the world has lost an extraordinary, legendary artist. a beautiful soul with such an incredible career.

alan you’ll always have my heart.

might as well confirm that this date is forever changed in my heart. i’m probably repeating myself as it is but not a single death has affected me so much as alan rickman’s. there’a nothing quite like losing your first love as a young teen and as an adult right now i feel like this really had reshaped a part of my life.

you’ll be missed and loved forever alan. you’ve had an incredible life, thank you for sharing it with us.

this was and will remain as one of my favourite pictures ever taken of both of them and now it has even more heartbreaking meaning

sincerely fuck cancer

rest in peace helen and alan 💔

fuck cancer, honestly and truly, fuck cancer

another life taken from the world way too soon, i couldn’t deal with alan rickman’s passing 5 years ago and i can’t believe helen mccrory also isn’t here anymore

i’ll find better words to say what i want to say someday but for now rest in peace helen mccrory, i miss you already and i’ll never forget you

1/4 of my life went by without him in this world.

january 14th was forever changed in my mind in 2016 and i’m sure it will never feel the same again.

at the time i was a young teen who was very much in love with many characters that Alan brought to life, i also was very much (and likely forever will be) in love with his personality and character, i never expected that his death would affect me so much, but as it is it’s now a date i will remember forever.

Alan was a wonderful human and an amazing actor, may his soul rest in peace.

i was at a baby’s funeral once, at 16yrs old and that baby was full term, healthy and stillborn. it’s been 4 years since it happened and this baby’s mother, even after she had another healthy baby, still goes to therapy and takes medications for that trauma. she never forgot and she never will, the same as i’ll never forget that tiny white coffin i saw then.

if what this fucked up government just did happened in june i’d soon be on my way to another baby’s funeral, this time of one who would live for short few minutes in the hands of his mother and then pass from its genetic defects. this mother who had to make a decision to have a miscarriage (stillbirth if we go by rules outside of this country) in the middle of her second trimester is fighting with ptsd right now, it probably won’t be years until she’s ready to have another baby she’s wanted so much.

i cannot for the life of me imagine women being forced to birth and bury their children, not to mention care for ones that won’t ever be able to even give them a sign that they are in fact humans. what this fucked up country is trying to achieve will only result with less pregnancies, or what’s even more scary a lot of unsafe abortions, and women running away from this place.

i’m only 19teen but as a person who thinks that i may in fact like to have children in the future i cannot imagine being pregnant here, not to mention having and raising said children here. i have such a strong attachment to my family that i hardly ever considered leaving this place but i can’t allow myself to live in a country which takes away my basic rights as a woman.

i’ve been feeling so bad for the last few days, i don’t know why i’m making this post but quite frankly i feel like i need to say this