When silence falls does no one care?

Before their (forced) enrollment at NRC, Yuuzu did not leave their house much. A series of unfortunate circumstances and a past they rather keep buried was unearthed. Rather than dealing with it, dealing with people, dealing with his sister, they ran. Retreated as far into the crevices of her mind to try and find some mythical thing known as peace. Numbness was all that greeted Yuuzu in their isolation. It was late at night, they craved a drink, why not pick it up? It wasn’t far, a couple of paces around the neighborhood down that one street. The walking could be good, Yuuzu felt their muscles atrophying slowly. They really needed to get out more. And that’s when the carriage had approached them. Their phone, wallet, and a bottle of yuzu ramune is all they had with them when they woke up.

It was a morning like no other, you were accompanying your self-proclaimed friends on their conquest to procure a meal. Some would even say you were recruited, as many students parted upon feeling your touch of death, making it easier for the troublemakers to grab what they wished for. Everyone now sat down, either enjoying or about to enjoy their meal when a small but shifty figure approached. Sandy hair, angular short ears, and a grin you had generally come to familiarize yourself with that meant trouble. Seeing your form there was the slightest moment of hesitation from the boy, but he saw your gaze. The gaze of a deep tiredness that extends beyond physical, he was all too knowledgeable on that look, so he pressed forth. It didn't concern you when the boy swindled Grim, but the way in which you felt like he knew something about yourself that you didn't, it was mildly irritating. Some would even say unnerving in its over familiarity.

Eventually you learned his name was Ruggie, how he had the spirit of a conniving urchin mixed with a heart of gold. How he gave, and gave and gave and gave. How even though his efforts might not have been fully reciprocated by his dorm mates, how he was often brushed off with a laugh, scoff, or then some, he still remained ever so himself. He still cherished his roots, the community that collectively raised him. How after the two of you became close he’d save a portion of food you mention liking, though most likely it was out of his own unconsciousness habits than anything else. You could never really eat anything brought, but the thought and effort was still appreciated all the same. Of course the mischievous hyena was never above taking from those more fortunate than him, of course he was still willing to bend or break rules if it fit his needs or interests. He didn’t change, his character was still the same as it was, you were just granted the opportunity to inspect him closer.

Jack was another individual you had happened to meet, the stoic boy who initially had no interest in getting to know anyone of your entourage. It was refreshing to have someone that was just as uninterested in you as you were in them, or at least that how it seemed at the moment. You’d soon come to know that the muscle-head was of a most aggravating type, the type that laid claim to apathy when they were anything but. Of course at the information of his idol being the culprit of the most recent ‘mysterious’ incidents he became a reluctant ally in your investigations. He treated you with dignity, something that was rather uncommon at this school. He didn’t stare at the gnarled limbs beneath you— at least he tried his very best too. Nor did he prolongedly stare at the scars of what had to have been horse hoofs. He, despite saying he supposedly didn’t care about anyone, would bark back at his dorm mates crude remarks and awful sneers. He was the first person to offer subtle words of encouragement when you couldn’t hold back tears anymore at the onslaught of constant judging eyes. His care felt at patronizing, but there was an acceptance in him that only you knew your current circumstance, and only you could proper learn to manage it.

Then there was the head honcho himself, Leona. The lion’s pride was aggravating, how could he sit there and smirk at your attempts when he was no better. He had given up on the notion of hard work to achieve his own goals, why did he scoff at you for not having anything to aspire to? Isn’t he supposed to be the one person who understands this? You at least had the gall do something with your non-life, to help others however reluctantly where you could. He was flesh, living, breathing, circulating, thinking, feeling. Heart, lungs, nerves, liver, skin, he had all of it yet refused to do anything above the bare minimum. His presence made you want to take every limb you owned and slowly twist until you couldn’t feel anything anymore. To lose all what little sense remained. The investigation group had formed a plan to confront him, good. You tagged along as a witness, it’s not as if he could hurt you. It’s not as if anyone could truly harm your body any more than it had already been. The thought scared you a bit, you scared yourself.

