nice..

Through gritted teeth and clenched fists: its never wrong to trust people, its not your fault you were lied to, its never stupid to trust people, its not your fault you were led on, its never wrong to trust people, you are not naive for expecting better, its never wrong to trust people, it isn't your fault you got hurt, its never wrong to trust people, not everyone wants to hurt you

i'm learning that what's meant for me won't cost me myself

they should invent a way to live my own life without the anger & despair that lingers

You deserve a life that doesn't require constant escape.

everything is a ploy by big suicide to make me commit suicide

but as we know fuck the man and Never Kill Yourself

person who loves you is real and loves you. btw