Some people find it rude or silly when I say my dogs are my children and I find it hard to explain. No I know I didn't make them, didn't grow them and push them out of my foof, getting them was no pain to anything but my bank account. I don't have to watch them 24/7 or think about their futures, I don't have to worry about fights and quarrels with other children or if they're falling behind developmentally. I don't have the general worries of actual parents but the thing is, I want those worries, I want to think about the future and worry about how my children are feeling, I want children but, I don't have them. It's not the right time for us to have children and I know that and I accept that but it doesn't stop me from wanting them. So, instead I have my dogs. My dogs that I have raised, who have actually very much gained my attributes, my neediness, my anxiety and my constant need for entertainment and affection. My dogs that I've trained and raised and that I get to come home to and wake up to. My dogs that I treat and spoil and worry about when they've not eaten or don't seem themselves. My dogs that I care for and poor all of my love into. My dogs that are just as crazy and in your face as we are and they complete my family more than I can actually put into words. Yes I know they're not children and yes I know it's not the same but this is the closest I've got, the closest I can have right now. I'm a mum without children but at least I've got my dogs and that's good enough for me... For now ;)