Unsurprisingly the provocations spoken by the fae known as Lilia hit the bullseye of insecurity. A thick inky energy and the swirling of sand enveloped the bitter lion, funneling his magic into hate. Destruction and hate, hate and destruction. More than any of that, or perhaps the cause of all of it, resentment. He was so very tired, so very cynical, he would never be able to rise above his station. Never be able to crush the bars that held him up and yet crushed him. All of this was so very obvious to you, how could it not have been? Two faces on the same damned coin, the thought spun as chaos unfurled further. Bursts of various colored magic shooting from here to there and back, fire, sand, ink, ice. The hyena clutched his raw shoulder in pain, blood seeping through his fingers smiling almost deranged as he set forth more magic. Riddle clenched his teeth, aggravated that his unique magic was so easily thwarted. The rest of the Heartslabyul dorm soon easily falling into a synchronized battalion. You stood there. Frozen. Calm in a storm, at least physically, your mind was anything but. Leona roared one last time as he collapsed, and you could feel in your soul that of so familiar bitterness. 

You disappeared as Leona’s unconsciousness absorbed you, and felt that familiar feeling of humanity wash over you. Again? Again! Memories traced over your form like angels bringing back your senses. Textures, smells, all of it fully, not just some half broken meter of feeling. You lingered for just a little longer after his internal life narration had ended, it couldn’t have been easy. Couldn’t have been fair no matter how “unruly” Leona was, he was a child who just craved an ounce of recognition. Pity, you didn’t want that emotion to bubble up but it was so easy for the useless emotion to when you knew. It wasn’t fair, you knew it wasn’t fair. Your own emotions started to magnify, and subsequently and harshly pushed out. The forcefulness of the ejection from his mind caused you to tumble backwards, your form sinking into the ground slowly. Green eyes blinked once, adjusting back to reality before turning to glare at you. Or at least you had the feeling that other people would interpret his gaze that way, you took it as a silent plea. ‘Don’t mention that to anyone’ he seemed to be asking.

Things had changed after that moment, Leona had changed towards you. He wasn’t rude, never to you, but there was a caution. A calculation in the way his eyes bore into your own, a longer pause after you spoke and a more enlightened reply than just a single syllable. He had underestimated you once, look where that had got him. But as time wore on, he seemed to allow himself relaxation in your presence. Not quite yet a softening, perhaps never a full softening as his intellect would only be sharper in playful light by the flames of romance. A simple nod when you passed or the small unspoken permission for your lingering that was given, all signs of his recognition of you. On one particular afternoon you had fiddled with some weeds in the grass, twirling whirling and swirling it around your finger tips. It was a good day, a day when the pain felt a bit more bearable and your form was corporal enough to where it could be held. The hypnotic motion had your eyelids flutter closer and closer, until they shut completely. Sleep in the golden afternoon became a nap that lasted till early evening. Eventually waking up you felt under you something warm, something comparably soft, and a hand rested around your shoulder. The lion let out a little huff of amusement as you quickly sat up. A flicker, you excused yourself and swished off as fast as you could.

Jack had learned, especially after Leona’s overblot, that you were no domesticated cactus, nor were you a child like those of his siblings he had to protect. Despite your appearance, the pain, you were capable and willful, so much more willful that he had thought to give you credit for. Still, a small observation by Ruggie had wormed its way into his brain, filling it with worry.

“Doesn’t the Prefect look a little off?”

You had, he couldn’t quite place it exactly but the mangled mess of your legs looked wrong. More wrong than it had originally. Drippy, viscous, perhaps even a pitch black in some spots. A vague small scent of death could be traced if either of them tried hard enough. Still, you were undead, it couldn’t have been too unusual for the scent of death to cling to you. Surely…

How lucky she is then that the sevens bestowed her with the same homeroom as you! A miracle from above, a reward for her patience, a blessing from them for her to continue her actions. A seat directly behind yours is the one her body occupies, close enough for casual conversation should she wish to pry into your brain, distant enough to keep her mystique. To remain ever the stage crew to your blindingly beautiful performance of the play labeled life. Hm? Flittering about a little rumor starts, chirped from one creature to the next that class categorizing forms were stolen. How papers seemingly went missing from Crowley’s office. Ah, ma lapin pay those rumors no heed, the security here is top notch non? It's much more likely that silly crow of a headmage misplaced a folder, it's bound to show up eventually. Nothing to concern your pretty little head over, stress isn’t good for the human body you know~

