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Boy Leia... Leo, Lei Organa?
I had some fun with an app.
The lower are adult and teenage male!Leia.
In the top image from Jabba's palace, I think "he" kindareally looks like 19 year old Anakin in some ways, but with Shmi's lips.
when I saw the bearded one, I thought 'oh no, he's hot'
Bonus content with ✨babe-ified✨ Leia. All I did was take the male Leia and change him back to female.
For the first time, I actually think she looks like Padmé (minus the eyebrow arch), and gaped at my screen for minutes.
Boy Leia... Leo, Lei Organa?
Prince Lei Organa
I had some fun with an app.
The lower are adult and teenage male!Leia.
In the top image from Jabba's palace, I think "he" kindareally looks like 19 year old Anakin in some ways, but with Shmi's lips.
when I saw the bearded one, I thought 'oh no, he's hot'
Anakin Skywalker and C-PTSD
What is C-PTSD?
C-PTSD is a variation of PTSD wherein the condition develops not in response to an isolated traumatic event, but from trauma that is so long-term it becomes expected, and even normal. Victims who have suffered such long-term trauma exhibit symptoms above, and beyond mere PTSD: Hence, the term Comlex PTSD. C-PTSD has been widely accepted in the field of mental health, although it is not due to be officially recognised until 2017/2018. Curiously enough, due to the added symptoms to PTSD that characterise C-PTSD, before the condition was widely understood, it was often misdiagnosed as Borderline Personality Disorder, which Anakin was once considered by psychologists (whom I presume had a lot of fun watching Star Wars to diagnose him), to have had. Personally, although I’m no expert, C-PTSD seems more likely.
Trauma That can Lead to C-PTSD
Concentration camps
Prisoner of War camps
Prostitution brothels
Long-term domestic violence
Long-term child physical abuse
Long-term child sexual abuse
Organized child exploitation rings
In the case of the case of the fictional Anakin Skywalker: Slavery
Ultimately, C-PTSD develops when an individual is placed under long-lasting trauma, involving either physical or emotional captivity, where the victim is unable to easily escape, and is under the control of another individual. (This is essentially slavery under Watto and Gardulla for Anakin.)
Symptoms of C-PTSD
Emotional Regulation. May include persistent sadness, suicidal thoughts, explosive anger, or inhibited anger.
Consciousness. Includes forgetting traumatic events, reliving traumatic events, or having episodes in which one feels detached from one’s mental processes or body (dissociation).
Self-Perception. May include helplessness, shame, guilt, stigma, and a sense of being completely different from other human beings.
Distorted Perceptions of the Perpetrator. Examples include attributing total power to the perpetrator, becoming preoccupied with the relationship to the perpetrator, or preoccupied with revenge. (Obviously Anakin’s focus on slavers, and later on the Jedi.)
Relations with Others. Examples include isolation, distrust, or a repeated search for a rescuer.
One’s System of Meanings. May include a loss of sustaining faith or a sense of hopelessness and despair.
How This Affects Anakin Skywalker:
Anakin struggles to regulate his emotions. This is a widely observed fact. The problem with his emotional regulation stems from the fact that Anakin is unable to deal with his emotions as they come in the moment. When he was a child, he was forced to tamp down on his emotions, since he was not in a position to express them safely. As a result, they would manifest in ways disproportionate to the situation, often as a result of unrecognised triggers, long after the event that sparked his frustration. This lack of emotional regulation can also manifest in anxiety or depression. Anakin felt safe when he appeased his master. If Watto was happy, Anakin had less to fear. This mindset never changes as he grows up. It is never allowed to. Thusly, Anakin feels a lot of anxiety, as is observed in AoTC and in RoTS, because he doesn’t understand how to please the Council whom he perceives as having power over him. I believe it was @padawanlost who called him “a little nugget of self-doubt.” His self-perception is distorted as it is, due to the emotional abuse he’s suffered at the hands of slavers, and is only enhanced by his isolation by the Jedi Council for being “too old,” “shouldn’t have been trained,” or “lacks discipline.” Their dismissal of his problems enhances his problems, because he does not have a secure environment in which to heal. He is filled with self-doubt, and anger that he does not know how to regulate, because it has existed within him so long. The Jedi iteration of “letting it go” is not a feasible solution in his case, because he does not understand where the emotions are coming from. He needs to deal with that, before he can follow the Jedi way. Nevertheless, he never receives the opportunity, or support, to go back and deal with the root issues which stem way back in his childhood.
