yee haw

because who am i if i don‘t give my entire heart everytime?

apparently youre supposed to perform. they love it when you perform. but it has to be authentic. they hate it when it's not authentic. but you have to perform.

I have so much faith that everything will work out for me, everything that is meant to find me will find me and what is meant to teach me will teach me.

god i need something so bad. but what is it

hey sorry it's just that i don't think i'm very good at being a person. thanks for letting me try with you, anyway.

You actually cannot skip to being good at a creative endeavour that you haven't put much practice into. You cannot trick your way out of the 'knows that your work is not what you want it to be but don't know how to improve it' stage by planning or reading or talking about it really really hard. At some point you just have to craft through it until your brain finds it's own unique way back to the 'everything I make slaps' stage and be prepared to start the cycle all over again. You just have to make that project you're excited about slightly less good than you want it to be. (Says this standing in a pool of blood and covered in blood and also coughing up a little blood)

everyone stop reblogging this I hate to be reminded of my own good advice

hm sometimes i wish i was one of those people who moves thousands of miles away and never looks back and has a ton of adventures unmoored from their past and where they’re from but i can’t help looking back and i’m deeply, fervently defined by every person, thing, or place i’ve ever loved

a lot of your suffering comes from treating your nature like a problem to manage instead of a design to understand

"why do you know that" i am curious about the world around me