How fortuitous as well that she and you were born in the same era, that your paths had happened to intertwine. Fate snared in an inescapable bear trap. Witnessing you day in and day in and out was simply a lovely thing, inscribing every action of yours into her brain. Burning your smile into her retina. How can such a beautiful creature exist! You aren’t naive in the typical sense of the word, but lacking in experience is your caution. A bunny burned once that now mistakes light for fire, while failing to comprehend that burns come from heat. How lovely that she’s here, to watch over you as a guardian angel— no. That implies something pure, something platonic, her watchful gaze is that of a beast in the shadows waiting for the proper window to pounce. It’s not enough, it could never be enough. To simply just watch over your heavenly form, no, she wants a taste. To rip flesh from bone, watching muscles stretch before slinging backwards like elastic. To watch the garnet blood pearl up as she squishes your skin, veins popping out and bursting with a sickening noise. She wants to devour you, ma lapin.

She knows that the pathways of pain and pleasure, of love and obsession had been rubbed and severed long ago. That instead of being singular nervous circuits divided by that thin line of morality and normalcy, her brain had grown. Mutated and twisted along those paper thin walls before outright destroying it completely. Mangled flesh growing back to fill the bits dislodged by arrows of maturation. Scar tissue, more numerous than helpful towards true healing. The body’s own rushed procedure to ensure survival over comfort or sustainability. You were never the vain type, or so she has observed, so hopefully her visage didn’t disgust you. Rook can only pray that when she finally steps out from the shadows that you don’t flee. Even better if you attempt feebly to lick the wounds in her head and on her heart. Sevens, she wouldn’t mind if you decided to chew her injuries. Any attention of yours would be received with open arms, of course it’s preferable to be something gentle, to be something sweet as that of your soul but~! Beggars can’t be choosers when it comes to love.

Love, love, love, the word plays along her tongue. You’ll love her eventually, she’s sure of it. No good deed goes unpunished, hasn’t she racked up enough of those by now? Skeletons that happened to be in her closet were only the result of those that crossed her, it wasn’t evil to strike in retaliation now was it? Biting the hand that hurt instead of healed as it had promised to shouldn’t be condemned, but what would she know of morality? You’d learn to love her, the thought came forth again and again. To care for her quirks, adore hidden abnormalities, even embrace her eventually exposed eccentricities. You would coo at the sharp fangs lining her maw, aware of how she could tear you to shreds but your eyes adoring all the same. Loving because not despite her many shortcomings. Obsessing over her every move, desperately burrowing to her buried heart as obsessively as she had tried to figure out yours. Two kindred souls molded by circumstances now irrelevant, into beasts hidden as creatures. She longed for your love, lying there late at night staring into the dark abyss above imagining what would eventually come to pass. Just try not to take too long, oui? Even the most patient of huntresses would grow tired holding a full draw for so long.

And if you don’t? If you deny her the sweet rich taste of you being, oh~! Oh ma lapin surely you must know that there are consequences for every action, non? Surely if you were to deny her such delicacy it must have been because of your awareness and distaste for her own, how should you say, tendencies. You must be well aware that a petit thing like you would never grow into something she would fear. How foolish of you to still choose futile rebellion over the embrace of her arms. How charmingly naive of you to imagine yourself by any other’s side. It’s alright, for all pets need the tantalizing carrot and the sharp smacks of the stick at some point or another. What’s a chunk or two missing when your heart will beat to the frantic song of her love! Such a coy thing you are, such a frightened thing, you brought this upon your ma lapin~! It wasn’t how she had initially hoped for things to play out, brute force is for men with no sense of chivalry. However she can’t deny that this isn’t exciting all the same, hearing your cries day in and out, seeing your helpless body wriggle desperate to free itself, gaining claw marks from your sweet hands along her legs. No matter how wildly you try to prove your worthlessness, she’ll always love— love? love! LOVE you.