This lack of security and regulation is compounded by his own consciousnesses. Anakin is widely noted in fandom for not being self-aware. This is an understandable result of his traumatic childhood. Anakin is noted to dissociate. This is a phenomenon that occures when an individual can neither fight, nor flee, and therefore freezes. The victim shuts down just to function. The most obvious example of this occurs in Anakin when his mother dies. One can observe him pull back from an experience that is too traumatic for him to face. This compounds his ability to regulate his emotions, since he separates himself from them in a habitual effort to survive. As he is no longer aware of his own emotional state, having learned to detach from it for so long, he lashes out at things that trigger him, and he is unaware of why he even does. Moreover, he struggles to reaslise this truth, because he has repressed some of the traumatic events rather than face them. If the speculations in this post are true, then Anakin has even used the Force to deliberately hold back, or alter memories, because he feels he is not in a safe place to examine them. He needs to hold them back just to push forward, until he is safe. Unfortunately, he never reaches such a state. Also, it’s so traumatising to go back there, he just doesn’t want to, especially when he has never been encouraged to do so.
All of the above, not to mention how difficult it must have been for Anakin to leave slavery only to call people “master,” lead Anakin to isolate himself. His relations with others suffered. He didn’t know what they wanted from him. He didn’t know how to please them. He didn’t feel safe. He was insecure, confused, and unable to regulate his emotional state, and he felt he had to to please everybody. He couldn’t figure out how, everything was so different, so he just dissociated and avoided everyone. Naturally, by doing so, he compounded the original issue. Also, as noted above, this confusion and feeling of being lost, especially in abused children, can lead to a search for a rescuer, someone to cling to for support. To some extent Obi-Wan fills this role, but Palpatine does it better. Palpatine, whom Obi-Wan first introduces him to, is an adult who does not hold power over him, and is therefore easier to trust, and is someone whom he can confide in, and whom he does not have to struggle to please. For Anakin, in his vulnerable position, Palpatine is a god-send. Naturally, Palpatine took advantage of this. He uses it to continues to isolate Anakin, as abusers are wont to do. Moreover, he took Anakin’s increasing sense of despair, helplessness, and loss of faith in the system, (after all it had never helped him), to his advantage.
In conclusion, the Jedi Council, told Anakin that his childhood as a slave was a disadvantage, and that he should just forget about it. They were concerned about taking in a child with such trauma, but rather than address the root issues, and help him over come it, they chose to place the burden of becoming another Temple-raised cookie-cutter Jedi on him, and passive-aggressively lumped Obi-Wan in as well. In this manner, they offered the two little to no support. In doing so, they compounded Anakin’s C-PTSD, and this is what enabled Palpatine to take advantage of Anakin so easily. Ultimately, I don’t believe that this was because the Jedi didn’t believe in mental health issues, or didn’t know about trauma. There were Jedi who were trained to be healers; they even had a MediCorps, according to Legends, for crises. Moreover, all Jedi were trained to deal with the worst of emergency situations. They had to know how to handle civilians who had seen, and experienced devastating things. They should have known what PTSD was, and how it might have affected Anakin. However, as seen in TPM, by Mace’s apathetic “bring him before us then,” they wrote Anakin off. He was “too old.” They never intended to train him.They agreed to train him afterwards, because if the Sith were back, they had to keep an eye on this gifted child. They never really wanted him though. They were just keeping an eye on him to make sure he didn’t become a threat, and on the off-chance he fulfilled that prophecy. They also, I think, wanted to teach Obi-Wan a lesson for defying them, so he could be the one to “train the boy,” if he was so keen. Therefore, they just left Anakin and Obi-Wan to their own devices, and just swooped in occasionally to praise, but mostly to shake their heads in disapproval. They ignore Obi-Wan’s concerns about Anakin, and his indirect plea for help in AoTC, and just talk about how he might be the Chosen One. No support is offered. Unsurprisingly, this did nothing to create a safe environment for Anakin to thrive in. It just made everything worse.
May the 4th be with you
It's Star Wars day! 🥳
I need an image for this post, so I'm adding this piece I'm not really done with (98% or so, after I was 100% done with version 1 but decided to upscale it manually + improve his eyes and scars, which so far is 10 hours in), but it's my depiction of post-ROTJ Anakin.
This character has been with me for 20+ years, since just before ROTS, and I kept dreaming about a post-ROTJ scenario for the last few years, so I finally got back into SW and started writing it this last fall.
I did over 40 000 words in the first month, and it's so far at a jumbled 108 000.
I'm really burned out by life so I'm not drawing or writing a lot now, it's baby steps to get anything done.
Also I need a battle-damaged Vader in my life. I got rid of all my SW stuff a few years ago (nothing serious or expensive), and now I'm getting back into it.
Basically one of my special interests since I was a teenager is unmasked Vader. 😅 Now I'm also trying to make sense of all of his medical conditions and how leaving the suit would actually look like.

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Star Wars | Tidbit Tuesday | The Viking Family
The Swedish blood runs strong in the Skywalker family. Pernilla August is Swedish and Hayden Christensen is of Swedish descent (with his mother being half-Swedish; also his father, from whom he inherited his Scandinavian surname, is half-Danish), as is his on-screen son Mark Hamill. What’s more, Anakin’s stepbrother’s name is Lars which is a typical Swedish name. On the other hand, the mother-daughter duo Natalie Portman and Carrie Fisher share Jewish ancestry.
