like a broken record

this isn’t even a revolutionary thought but like. making daniel old in amc iwtv was such a fucking cool and important choice that forces people to deal with their ageism and how much of that is linked to aesthetic beauty. and daniel is beautiful because he has aged. like almost every single other character is years upon years older than him and yet because they look young they move through life forever being seen that way. and now we have a vampire who wasn’t turned as a young adult but has lived a full human life with all the hardships and struggles that come with it and has grown old and sick and jaded but is also experienced and wise and a pro at what he does and only now after he’s spent years coming to terms with his own aging and the decline of his health, is he gifted with vampirism. a thing he thought was only accessible to him when he was young and eager and hopeful. and his maker wouldn’t give it to him then, and louis wouldn’t give it to him then, and if you think for even one second that armand turned him out of spite then you don’t know what it is to have loved someone the way armand has. and armand has loved him, for an entire lifetime, watching him grow and fail and change and begin that death march and still he waits until there’s no other choice, and he’d rather do a thing that makes him sick, that he swore he would never do, and yes it’s selfish in a way because it’s armand who can’t bear to lose him. but it’s also devastatingly poetic because young daniel didn’t deserve to have life taken from him but old daniel has EARNED the right to die with dignity. and armand SHOULD be the one to give it to him because loving daniel meant taking their shared memories, loving daniel meant watching him from the shadows, loving daniel has always meant letting him go. except now. except now. loving daniel means letting him Be.