Hello, RBOM!
It has been a while since my last update. Anyway, a few days ago, Facebook notified me about my memories from last year. It has been a year since my college graduation. It’s kind of funny how I’m studying again after graduating. It’s even funnier because I’m studying my own language.
Lots of things happened within the span of that year. I received job offers that I had to decline and then I tried to apply for a job too. I got hired and was asked to come back the next day to sign the contract and be there for orientation. Fate, however, had a different plan for me. Alas, I had to withdraw from that one job where I applied. That was a few months ago already.
Today I’m studying Nihongo. I already speak the language but I need to be a little more fluent. Enrolling myself in a Japanese school was a decision that my family came upon after my arrival in the Philippines from Japan. My cloudy thoughts had a window to breathe in after talking with Mother and Madir in the room. It was just the three of us, I can’t remember where Mi Amore was during that time. Anyway, there was a lot of discussion but at the end of the day I told everyone that if the only choice is to undergo naturalization, then I will respect the law of said country. I think I also need to pay respects to my dad by going back to zero and re-learn everything from step one. So here I am now, a Japanese-Filipino who holds a Journalsm degree but is studying her other language because she doesn’t speak, read, or write much of it.
I don’t tell anyone but my thoughts have been cloudier than before lately. I’ve had to decline 4 job offers last month—it flatters me but it reminds me too that I’m setting aside that part of me for another part of me and it’s confusing me that I couldn’t sleep at night. Sometimes my seatmate would catch me zoning out. Well, I always zone out even way back. It’s just that it’s tougher now. I don’t know. Maybe the Nihonjin genes in the works? Hay... Times like this one I would usually ask Bianca out or sleep over her house and then I would plan to tell her but just spending time together would make everything okay so I would forget about it without me knowing.
Anyway again, it’s nice to update RBOM again. I’m not the kind of person who opens up about my feelings or what comes next because—that’s for another story—plus, every decision I do is just from the spur of the moment but I guess I should talk about it more.
Until my next data cap,
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