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This is canon.
When Han Solo tried to step on Darth Vader…
which is kinda funny
“Tell that to Vader“ must be a meme in Star Wars Universe
Have you ever wondered what Arch-Curate Vyrthur would look like with normal eyes? We found this in the game files (and this was actually not Vyrthur's model) 👇
There are 7 Snow Elf models in Skyrim files in total - Gelebor, Vyrthur and 5 Prelates in ghost form (Sidanyis, Athring, Celegriath, Nirilor, Edhelbor).
Me and my friend @guiquart were curious about how those Snow Elves look like without ghost skin. But in the game files we found something very unexpected.
I have a mod I found on Nexus. You can have Vyrthur as a follower, either as a vampire or mortal. It's actually an additional NPC (meaning "real" Vyrthur's corpse will still be around in the Forgotten Vale...), and he has a lot of lesser lines from the same voice type.
Baby Luke and his parents.
I mean he's the perfect mix between dad's coloring and mom's face.

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Luke Skywalker in The World Between Worlds
HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN - OBI-WAN KENOBI BEHIND THE SCENES
"I was so excited to get to do the bacta tank scenes. I had to be completely submerged in water holding my breath. For a few weeks leading up to it I got to work with a great dive coach, and he would teach me different breathing techniques. I think my longest breath holds were around two and a half minutes. It was surprisingly peaceful in there." [x]
Where are these clips actually from?
I've seen them in crappy (vertical) YouTube shorts with text overlays, but never the full clips in proper quality. I have seen "A Jedi's Return" (behind the scenes of the show), but it's not in there. :C
17 years ago today!
During the summer of 2008, I was 17 and worked as Padmé at the Star Wars Exhibition in Örnsköldsvik, Sweden (my hometown of <30k people, an amazing stroke of luck I still can't believe).
I'm now exactly twice the age that I was during July that summer. 😅The exhibition lasted from late June until September 30th. I spent most of my 2007-2008 school year working on that dress.
I know the skirt fabric wasn't really accurate, but we looked for a good long while and simply couldn't find anything better. It was the 2000s, resources online also weren't the same, and I couldn't just buy any fabric from Amazon or Aliexpress or whatever people do now. 🙂
The first two photos are from this date, while the last, where I'm standing with the stormtroopers, are from earlier that summer, for an interview with the local newspaper. At some point, I had pictures taken in that same scene with one of the Vaders, but I've never seen those photos. 🫤 (Holy hell he is intimidating though, standing with his arms and lightsaber around me.)
It was my very first paid work, and while I had my problems with social phobia, being in the Star Wars world made it all so much easier. A lot of visitors were sadly of the "watched SW once in cinemas in 1977 and never again"-kind, and I constantly got the question if I was Leia (as if she would ever be caught dead wearing black 😅), to which I replied "No, I'm Leia's mom", or "Did they wear that in the film?" "...Yes"
But there were also some real fans at times, and I got reactions ranging everywhere from someone pulling out a camera like they were doing something illegal, to people coming up and sooo politely asking if they could take a picture, and one guy who posed with me. 😆
It's been just over a month, and I've seriously never stopped taking every single free moment to either write or draw my favorite crispy ex-Jedi. 💀
A sunday a couple of weeks ago, I wrote over 7400 words, which I'm pretty impressed with myself for. *pat on shoulder*
Some years back, I wrote how Nanowrimo made me realize I actually don't like writing. And while it's true that I'm probably never going to like writing full stories for the sake of writing stories (like how I can sit and just draw/paint or sculpt for hours and always have more ideas), when it comes to a character like this where I have so much to explore, it's actually rewarding.
Like I need to read this story, and since no one else to my knowledge has written it, I need to do it.
And unlike in my teens and twenties when I knew I didn't have the skill, now I think I can do a decent enough job on prose, characterization and story beats, as my first serious fanfic project.
It's weird, but Anakin as a character has such an influence over my life that I completely forgot major personal problems I've been hurting from over the past 5+ years. Like they seriously feel cured for the very first time and of course my life is worth living even if this thing is never resolved. I'm free.
Him and Gelebor both have enormous influence over me, but now it's because they both returned (Anakin) or appeared (Gelebor) at specific times when I was actually ready to take that life advice.

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Don't worry, I haven't forgotten about Gelebor and snelves, and here's a WIP remake of that old pencil sketch I made.
Don't mind me, I'm just writing a scene where Anakin tells Luke that he realized he actually met Padmé in the afterlife (Anakin is alive, met Padmé in meditation and she told him something only Luke could know), and it actually broke me.
Luke always just wanted a mom, to know her even for just one moment. 😭❤️🩹