The God Of Stupidity

It's time I stop interacting with people online and working on both healing myself with the pains I've caused to both myself and other people and also work on calming my nervous system so I'm not always defensive easily.

Even if I can never reunite with the people I once cared for because they hate me for my actions, that's okay, it's for myself to heal and improve, I don't want to keep repeating these same mistakes I've been making for the past 10 years now.

It just sucks it had to get this bad but that's on me.

I'm only going to be sharing art here, there's no point in interacting with people when it could lead into disaster. So please don't interact with me when I start sharing only art here.

I decided I'll be adding some of the au ocs that I designed for the au in my original project. Mostly the characters from glitchtale because the au is community owned, and also because despite the fact I Majorly fucked up with the reglitchtale community and they quite understandably despise me for my stupid actions. I still value the time I had with that community and they really were wonderful to me before I made everything worse, they didn't deserve to be treated so harshly even if some of the recent things they've said about me hurt like a motherfucker. It's my fault I'm in this situation and they only want to protect their community, I would do the same.

Basically what I'm saying is I'm adding these characters specifically because I do honor those times in the past and as a way for me to cope with the loss that I had caused, even with the whole community probably wanting to castrate me, I am thankful to have had them back then.

Not defending anything I did but I'm not trying to get a big following right now. Let me heal as I'm in a lot of pain throughout these few months, does that justify my reactions, fuck no. But it does mean that I just want to do my own thing until I start bettering myself, regardless of whether or not people want to believe me or not.

Everyone likes focusing on people's mistakes when they hurt others but never likes to focus on the good. But hey that's the internet and from my 10 years of being active I realise it's not for me, I'd rather be surrounded by people who understand me and know the true me and not the impulsive actions that I'm working on doing

If you don't like me just don't interact with me, they literally said that shit in their posts. I won't try and get you to sympathize with me. But I also ask to be left alone.

Tumblr is definitely gonna be the place I post the least and I'll stick with making videos on my YouTube channel and sharing art to my DeviantArt and blusky pages. Just gonna keep to myself for the far future.